Al-Anon Family Group - Al-Anon Family Group

jitsuka · jitsuka

Posted this as a reply to another thread, but just wanted to metaphorically scream. The A in my life demonstrates not one iota of attempting recovery, recogintion, acceptance or anything.In fact I am very, very stressed tonight and feel very highly strung.The A in my life was extremely rude, belig...

Curlyblu · Curlyblu

For the longest time, the morning after my A had been full out drunk, I would go in before he crawled out of bed and have this huge heart to heart about how I was feeling. Sometime repeat the mean things he had said. Because often at that time we would end up in a full out argument. Since finding this group. I'...

Mabel · Mabel

My first pot here. Ive been reading others' posts, they all speak to my experiences in a way i have never experienced wirh another human being. I have been to 2 meetings, some time ago now. And read daily from Courage to Change. I will go to meetings again

I've been in a relationship for around 16 years...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Happy Easter for all who celebrate. I know I am a day early but I figured now is the time....I am not a 'fan' of holidays just because they are difficult and often I am reminded of lost dreams, lost people, etc. For my entire life and longer, my whole family has gotten together - 3-5 generations dependin...

SerenityRUS · SerenityRUS

MINE .. so these last couple of holidays my BF and I have spent with his family. Awesome doesn't cut it, last weekend we were in the throws of making sugar eggs and having a blast!! I'll have to share some pictures of our art. So we won't be seeing them for Easter which I'm honestly ok with because this is...

Jerry F · Jerry F

Super interesting topic and discussion this morning at the Easter Feaster and annual celebration that my home group puts on every year. Attending the discussion was myself, my sponsor and a couple other guys and it was started by a sponsee. My sponsee had concerns on several fears and my sponsor w...

nycbt · nycbt

Hi I am trying to widen my support group. I have people at face to face meeting, and I am looking for more people so I can have alot of different views on things. I am from Union County

hotrod · hotrod

Step four has been posted to the step work board. I have posted the link below and am looking forward to your shares Step Work BoardWhere we discuss each of the Twelve StepsIn the order they are written, one step at a time, every two weeks.Learn How The Twelve Steps Work.Participate in your own re...

Cathyinaz · Cathyinaz

Good Morning Everyone I want to wish everyone a blessed Easter. I'm now in a funk and I'm so so sad and don't know what to do with myself. The hurt is deep and I think about being alone for the rest of my life and no one to take of me when I die. Crazy to think of this now but I am. I pray as the days pass I will b...

hotrod · hotrod

and PASSOVER The ODAT reading for April 16 speaks about the slogan:"Let go and Let God" . It suggests that once we are able to let go of a problem- solutions do unfold. These solutions are ones that we never dreamed possible' so that when we see things unfold like this,we come to realize that ano...

SerenityRUS · SerenityRUS

This really has struck me lately .. I totally get it and I can obsessively think about one thing usually singing the him's in my case. Him did me wrong. Him did this .. him did that .. LOL. I still do it .. guilty as charged. I thank GOD for Alanon because it put into perspective what is me causing pain to my...

gabigail · gabigail

Hi everyone- It's been over 100 days since my AS got a new liver and seemed to have a total 180 in attitude and apologizing for hurtful behaviors toward me. It has been like dealing with a new person at first. After staying in the hospital we stayed at a friend's house to recover (at that time our house set...

andromeda · andromeda

Tonight I spent the night with my bf's family. They are a completely dysfunctional group. Filled with alcoholics. I played the hostess and we all had a lovely time as we were celebrating his dad's 77th birthday. But, I miss my family. MY OWN DYSFUNCTIONAL family! I'm crying now because all I want to...

Isthisreallife · Isthisreallife

I posted yesterday the my husband called me at work to yell at me for talking to his sister. Today he got home from work way later than he should have and fell out of the car. He was so drunk he could hardly make it in the house. When he finally does he starts in on how I've betrayed him, I should have his back, an...

Marie71 · Marie71

Have any of you felt like this? Even after being away from the xeAH, I feel like I just watch life go by. I am in college, but have little money. I did take a painting class, and I enjoy it. But I still feel like I have nothing to offer anyone...the people I live with are musicians. I don't sing, I don't play a...

WhewWee · WhewWee

Morning all! I woke this morning to that maddening, obsessive thinking about the xAB. It truly is over. I need to stop looking back, but how? This man did not love me yet I stayed with him for over a year of my life. And here I am feeling so sad this morning thinking about how he's with someone else? As if he's...

MissM · MissM

Today's C2C is about personal safety. It begins by reminding us that when people come to al-anon, they often have a lot of questions that they want answers to. Should I stay? Should I leave? What should I do about the financial/practical/(insert difficulty here) problem? The reading suggests that...

Isthisreallife · Isthisreallife

My Husband missed family Easter last weekend with his family. Yes missed get togethers since last 4th of July. Including our daughters birthday in December bc he was too drunk to wake up. His family knows but don't really acknowledge it. His sister called me yesterday to see if they needed to an interv...

Mattie · Mattie

You may remember that my ex-AH is staying with us temporarily. I've been sick so that's been an extra stress. But tonight all my hard-earned emotional health just fell apart. To make a long story short, he did several of the kind of things he used to do. For instance, he need to file an extension for h...

VickiR · VickiR

Tonight I couldn't help myself. My AH called around the time he was supposed to be home to say "oh still at the office having an important meeting" (yes like almost every night, and these meetings are always at a bar) - he swore up and down he was still at the office and not a bar. Annoyed I moved on, but then h...

Mcat54 · Mcat54

My attorney advised me to stay off social media, so I haven't been posting. Thursday, we had a mediation and reached a settlement agreement. He gets the house and $100K from my IRA. (I was always worried that he didn't have enough saved for retirement. I was right. Ha.) What did I get? I get to keep m...

Aline · Aline

My now Xabf contacted me yesterday and I agreed we should talk in person. I went to his flat today.It turns out he hadn't contacted me for over a week since I left because he felt hurt by my leaving (not for the first time), feeling he's had enough of it. From his pov, I guess he sees me as this flighty gf who ju...

Iamhere · Iamhere

In Courage to Change today, the reading discusses 'stinking thinking'. For many of us, we develop a heightened awareness of our thoughts as we recover. In time, we are able to notice when our thinking becomes distorted. If we want to stop the negative thoughts, we have the tools taught by our progr...

LinSC · LinSC

You are still helping people in your sad times Cathy. I applaud you, you are quite a woman. Thank you for what a good example you are putting forth. I can't imagine what you are going through now but there is still a certain "bright spirit" in you that will never die. I am amazed. Linsc

Green Eyes · Green Eyes

It's been awhile since I've posted, but I still try to check in here now and then. Today is my twin daughters' 30th birthday. One of my twins is my qualifier. We have been in very little contact since my AH's passing four years ago. She continues to play the victim and still blames my AH's death on my leavin...

At a crossroads · At a crossroads

Hello, I'm new to Al Anon. I haven't attended a meeting yet, but plan to do so soon. I have an AH, who just started drinking again. We have been married less than 3 years. I didn't know he was an alcoholic when we married. Soon into the marriage he became an active drinker, and then it all came out. He has been...

VickiR · VickiR

Tonight I couldn't help myself. My AH called around the time he was supposed to be home to say "oh still at the office having an important meeting" (yes like almost every night, and these meetings are always at a bar) - he swore up and down he was still at the office and not a bar. Annoyed I moved on, but then h...

Cathyinaz · Cathyinaz

Dear Family I lost my beautiful son tonight. He is finally at peace. I'm lost Oh God let him be happy

Lee51 · Lee51

I attended my first meeting on Monday and my second last evening. I'm hopeful that being in a supportive environment will help me work through my issues. It has been exhausting trying to keep up an appearance of normalcy. Like many families, problems weren't talked about much in my family; everyone w...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Good morning/afternoon all - sorry for the late daily - my morning has gone different than planned! Today's reading talks about how we improve in our responses, relationships and intuition with recovery. We consider responding with kindness when we are uncertain because - why not? We also can ac...

WhewWee · WhewWee

My abf broke up with me. I'm not surprised. I've been trying to detach for a while, because I know this is ultimately what's best for me. I couldn't even say that I would have fallen in even the top four things that matter to him in his life. He had no future plans for us. I could tell that he didn't truly care a...

VickiR · VickiR

Sorry if this is long. I am sitting here alone another night. I posted last week, but my AH and I had a particularly bad week last night, he was drinking every night and didn't come home after work a few times and then Friday he stayed out until 6:30 in the morning doing god knows what. He missed a family outi...

Aline · Aline

Hi all, I want to share my story (so far). I had been living with my ABF for close to 10 years and we've been together since I was 16, so for around 12 years now. We used to drink together, the two of us or in larger company, a lot and often, but I didn't see a big problem with that for a long time. At some point I re...

El · El

I am trying to apply program tools to all areas of my life; I want to improve all relationships and be the best me that I can. I am really struggling with my brother and his obvious disinterest in what is happening here with his family; meaning our elderly mother and myself. He lives out of state and comes t...

wifeofalcoholic · wifeofalcoholic

I have often thought about alcoholism being a disease. I don't struggle with the label but I do struggle with all the differences of what family members go through. Let me list them: 1. Alcoholics lie about many things 2. Alcoholics keep secrets 3. Alcoholics apologize for their condition 4. ...

MissKid · MissKid

Hello all! I am 53 and have been in relationships with A's my whole life. It started with my father, then mother and step father. My first marriage was to an emotionally unavailable man (I was pregnant.) My second was to a momma's boy. My third to the very definition of an addict. I, too, tend to have an add...

Tthump · Tthump

I'm at a loss...I go to meetings. I listen. I apply what I hear. But sometimes circumstances .. Situations...Feel hopeless...My son's decisions do affect me..They affect my grandchild..They affect my relationship with my grandchild..It's just a vicious circle of swirling s**t...And it's very...

Rickbrins · Rickbrins

I failed myself and my recovering AGf today... This was my first trip away from home since she finished her 90 day in house rehab. I failed and resorted to my old ways of tracking and questioning. I lost my focus. She was doing what she felt necessary for her recovery and all I could see was her going back to...

Mattie · Mattie

I mentioned earlier that my ex-AH is staying with us for a while to see our kid. He is a binge drinker and he is not drinking at this particular juncture - in fact he is so feeble that I would be surprised if he could get out to buy any alcohol. We don't have a car and although we are in a city, I think the neares...

KT2015 · KT2015

I've been trying to write this post on and off for more than a week but I just can't figure out exactly what the point of it is. So I keep deleting it and starting over. This time I am going to get it out. I feel like I'm starting to accept that my AH is in fact an AH and that our relationship isn't healthy. ...

runi · runi

what is denial and what does it look like in daily life? detachment with love? when is it denial and when is it detachment and how do i tell the difference.

Enigmatic · Enigmatic

Who of us hasn't felt despair at one time or another, especially before recovery: the feeling of hopelessness and no way out. Today's page describes despair as an absence of faith, felt when we expect solutions to come only from us. Perhaps we lost our faith, maybe we never had it. AlAnon gives us the op...

a4l · a4l

Coming out of denial is a bit like chipping off a cast. At first, little pieces come away and you can see the bits underneath. You keep chipping away, little pieces keep falling, then get bigger. Keep chipping, chipping then in a soft but fast crumble, the whole thing is revealed and its Very different t...

MissM · MissM

HE has a court-date tomorrow morning. I've been worried about it and the high potential for jail-time, but when I spoke to him a couple of weeks ago he told me he'd spoken to a lawyer who said he was sure he could get an adjournment as he needed time to review the case etc. So I put it out of my mind until there w...

SerenityRUS · SerenityRUS

I'm adjusting to a new norm of having someone who steps in where in the moment don't have the ability to always be there. I enjoy some aspects of it .. however I still have triggers that are very valid based upon the issue of dealing with someone who lacks common sense and was in an altered state of mind. T...

Hoot Nanny · Hoot Nanny

What a beautiful day! I just want to share my day w you. The sun is shining on this beautiful spring day. I am so excited to get out & enjoy the sunshine. We have had a long winter & it is time to get out finally! I am so grateful for anything positive that happens to me. It is my God-given gift to share t...

_bunny_ · _bunny_

Al-Anon provides me with simple tools to make my life more manageable. But sometimes I make it complicated, by overthinking a process, a step or a slogan making them complex and confusing. I get stuck in my head and I'm unable to move forward in my recovery. This is when I have to remind myself to "keep it...

pumkin26 · pumkin26

So yesterday I found myself in a mess of my own doing. Wallowing and such... I quickly recognized and tried to change my attitude around. Jump to today. Sundays are always the hardest. I wake up with anxiety wondering if my A was going to follow thru on plans and promises he has made to the boys. Today is no...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning Everyone: Today's reading is about the influence of alcoholism on our feelings. Do we try to draw attention to ourselves? Do we avoid having attention on ourselves? Do we try to control and manage our feelings? Personally there are two points that stand out to me in today's reading- one...

Iamhere · Iamhere

We all know, experience and hear how cunning, baffling and powerful this disease is.....For me, yesterday was an interesting day. I say interesting instead of maddening, sad, crazy, insane as it was all that and then some. I'll be as brief as I can - nobody likes to read long, long posts. My oldest so...

Foomamapop · Foomamapop

This is my first post, I've read many of yours and hope I'm following group guidelines. I've been to two meetings the last two weeks after avoiding them for months. I suppose I don't want to admit that this is my new normal, that this did indeed happen in my life. I have an AH who was mostly sober for 13 years...

lookingup · lookingup

Today I'd like to share on the 3 As and people pleasing,and jade. ive come to realize that I am still a people pleaser even when sick,and then jump to jadeing ,justifieing defending and explaining as to why I can't do some things when I'm sick,as in not get out around others to spread my virus,or just real...

SerenityRUS · SerenityRUS

I seem to attract difficult people who have little to do with me in all reality. They always seem to be on the outskirts of my life. The good news is I am learning that trying to talk rationally to some of them is like arguing with a fence post .. and as someone very close and wise recently pointed out to me ....

ForwardMotion · ForwardMotion

Briefly, my A is being discharged today, after weeks in detox followed by in-patient. He'll be doing out-patient at the same facility, but we pick him up tonight after that. My son is worried...rightly so...about "who" is coming home. And you know what? So am I. I've had my ups and downs this who...

shrnp · shrnp

Today my A ex=bf called me and started talking about how I do not want to see him. Last night he was depressed and called me. I actually have not said that I did not want to see him, I just do not want him spending the night at my house. He does not drive and he is expecting to be able to get someone to drop him off a...

Enigmatic · Enigmatic

Today's author notes how we may view ourselves as victims, especially as it relates to the effects of the disease of alcoholism. Work in Steps 4 and 8 can help us see and address where we, too, have caused harm to others. This is an opportunity for balance, for not swinging from one extreme to the other by...

SerenityRUS · SerenityRUS

One thing that keeps coming back to the forefront of my mind is how I teach others to treat me. The biggest thing I ask myself is what would I say to my best friend if she came to me telling me the same story? Since finding Alanon it is easier to be gentle with myself and ask harder questions in terms of if thi...

SoLost · SoLost

WOW. I've been on the receiving end of my AH's anger before (not physically, just emotionally and verbally) but DANG, he's on a new level this weekend. Maybe it's because he can't drink and he knows it. He's on his last leg at work and his oldest child refuses to even speak to him since he missed her bir...

PosiesandPuppies · PosiesandPuppies

My AH is still actively drinking. Not pass out drunk anymore, but the kind where he tries to hide it, all the while promising he will get help. He never follows through on that. I have moved on to ACCEPTANCE, b/c I have to.But because of his continued usage, he health is deteriorating. He has some decent...

hotrod · hotrod

The ODA T reading for April 9 talks about being in a crisis that lasts for what seems like an eternity. When we are involved with these difficult experiences, we can find no escape and the problem occupies our thoughts continually. This is the time that we must remind ourselves that we need to recal...

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	Grrrrr. Wanna scream. (Preview) Posted this as a reply to another thread, but just wanted to metaphorically scream. The A in my life demonstrates not one iota of attempting recovery, recogintion, acceptance or anything.In fact I am very, very stressed tonight and feel very highly strung.The A in my life was extremely rude, belig...	jitsuka	13	506	Apr 18, 2017 by Mattie
	How do you talk to your A (ESH Please) (Preview) For the longest time, the morning after my A had been full out drunk, I would go in before he crawled out of bed and have this huge heart to heart about how I was feeling. Sometime repeat the mean things he had said. Because often at that time we would end up in a full out argument. Since finding this group. I'...	Curlyblu	21	479	Apr 17, 2017 by Curlyblu
	Hi :) New here (Preview) My first pot here. Ive been reading others' posts, they all speak to my experiences in a way i have never experienced wirh another human being. I have been to 2 meetings, some time ago now. And read daily from Courage to Change. I will go to meetings again I've been in a relationship for around 16 years...	Mabel	6	388	Apr 17, 2017 by shrnp
	Happy Easter (early).... (Preview) Happy Easter for all who celebrate. I know I am a day early but I figured now is the time....I am not a 'fan' of holidays just because they are difficult and often I am reminded of lost dreams, lost people, etc. For my entire life and longer, my whole family has gotten together - 3-5 generations dependin...	Iamhere	10	512	Apr 17, 2017 by Iamhere
	A funny about control .. LOL (Preview) MINE .. so these last couple of holidays my BF and I have spent with his family. Awesome doesn't cut it, last weekend we were in the throws of making sugar eggs and having a blast!! I'll have to share some pictures of our art. So we won't be seeing them for Easter which I'm honestly ok with because this is...	SerenityRUS	4	514	Apr 17, 2017 by SerenityRUS
	What do you fear the most? (Preview) Super interesting topic and discussion this morning at the Easter Feaster and annual celebration that my home group puts on every year. Attending the discussion was myself, my sponsor and a couple other guys and it was started by a sponsee. My sponsee had concerns on several fears and my sponsor w...	Jerry F	10	463	Apr 17, 2017 by Jerry F
	LOOKING FOR PEOPLE FROM JERSEY (Preview) Hi I am trying to widen my support group. I have people at face to face meeting, and I am looking for more people so I can have alot of different views on things. I am from Union County	nycbt	4	2558	Apr 17, 2017 by Bo
	Step 4 (Preview) Step four has been posted to the step work board. I have posted the link below and am looking forward to your shares Step Work BoardWhere we discuss each of the Twelve StepsIn the order they are written, one step at a time, every two weeks.Learn How The Twelve Steps Work.Participate in your own re...	hotrod	0	510	Apr 17, 2017 by hotrod
	I'm so sad (Preview) Good Morning Everyone I want to wish everyone a blessed Easter. I'm now in a funk and I'm so so sad and don't know what to do with myself. The hurt is deep and I think about being alone for the rest of my life and no one to take of me when I die. Crazy to think of this now but I am. I pray as the days pass I will b...	Cathyinaz	21	1261	Apr 16, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	ODAT Reading 4-16-2017 (Preview) and PASSOVER The ODAT reading for April 16 speaks about the slogan:"Let go and Let God" . It suggests that once we are able to let go of a problem- solutions do unfold. These solutions are ones that we never dreamed possible' so that when we see things unfold like this,we come to realize that ano...	hotrod	8	251	Apr 16, 2017 by hotrod
	Obsessive thoughts .. (Preview) This really has struck me lately .. I totally get it and I can obsessively think about one thing usually singing the him's in my case. Him did me wrong. Him did this .. him did that .. LOL. I still do it .. guilty as charged. I thank GOD for Alanon because it put into perspective what is me causing pain to my...	SerenityRUS	4	455	Apr 16, 2017 by MeTwo2
	Guilt trips and frustration (Preview) Hi everyone- It's been over 100 days since my AS got a new liver and seemed to have a total 180 in attitude and apologizing for hurtful behaviors toward me. It has been like dealing with a new person at first. After staying in the hospital we stayed at a friend's house to recover (at that time our house set...	gabigail	6	307	Apr 16, 2017 by tiredtonite
	Sad and crying.....blah (Preview) Tonight I spent the night with my bf's family. They are a completely dysfunctional group. Filled with alcoholics. I played the hostess and we all had a lovely time as we were celebrating his dad's 77th birthday. But, I miss my family. MY OWN DYSFUNCTIONAL family! I'm crying now because all I want to...	andromeda	12	2342	Apr 16, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	I have no words (Preview) I posted yesterday the my husband called me at work to yell at me for talking to his sister. Today he got home from work way later than he should have and fell out of the car. He was so drunk he could hardly make it in the house. When he finally does he starts in on how I've betrayed him, I should have his back, an...	Isthisreallife	6	488	Apr 15, 2017 by Enigmatic
	I am tired of just 'existing' (Preview) Have any of you felt like this? Even after being away from the xeAH, I feel like I just watch life go by. I am in college, but have little money. I did take a painting class, and I enjoy it. But I still feel like I have nothing to offer anyone...the people I live with are musicians. I don't sing, I don't play a...	Marie71	9	574	Apr 15, 2017 by jitsuka
	Early morning vent session (Preview) Morning all! I woke this morning to that maddening, obsessive thinking about the xAB. It truly is over. I need to stop looking back, but how? This man did not love me yet I stayed with him for over a year of my life. And here I am feeling so sad this morning thinking about how he's with someone else? As if he's...	WhewWee	8	442	Apr 15, 2017 by SerenityRUS
	Courage To Change 15/4 (Preview) Today's C2C is about personal safety. It begins by reminding us that when people come to al-anon, they often have a lot of questions that they want answers to. Should I stay? Should I leave? What should I do about the financial/practical/(insert difficulty here) problem? The reading suggests that...	MissM	1	229	Apr 15, 2017 by hotrod
	So frustrated (Preview) My Husband missed family Easter last weekend with his family. Yes missed get togethers since last 4th of July. Including our daughters birthday in December bc he was too drunk to wake up. His family knows but don't really acknowledge it. His sister called me yesterday to see if they needed to an interv...	Isthisreallife	3	382	Apr 14, 2017 by shrnp
	All my recovery fell apart (Preview) You may remember that my ex-AH is staying with us temporarily. I've been sick so that's been an extra stress. But tonight all my hard-earned emotional health just fell apart. To make a long story short, he did several of the kind of things he used to do. For instance, he need to file an extension for h...	Mattie	9	505	Apr 14, 2017 by a4l
	I got sucked in (Preview) Tonight I couldn't help myself. My AH called around the time he was supposed to be home to say "oh still at the office having an important meeting" (yes like almost every night, and these meetings are always at a bar) - he swore up and down he was still at the office and not a bar. Annoyed I moved on, but then h...	VickiR	3	465	Apr 14, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	Divorced now (Preview) My attorney advised me to stay off social media, so I haven't been posting. Thursday, we had a mediation and reached a settlement agreement. He gets the house and $100K from my IRA. (I was always worried that he didn't have enough saved for retirement. I was right. Ha.) What did I get? I get to keep m...	Mcat54	9	597	Apr 14, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	Broke up (Preview) My now Xabf contacted me yesterday and I agreed we should talk in person. I went to his flat today.It turns out he hadn't contacted me for over a week since I left because he felt hurt by my leaving (not for the first time), feeling he's had enough of it. From his pov, I guess he sees me as this flighty gf who ju...	Aline	6	260	Apr 14, 2017 by Aline
	Courage to Change (C2C) 4/14/17 (Preview) In Courage to Change today, the reading discusses 'stinking thinking'. For many of us, we develop a heightened awareness of our thoughts as we recover. In time, we are able to notice when our thinking becomes distorted. If we want to stop the negative thoughts, we have the tools taught by our progr...	Iamhere	2	394	Apr 14, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	Cathy (Preview) You are still helping people in your sad times Cathy. I applaud you, you are quite a woman. Thank you for what a good example you are putting forth. I can't imagine what you are going through now but there is still a certain "bright spirit" in you that will never die. I am amazed. Linsc	LinSC	6	331	Apr 14, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	AD Estrangement Continues (Preview) It's been awhile since I've posted, but I still try to check in here now and then. Today is my twin daughters' 30th birthday. One of my twins is my qualifier. We have been in very little contact since my AH's passing four years ago. She continues to play the victim and still blames my AH's death on my leavin...	Green Eyes	7	509	Apr 14, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	Decisions-Need Advice (Preview) Hello, I'm new to Al Anon. I haven't attended a meeting yet, but plan to do so soon. I have an AH, who just started drinking again. We have been married less than 3 years. I didn't know he was an alcoholic when we married. Soon into the marriage he became an active drinker, and then it all came out. He has been...	At a crossroads	22	691	Apr 14, 2017 by Iamhere
	I got sucked in (Preview) Tonight I couldn't help myself. My AH called around the time he was supposed to be home to say "oh still at the office having an important meeting" (yes like almost every night, and these meetings are always at a bar) - he swore up and down he was still at the office and not a bar. Annoyed I moved on, but then h...	VickiR	3	402	Apr 14, 2017 by VickiR
	My Son ( 1 2 ) (Preview) Dear Family I lost my beautiful son tonight. He is finally at peace. I'm lost Oh God let him be happy	Cathyinaz	50	5634	Apr 14, 2017 by WhewWee
	New to Al Anon - Already a Bump (Preview) I attended my first meeting on Monday and my second last evening. I'm hopeful that being in a supportive environment will help me work through my issues. It has been exhausting trying to keep up an appearance of normalcy. Like many families, problems weren't talked about much in my family; everyone w...	Lee51	12	521	Apr 13, 2017 by Lee51
	Courage to Change (C2C) 4/13/17 (Preview) Good morning/afternoon all - sorry for the late daily - my morning has gone different than planned! Today's reading talks about how we improve in our responses, relationships and intuition with recovery. We consider responding with kindness when we are uncertain because - why not? We also can ac...	Iamhere	2	253	Apr 13, 2017 by Enigmatic
	Super Sad Newbie (Preview) My abf broke up with me. I'm not surprised. I've been trying to detach for a while, because I know this is ultimately what's best for me. I couldn't even say that I would have fallen in even the top four things that matter to him in his life. He had no future plans for us. I could tell that he didn't truly care a...	WhewWee	10	486	Apr 13, 2017 by pinkchip
	Detachment = coldness (Preview) Sorry if this is long. I am sitting here alone another night. I posted last week, but my AH and I had a particularly bad week last night, he was drinking every night and didn't come home after work a few times and then Friday he stayed out until 6:30 in the morning doing god knows what. He missed a family outi...	VickiR	12	662	Apr 13, 2017 by SerenityRUS
	My story (Preview) Hi all, I want to share my story (so far). I had been living with my ABF for close to 10 years and we've been together since I was 16, so for around 12 years now. We used to drink together, the two of us or in larger company, a lot and often, but I didn't see a big problem with that for a long time. At some point I re...	Aline	7	510	Apr 13, 2017 by Aline
	Powerless over everyone -ESH? (Preview) I am trying to apply program tools to all areas of my life; I want to improve all relationships and be the best me that I can. I am really struggling with my brother and his obvious disinterest in what is happening here with his family; meaning our elderly mother and myself. He lives out of state and comes t...	El	8	303	Apr 13, 2017 by El
	Alcoholism is a disease (Preview) I have often thought about alcoholism being a disease. I don't struggle with the label but I do struggle with all the differences of what family members go through. Let me list them: 1. Alcoholics lie about many things 2. Alcoholics keep secrets 3. Alcoholics apologize for their condition 4. ...	wifeofalcoholic	5	305	Apr 13, 2017 by el-cee
	New to the program, not the disease (Preview) Hello all! I am 53 and have been in relationships with A's my whole life. It started with my father, then mother and step father. My first marriage was to an emotionally unavailable man (I was pregnant.) My second was to a momma's boy. My third to the very definition of an addict. I, too, tend to have an add...	MissKid	3	393	Apr 12, 2017 by Iamhere
	I'm hurting right now (Preview) I'm at a loss...I go to meetings. I listen. I apply what I hear. But sometimes circumstances .. Situations...Feel hopeless...My son's decisions do affect me..They affect my grandchild..They affect my relationship with my grandchild..It's just a vicious circle of swirling s**t...And it's very...	Tthump	14	391	Apr 12, 2017 by Cathyinaz
	Serenity obliterated today (Preview) I failed myself and my recovering AGf today... This was my first trip away from home since she finished her 90 day in house rehab. I failed and resorted to my old ways of tracking and questioning. I lost my focus. She was doing what she felt necessary for her recovery and all I could see was her going back to...	Rickbrins	17	461	Apr 12, 2017 by Rickbrins
	Compulsive behavior (Preview) I mentioned earlier that my ex-AH is staying with us for a while to see our kid. He is a binge drinker and he is not drinking at this particular juncture - in fact he is so feeble that I would be surprised if he could get out to buy any alcohol. We don't have a car and although we are in a city, I think the neares...	Mattie	7	384	Apr 12, 2017 by SerenityRUS
	tired of living with Alcoholism (Preview) I've been trying to write this post on and off for more than a week but I just can't figure out exactly what the point of it is. So I keep deleting it and starting over. This time I am going to get it out. I feel like I'm starting to accept that my AH is in fact an AH and that our relationship isn't healthy. ...	KT2015	11	447	Apr 12, 2017 by Bo
	what is denial??? (Preview) what is denial and what does it look like in daily life? detachment with love? when is it denial and when is it detachment and how do i tell the difference.	runi	8	569	Apr 12, 2017 by Bo
	4/12/17 One Day at a Time in AlAnon (Preview) Who of us hasn't felt despair at one time or another, especially before recovery: the feeling of hopelessness and no way out. Today's page describes despair as an absence of faith, felt when we expect solutions to come only from us. Perhaps we lost our faith, maybe we never had it. AlAnon gives us the op...	Enigmatic	3	481	Apr 12, 2017 by Iamhere
	can't look away. long long reflection (Preview) Coming out of denial is a bit like chipping off a cast. At first, little pieces come away and you can see the bits underneath. You keep chipping away, little pieces keep falling, then get bigger. Keep chipping, chipping then in a soft but fast crumble, the whole thing is revealed and its Very different t...	a4l	3	308	Apr 12, 2017 by Iamhere
	Now I'm the selfish jerk. Ugh. (Preview) HE has a court-date tomorrow morning. I've been worried about it and the high potential for jail-time, but when I spoke to him a couple of weeks ago he told me he'd spoken to a lawyer who said he was sure he could get an adjournment as he needed time to review the case etc. So I put it out of my mind until there w...	MissM	6	639	Apr 12, 2017 by Mattie
	Kids and Medicine (Preview) I'm adjusting to a new norm of having someone who steps in where in the moment don't have the ability to always be there. I enjoy some aspects of it .. however I still have triggers that are very valid based upon the issue of dealing with someone who lacks common sense and was in an altered state of mind. T...	SerenityRUS	5	266	Apr 12, 2017 by SerenityRUS
	I am stoked! (Preview) What a beautiful day! I just want to share my day w you. The sun is shining on this beautiful spring day. I am so excited to get out & enjoy the sunshine. We have had a long winter & it is time to get out finally! I am so grateful for anything positive that happens to me. It is my God-given gift to share t...	Hoot Nanny	4	406	Apr 12, 2017 by milkwood
	Sometimes I complicate it (Preview) Al-Anon provides me with simple tools to make my life more manageable. But sometimes I make it complicated, by overthinking a process, a step or a slogan making them complex and confusing. I get stuck in my head and I'm unable to move forward in my recovery. This is when I have to remind myself to "keep it...	_bunny_	4	481	Apr 11, 2017 by Stan1
	my anxiety response to the anger, help! (Preview) So yesterday I found myself in a mess of my own doing. Wallowing and such... I quickly recognized and tried to change my attitude around. Jump to today. Sundays are always the hardest. I wake up with anxiety wondering if my A was going to follow thru on plans and promises he has made to the boys. Today is no...	pumkin26	21	598	Apr 11, 2017 by pumkin26
	Apr 11 hope for Today (Preview) Good morning Everyone: Today's reading is about the influence of alcoholism on our feelings. Do we try to draw attention to ourselves? Do we avoid having attention on ourselves? Do we try to control and manage our feelings? Personally there are two points that stand out to me in today's reading- one...	yanksfan51	2	312	Apr 11, 2017 by Iamhere
	The Insanity of the Disease.... (Preview) We all know, experience and hear how cunning, baffling and powerful this disease is.....For me, yesterday was an interesting day. I say interesting instead of maddening, sad, crazy, insane as it was all that and then some. I'll be as brief as I can - nobody likes to read long, long posts. My oldest so...	Iamhere	32	859	Apr 10, 2017 by Iamhere
	This isn't the roller coaster I want to ride (Preview) This is my first post, I've read many of yours and hope I'm following group guidelines. I've been to two meetings the last two weeks after avoiding them for months. I suppose I don't want to admit that this is my new normal, that this did indeed happen in my life. I have an AH who was mostly sober for 13 years...	Foomamapop	5	269	Apr 10, 2017 by Jerry F
	Awareness,acceptance,action and people pleasing (Preview) Today I'd like to share on the 3 As and people pleasing,and jade. ive come to realize that I am still a people pleaser even when sick,and then jump to jadeing ,justifieing defending and explaining as to why I can't do some things when I'm sick,as in not get out around others to spread my virus,or just real...	lookingup	8	337	Apr 10, 2017 by lookingup
	Arguing with a fence post .. (Preview) I seem to attract difficult people who have little to do with me in all reality. They always seem to be on the outskirts of my life. The good news is I am learning that trying to talk rationally to some of them is like arguing with a fence post .. and as someone very close and wise recently pointed out to me ....	SerenityRUS	3	409	Apr 10, 2017 by a4l
	Nervous... (Preview) Briefly, my A is being discharged today, after weeks in detox followed by in-patient. He'll be doing out-patient at the same facility, but we pick him up tonight after that. My son is worried...rightly so...about "who" is coming home. And you know what? So am I. I've had my ups and downs this who...	ForwardMotion	3	385	Apr 10, 2017 by shrnp
	A wolf in sheep's clothing (Preview) Today my A ex=bf called me and started talking about how I do not want to see him. Last night he was depressed and called me. I actually have not said that I did not want to see him, I just do not want him spending the night at my house. He does not drive and he is expecting to be able to get someone to drop him off a...	shrnp	4	273	Apr 10, 2017 by shrnp
	4/10/17 Courage to Change (Preview) Today's author notes how we may view ourselves as victims, especially as it relates to the effects of the disease of alcoholism. Work in Steps 4 and 8 can help us see and address where we, too, have caused harm to others. This is an opportunity for balance, for not swinging from one extreme to the other by...	Enigmatic	4	431	Apr 10, 2017 by Iamhere
	How we teach others to treat us .. (Preview) One thing that keeps coming back to the forefront of my mind is how I teach others to treat me. The biggest thing I ask myself is what would I say to my best friend if she came to me telling me the same story? Since finding Alanon it is easier to be gentle with myself and ask harder questions in terms of if thi...	SerenityRUS	9	578	Apr 10, 2017 by KT2015
	Oh the Anger.... (Preview) WOW. I've been on the receiving end of my AH's anger before (not physically, just emotionally and verbally) but DANG, he's on a new level this weekend. Maybe it's because he can't drink and he knows it. He's on his last leg at work and his oldest child refuses to even speak to him since he missed her bir...	SoLost	2	390	Apr 10, 2017 by hotrod
	Did You Ever Consider This? (Preview) My AH is still actively drinking. Not pass out drunk anymore, but the kind where he tries to hide it, all the while promising he will get help. He never follows through on that. I have moved on to ACCEPTANCE, b/c I have to.But because of his continued usage, he health is deteriorating. He has some decent...	PosiesandPuppies	6	448	Apr 10, 2017 by PosiesandPuppies
	Odat Reading (4-9-2017) (Preview) The ODA T reading for April 9 talks about being in a crisis that lasts for what seems like an eternity. When we are involved with these difficult experiences, we can find no escape and the problem occupies our thoughts continually. This is the time that we must remind ourselves that we need to recal...	hotrod	6	404	Apr 9, 2017 by lookingup
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