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I can't take this...
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xxxx...im pissed off right now..I told my gpa if he can take me to an alanon meeting..and he bitched saying do i have to go everyday I told them how much it meant to me...Without it I have nothing..bc my grandparents don't understand they are too old,and already set in their ways I am actually crying rig...
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why since its THEM being assholes is it US being punished
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and having to do all this crap?
They're drinking is THEIR problem. Why cant THEY get help and not come back to us until THEY'RE better? why is it US having to go get help? WE're already being punished living with this crap why arent THEY doing something about it and getting help?
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Barbara
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I am new and I have so much to learn
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This is hard for me,to admit I am failing and that this relationship that I tried to save is not good for me or him. My boyfriend is an alcoholic. I guess I learned this behavior because my mother is also an alcoholic and my father tries to control her, me and everyone else he knows. He has joined the program...
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Evilynn
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Re: UncleLou are you Okay?
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Thank you all for your support and empathy while I'm going through this. I really was at a point where I didn't care if I lived or not, but not at the point of considering taking my own life. I know these feelings will pass.
One thing I heard about us alcoholics; our emotional development stops about the...
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UncleLou
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I used to do everything with him
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When I first meet my husband 6 yrs ago I did everything with him. I really didn't go any where didn't have any girlfriends at all. Only really had too guy friends and that was really it. Then this year I went to an Alanon online meeting and started to chat with my now best friend and we were seeing that we were...
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nycbt
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Logging my calls
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Yesterday I have started to do a log on how many times I am calling my husband. I wanted to call him 8 times and I end up calling him 4 of those times. When I logged all the times and the reason I was like wow that is alot of times. However I am proud fo my self for only calling him 4 so I cut down on the calls by half. O...
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nycbt
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I am stronger
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Yesterday my husband has asked me about taking the car so he could go to the srap yaurd. I said no so he punished me. His son had to go to somewhere and my husband didn't want to take the ride but it is his grown son and the neighborhood isn't the nicest so he came. But he punish me the whole time. He started to ar...
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nycbt
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Telling him about the lawyer visit
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First, I would like to thnak you all for your posts. I had decided while I was in the attorney's office that I would give it unitl after the holidays to say anything. I had also mentioned it in conversations with my A, that maybe we should consider a formal separation he said to me:
"if you d...
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Kim
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Its time to kick his ass out!
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another sick day! and he's planning on taking Thurs too because of a doctor apt!
what a lazy ass - how do i go about finding a lawyer? and in MA do they get 50/50? cos thats the only thing holding me back! why should get 50% of my retirement?
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Barbara
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AA thought.....God DOES have me covered
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A.A. Thought for the Day
I am less sensitive and my feelings are less easily hurt. I no longer take myself so seriously. It didn't used to take much to insult me, to feel that I had been slighted or left on the outside. What happens to me now is not so important. One cause of our drinking was that we could...
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ENERGY VAMPIRES
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Hi Friends,
During Hurricane Wilma I was forced to listen to radio (snortle) and happened upon a show about people who suck the living daylights out of you and why. Thought this missive would be something you might find valuable to think about and add to your...
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Lani
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"God guide me in my recovery"
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November 15 Letting Go
"Take my will and my life. Guide me in my recovery. Show me how to live."Basic Text p. 25
How do we begin the process of letting our Higher Power guide our lives? When we seek advice about situations that trouble us, we often find that our Higher Power works through others. Wh...
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Here, On-line...
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Here, On-line, we are lucky if we see a face
But ultimately know, we are in the right place
Here, we offer each other love and support
Even if we have nothing to share or report
Here, On-line, in this global, universal web
A Guiding Voice is heard; our prayers are said
Here, we learn...
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Satori
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i wish life would STOP kicking my butt
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Hope for Today - November 15
When I heard "Let Go and Let God" for the first time, it didn't make sense to me. Let go of what? And let God do what? The little I did understand was the futility of my efforts to try to control other people, places, and things. Al-Anon told me I could turn m...
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The Power of a F2F meeting
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Last night I went to a meeting....it isn't my homegroup, but it is a good group of people w/a very serious meeting.
I was the last to read/speak. It was so enlightening to sit and listen to people. When it came time for my turn, I asked if it was okay if I skipped a reading and commented on the readings be...
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sg
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Effective Immediately....
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Another great email I received from a friend in recovery....Hope you enjoy the share.
Ten Guidelines from God... Effective Immediately, Please be aware that there are changes YOU need to make in YOUR life. These changes need to be completed in order that I may fulfill My promises to you to...
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Satori
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amanda's religion class
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tonight amanda was in religion and they made her make a god bowl out of clay. they told her that it was hers to ask god to help her with her needs. just like the god bad or box that we use here. they also told her that she had to forgive herself before she can forgive someone e...
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chrissy
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new job:)
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we'll i am starting my job today and i am leaving now. i just wanted to thank my friends here, for all your love and support i will not be able to be on in the day:( but i will be on at night:)
so i will talk to you later
hugs :)
chrissy
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chrissy
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Is there a link?
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Hi!
I have heard of a high rate of incidence between alcoholism and mental illness, especially depression and bipolar disorder. Does anyone have any knowledge or experience of this or do you think it may simply be a coincidence. My binge A has been diagnosed with...
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Feather
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Breakthrough
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Hello all....i feel like i haven't been here or talked to my friends in recovery in months. As a matter of fact, when i enter the chat room now, i no longer recognize anyone and very few say hello. But i wanted to share the progress that i feel i have made.
I have moved up to a new position at wo...
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Mandi
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I had to leave again
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I had to leave my husband again over the weekend. We have only been back together for 2 months and I really thought it was going to work. My husband is an active a and he got violent this weekend. I don't know what is going on with him. I have suspected that he is using drugs or drin...
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JulieLynn
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i saw the lawyer today
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Went to see the lawyer today and it went very well. Apparently, according to the attorney b/c I've been a smart cookie and have put nothing in his name, I'm pretty well protected. The house was mine before we married and all he would be entitled to is how much the house has appreciated in the course...
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Kim
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Quote
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I at times, start future tripping, is what I call it, worrying about things that haven't happened because of the histroy of my yesterdays...I started looking at quotes and found one that I really like, wanted to share...it has to do with staying in the present, letting yesterday go and not worrying ab...
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marmare
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wondering?
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A's son called today and I said I wasn't sure when he(A) would be back. Immediatly, he asks, "today?" In other words, has he gone on a binge?
Does the wondering ever end? It seems that there is always that doubt in our minds, even when things are going good.
Maybe we should all just take one day a...
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second guessing
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I was reading on these boards the other day and someone said something like thank god I'm not perfect, then what would I do? For some reason that stuck in my head and I got to thinking on the way home from work this weekend about how my hp didn't make me perfect. It makes sense I would mess up quite a bit as I w...
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hopefortoday
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Told his mother..
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Well, while my alcoholic husband was/is up at his usual watering hole today, his mother stopped by to pick up some fundraiser items she ordered from our boys. The topic switched and I felt my mouth utter .." What can I do to stop him from going to the bar?" She must have thought I was just maki...
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Donna
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I miss him...
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I really miss my brother a whole lot..He is 3 years younger than me. He lives with my father..He should not be there.My dad is very manipulative and abusive.I have called children services,but my dad has threatened my brother to be quiet or he will kill me,or someone else.The system is soo corrupt.My d...
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Lauren ashley
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Choices, Attitude Adjustment, Balance
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I'm having another one of those mornings where I wake up and notice "things" that the kids have/haven't done again. The one thing that really got my goat was seeing the toilet in the girls' bathroom plugged up - someone didn't flush or when they did it got plugged and they didn't bother to use the p...
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kismetstrand
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he fell off!!
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i compleatly lost it.yet again my partner was moaning about my son [ who is 17 and a good boy but lazy] it was just abit too much for me . my temper escaped from me . normaly i am very laid back but it was just before i went to work . since i am the wage earner . i work hard but i can not do every thing. anyway th...
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today was GREAT
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I went to therapy today, it was awesome. I brought my mother along & we had a 2 hour session. We talked a lot... & I wanted my therapist to know where I'm coming from & what I'm dealing with, with my mother. They connected it was wonderful.
The therapist did say s...
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kitty
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i am POWERLESS
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You are reading from God Grant Me . . . Turn your wounds into wisdom. OPRAH WINFREY We’ve all been hurt. We all carry scars from the healing of wounds—big ones and small ones. In early recovery, we think about those wounds and how we got them and what we might have done differently if we could do it all ove...
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Thanks to Al-Anon
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Thanks to Al-Anon I was able to be compassionate when my A finally showed up last night around 7:30 or so. When he started crying about how sorry he was for hurting me. That he now realizes how much more important his marriage is than the drugs and alcohol. That he has told me when he re...
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marmare
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UncleLou are you okay?
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((((((((((Lou))))))
Are you alright? I have been thinking about you, worrying about you and praying for you all day. If you have seen the replies to your post, you will see that many others feel the same way. Please let us know how you are doing.
Lots of supporting thoughts coming your way.
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Jeannie
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the same old thing
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Well this is the first time I have visited this website and thank goodness I have found it. It is just comforting to know that I am not the only person going through this. I'm not even sure if I have the right to be here or not. When I read what everyone else has written, it makes my problems seem trivial. I am a...
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Scottishgirl
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reading Lauren's poems inspired me to write
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I used to write much more in HS. I can only think of one other poem I wrote in the last 10 years at least.
My Straight Jacket
Paralyzed by Leukophobia
This jacket is the color
of a blinding blizzard white out
The jacket protects you from yourself and
pr...
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bobump
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wow...what a weekend!
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Good Morning to you.
Wow! what a weekend. If I could sum it up in just one word, it would be "Powerful". I have been given the gift of "Excellence". I can not really express fully the energy that I have found. This was a "Tell the Truth" weekend. Be real, the on...
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sunny1
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Nice weekend
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Surpising I had a nice weekend. There was no taking off and disappearing for a while. In the morning since he can't drive my car I drove him to the work place. He noticed when he got out of the car and didn't have his phone. The old me would of drove home right away and get the phone so I could call him. The new me...
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nycbt
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Inspiring Each Other, Growth
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Wow, just in the last few days, I have noticed the inspirational meetings & witnessing growth in our individual programs... God eludes us, is mystical in how HP works through us & touches us all through each other.
We are all messengers of God, Angels on Earth, transforming. ...
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kitty
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God grant me the ability to THINK B4 i act
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You are reading from God Grant Me . . . We cannot think first and act afterward. From the moment of birth we are immersed in action, and can only fitfully guide it by taking thought.ALFRED NORTH WHITEHEAD There’s a good reason that one of the slogans we use most in recovery is this one: Think. We are alwa...
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Spiritual Walk
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I had the great opportunity to attend the MA AA convention this past weekend. The Alanon program included a spiritual walk. Although I had heard of them before I have never been involved with one. What a truly special thing. For someone like me with trust issues it was a real...
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AlaMom
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CAME TO FIND OUT HWO TO GET THE "A' TO STOP DRINKING
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Even those of us who can identify the problem as active alcoholism probably have no idea what to do about it. We only know that we have tried lots of things that didnt work, We may have poured liquor out, hidden it, hidden money that might pay for it, even taken a few drinks ourselves in order to leave less f...
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gardengal
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im am so fricken pissed
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my husband is suppose to be moving back today he is coming after his appointment at 3 pm. now i have had serveral talks with my daughter & so has her real father & she was fine with him coming home . she is fine when she gets everything she wants or when she spends time with her boyfrien...
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chrissy
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Afraid of being taken for a fool again
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One day at a time, right?
Last night my A. took me out to a very nice dinner at the Olive Garden. We actually talked and shared some laughs. It has been what I have longed for for so long.
He seemed so different. The man I remembered. Quite the difference from last weekend when he got drunk and made a...
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sg
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God, just let me die
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She told me she was distancing herself from the other guy. She told our friend that she broke it off with him and he didn’t take it too well. I believed her. I set myself up. Last weekend I gave her space and let her have time alone with the kids. I hardly spoke to her all week. I thought that’s what she wante...
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UncleLou
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I don't want to fight you!
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During my meditation this morning I drifted back a few years…okay…A LOT of years…lol
I had a friend in High School that was also known as a bully. She lived two doors down from my house, so we hung out. She had what I would call a love/hate relationship with me. There were w...
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Satori
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5pm
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Well, he finally called. I did good, I am not angry just very hurt. He is on his way home, slept in his car and then went to a friends. I stated very calmly that the "we" is not fixable until his fixes the things in his life that he readily admits he is embarassed, ashamed, and angry with h...
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marmare
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I am Lost...
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Ok what I am sharing with you is something I have never shared with anyone..and something that I am not very proud of...SO don't judge me on it
You may take what you like and leave the rest..or just don't read it at all
I am sorry for being so cynical or blunt...but I just ya know..don't want you guys to t...
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Lauren ashley
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more of my poems
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The Memories are Fading Away
You held me in your arms when I was first born,
you snuggled me tight so I would be warm’
You told me you loved me and would never leave my side
I should have known you lied
Now I am sitting here thinking of why I believed all those things
When they weren’t even...
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Lauren ashley
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So Stressful
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I am so stressed out! The recovering alcoholic in my life, who happens to be my boyfriend, just relapsed not too long ago. Unfortunately, we don't live together so we don't get to spend a whole lot of time together anyway and now he has to go to an AA meeting every night for the next 90 d...
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ashraven
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Sat night and I ain't got nobody
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Well, my friend cancelled tonight so another night alone. I'm a little disappointed and restless. There really isn't anything else for me to do, so I guess it's just me and the dog again. It's kinda depressing. I am trying really hard to keep on track. Focus on myself, not give in to things...
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Kim
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maybe I'm learning how to comm. with my HP
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Oh the insidious disease. My HP gave me strength today thankfully. My a started on the asking for money again. Asking for $14. This is what her beverage of choice goes for today. I refused stating that I’m am not funding her addiction. She starts...
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bobump
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he is giving amanda a few days to get used to the idea:(
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chuck didn't come back yet because of amanda.:( he said to give her a few days to get used to the idea of him being home again. i am so upset i really missed him even more last night. this really sucks. he is doing good though & he is still at his moms. i am so mad at amanda. but i know she is 13 an...
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chrissy
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Gossip and Backstabbing- Yes, this means U---- Thank You ^Lucy
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Roomies,
When this topic was started a few days ago, I was upset. I did not see that we had a problem. But then i started wondering if someone would post this, would this be an issue? I guess the answer would be no.
Now, I am starting to understand that there could be problems. That my perception did not...
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Dolphin123
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I'm trying too hard to be perfect
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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference
three little lines, but it seems that the last few days I have neglected to make it to the last line (wisdom to know the difference)
I seem to have adopte...
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captcodee
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All over again?
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Well my A went snowmobiling today, called around 3:30 to tell me, they were okay and they might have to stay up in the mountains as it was snowing so badly. Then he called around 8:30 was back in town and would be headed home soon. Now his phone is turned off....is it starting all over a...
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marmare
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Friday night. Nothing to do...but so what?
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I came home from shopping today and was immediately filled with sadness. Christmas shopping today was a little hard at times b/c I was used to shopping for my family and now it is just limited to a few people (better for my pocketbook, not my psyche)...I had no plans this evening and I wanted to call my A. I...
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Kim
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Miss my a (exboyfriend) want to call
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Struggling VERY badly today with wanting to call him and hear his sweet voice again. But should I? I left him because he had a problem but I still love him soooo much. The last stupid conversation I ever had with him was about him planning on coming out to see me the next day and then&nb...
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Cyn
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I finally told my daughter...
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I finally told my daughter that I LOVE HER. I have said it many times in passing or at the door or at night time. But honestly, today, I looked into her eyes and told her that I loved her and that I meant it. I hugged her so hard. She was shocked and said thanks mom. Im sure com...
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sunny1
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promises, promises
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So, another day without the A. Another promise broken. When he stopped over the other night to get his linens he mentioned calling the landscaper to do the fall cleanup. I said why don't you just come and help me do it, this way you don't have to pay the landscaper, I would appreciate your sweat mor...
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Kim
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who am i to judge ANYone????
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A.A. Thought for the Day
Who am I to judge other people? Have I proved by my great success in life that I know all the answers? Exactly the opposite. Until I came into A.A., my life could be called a failure. I made all the mistakes one could make. I took all the wrong roads there were to take. On the basis...
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