Al-Anon Family Group - Al-Anon Family Group

stepbystep78 · stepbystep78

Hello all- This is my first time on here. I decided last night that I needed help, to deal with my mother's alcoholism. My mother has been an alcoholic since I was born, but she was in sobriety for nearly 20 years, when I was 2-21 years old. I am now almost 26, and have been dealing with this for about 5 yea...

Miller0582 · Miller0582

My father is an alcoholic. I have known this for a long time and it was never more real than two years ago when he was hospitalized. Diagnosed with cirrhosis and varicies were causing nearly fatal GI bleeds. He had to have the TIPS procedure to reduce the portal hypertension. He spent four weeks in the ho...

lgnutah · lgnutah

A boundary I have set to protect my own sanity is to not answer phone calls from my 36 yr old AD between 8 pm-8 am (ringers are turned to silent). She lives 100 miles away, so our communication is primarily via the phone but every couple of months, her sobriety allowing, we meet at a point halfway between ou...

jojo8466 · jojo8466

What exactly does that mean? Does that mean I no longer call or text my alcoholic friend? Should I not answer their texts or calls if they contact me? Do I cut off all communication with them? I want to do what I can to help them get better.....but as I read that I remember "I didn't cause it, I can't cont...

Jerry F · Jerry F

Aloha MIP family and thank you for the gift of your ESH. I woke up this morning and just as I did noticed that a message was coming over my cell. It was from my wife who is still in Central Valley CA. for a little bit. She sent her best wishes and congratulations on our 22 year of marriage...22 years!! th...

jojo8466 · jojo8466

My alcoholic lover text me this afternoon that he "needs me to stay away from him physically because he is getting ready to detox soon. But he wants to stay in touch with me daily to let me know how he is doing and where he is at". Well guess what ???....THAT doesn't work for me!!! WHY is it ALWAYS about the...

joker · joker

i have been reading on line and thought about all the al-anon tools: 1. Do not react 2, Detach and let them be 3. Have a plan B,C,D, when the active alcoholism gets bad and you have to leave for your sanity, either to a friends, a hotel, family, shelter, anywhere safe 4. Do not JADE Justify, Argue, Defend...

milkwood · milkwood

I just overheard my husband talking to someone about me. It is a conversation that I should not have heard but I am pleased that I did. Now I know how AH represents me to others, how his mind works and how utterly hopeless it is to expect any change in that. I think that I just lost the last grain of respect...

hotrod · hotrod

The C2C reading for August 20 speaks about the black-and-white thinking that many of us depended upon when entering program . The reading points out that thanks to Al-Anon's principles and tools, we can learn to view situations in a more objective manner and, while keeping an open mind, learn to...

gabigail · gabigail

Hi everyone On my way to work this morning I heard this new medical study that they did on the effects of marriage and problem drinkers. It was by Dr. Sanjay Gupta and I thought when I heard it it was a bunch of bs. Basically what it said was that if you were married the chances are 70% less likely that som...

Hopeful925 · Hopeful925

I haven't been on the Board for the past few years, luckily, as my AB has been sober since 11.22.13! Working his program, doing well. What I'm struggling with is Hypervigilance....watching him like a Hawk...looking for signs of a slip. At times it abates, but at other times he looks and acts "differe...

lookingup · lookingup

goodmorning to all my alanon family,has anybody have any info as to what,where and when the mip meetings are??or are they just being postponed for now????.........thank you all.......hugs lu

a4l · a4l

I've come to realise I'm not a city girl unless I'm free of encumberances such as domesticity and small children. An opportunity has arisen to leave seeedney and its sparkling harbours which I have not managed to enjoy in almost four years of living here. I felt attached to this city the moment I firs...

YARNCRAZY · YARNCRAZY

Things are still in a tangle here. I let x sis in law help with tax situation and because of XAH's refusal to cooperate, things arent getting done. Werid feeling, having xsis in law describe all his behaviors and all the yelling, drinking and other horrible behavior xah has. Dejavu for me and new for her...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Today's reading talks about brutal honesty with ourselves and awareness of reality. So often those of us affected by this disease struggle to 'see' reality as our views, attitudes and values have been distorted by reacting to the disease. The writer discusses the process of realizing that he/sh...

Calm Lady · Calm Lady

Good morning all As I don't have to put my Superwoman outfit on today to run the world, I thought I would take a ride into town. Have a nice little wander about. The sales are on do I might spot a lovely bargain for myself. I am wearing my smart yet comfortable shoes. Love love love comfortable shoes. Having...

jocelgp · jocelgp

I have posted before that my AH and I lives in my 83 year old mom's house. Because of family circumstances I feel I am morally obliged to stay with my aging mom. It has always been that I find myself caught between my AH and my mom's wanting to control some situations in our life. Where I live there is a cult...

Jerry F · Jerry F

Really. My Higher Power loves to bless me...thinks up the times and places and methods and just knows I have lots of gratitude to show for it and then pass it on to others. I was early for the morning meeting and I think it is because I am getting older as the reason and not the I am being manipulated by my...

Spotster · Spotster

As I sit here, my alcoholic husband is out looking at an apartment. He says we no longer have a relationship. This, after 45 years of marriage and one-and-a-half years of sobriety. I was looking for advice when I came across this site and saw James letter about how AA ruined his life and felt compelle...

Desperateinnyc · Desperateinnyc

Hi, I have found enormous support and faith on this board, so I feel comfortable in sharing this..anyway, my fiancé, is an alcoholic, and it's gotten pretty difficult. He knows he needs help, as do I..and we are slowly getting there. Anyway, I have in the past shared with his ex wife, my concerns, and sh...

lookingup · lookingup

This has got to be a tough one , responsibilities, what are my resonsibilities and what belongs to them? And in what ways am I accountible for my recovery program? What is mine and what is not my responsibility? Lots of ?s here that are hard to answer I've always taken on all and everybody else's respo...

Iamhere · Iamhere

Today's daily reading is about Tradition Six which tells us that "Our Al-Anon Family Groups ought never endorse, finance or lend our name to any outside enterprise, lest problems of money, property and prestige divert us from our primary spiritual aim. So often, we tend to focus on the steps in reco...

Aerin · Aerin

So, this has happen before. He has been drinking and we just went out to eat. He actually asked for beers while we sat there (almost like mocking me that he can still do what he wants) I didnt say anything and continued eating. He is a mean drunk so he starts bringing up more things. Bashing me about all kind...

Desperateinnyc · Desperateinnyc

hi everyone.. i I feel very scared and alone right now..I cannot handle this anymore. I love this man more then anything in the world..but instead of coming home to me, he sat at a bar, telling me at 7:45 he was leaving soon, at 8:20 he was def leaving..and at 10:00 he came home and I see it right away, and I k...

Ijusttrytobe · Ijusttrytobe

My husband is an alcoholic. I am codependant. He has in the past gotten so deep into his alcoholism that he becomes emotionally and verbally abusive, and even a few times physically abusive. This is of course not to say that I haven't gotten equally abusive when in a horrible argument to defend myself...

Iamhere · Iamhere

My oldest son began his experimenting with substances about 10 years ago. His disease progressed quickly and by 16-17, he was full-blown into H/addiction/alcohol abuse. We had him in 5 treatment centers, 2 mental health facilities and he even went into state custody at one point. I recall a long...

jocelgp · jocelgp

A few days ago after a long night of drinking my husband went home injured, lost his front teeth and thinks he broke his ribs, but he really didn't. He blames me, he said he drank too much because of me, because I wouldn't let him go out and drink with his friends that night and the night before that. Thank...

Lyne · Lyne

Hi~So I am in the process of buying a townhouse and when I retire in the spring, I will be living half time away from my A. I am so excited and I can't believe I am taking this step. Of course it is only through alanon that I gained the strength to do this. But occasionally I have this thought of what if I get ...

Laurynleigh83 · Laurynleigh83

My mom is 58 Years old and was brought to the hospital unresponsive 3 weeks ago by her boyfriend. My mom has Bi-polar disease and had been self medicating with alcohol for years. I am her only child and to say our relationship has been confusing is an understatement. She was a great mother until my parent...

Clara75 · Clara75

I know you don't give advice but does anyone have any experience of this? My parter has been an alcoholic for many years. Over the past 6 months or so there have only been a handful of days she has not drunk. This past run of about 3 weeks has been really bad and I think she is now drinking a litre of vodka a da...

Lyne · Lyne

Hi-Tonight my f2f group is celebrating its 13th year, and I am receiving my 3 year coin. I recall hearing AA folks talk about getting a coin, and I didn't understand it at the time. Now I get it! I can't wait to get my coin this evening and I will cherish it always. I have become a better, happier, health...

seahorselady · seahorselady

Hi all, i have really been digging in to recovery big time since i laid the boundaries down with my AS a week ago along with what we aren't willing to do anymore. no more money,etc. Right at that time, my son was evicted, with no job and about the hit the homeless shelter. i am heartsick over it but know in my s...

jojo8466 · jojo8466

I have come to this site not to be judged or told what an awful person I am. I need support, understanding and guidance. My story is lengthy so bear with me.... 8 years ago I began an affair with a married man who was a recovering alcoholic. He had been sober for over 30 years. He is married to a recoverin...

Vanellope · Vanellope

I have been with my boyfriend for almost five years. Things have gotten worse and worse as time goes on. I know that making him leave wouldnt help him because his mother is an alcoholic as well. I would say that 5 out of 7 days he is asleep when I get home. I get upset because he will not help with any of the hou...

Calm Lady · Calm Lady

So AH gets hammered last night. Cuts his foot and it won't stop bleeding so he gets the washing up bowl and soaks his foot in it. yuck. I only found out when he casually mentioned it. Ok off to buy a new bowl. He thought this all perfectly reasonable. My dad used to urinate in his washing up bowl as well as was...

sheebee · sheebee

Hi im new to the goup, and have been married to a functional alcoholic for 5 years. We recently moved back to the UK so that my partner could be closer to family and although I have a limited support network here, Im struggling. Over the last couple of months, his drinking has increased up to 30 can/bottl...

Enigmatic · Enigmatic

Our reading notes that, in an attempt to survive in an alcohol affected environment, we may have developed ways to survive that no longer serve us well once away from the alcoholic, or upon learning healthier strategies in AlAnon. Or perhaps we took a well-intended action too far, too often, thus los...

John · John

After many years in both AA and Al-Anon I can say that many marriages or relationships don't survive. Why? Because to start with... neither program is a professional marriage or relationship counseling service. Many times people get sober and realize that they don't like or love their spouse any...

Cooper · Cooper

My son has been clean for close to two years, it's been a true blessing to have that kid back in our lives. Yesterday it crashed down, he lives with his sister and she found him lying on his bedroom floor barely conscious. My daughter was gone all day but knows he came home the night before, my son has no me...

KT2015 · KT2015

Hi All, I just spent a week off with my family. In the past a week away with AH and my daughter and all our family coming on different days to visit would have been a nightmare for me. All the anxiety about his drinking, the monitoring, the need to feel like I had to confront every miss step he made and poin...

gabigail · gabigail

hi everyone- This weekend was interesting and eye-opening to my recovery. I so have a long way to go! I get a call at the hospital from my A that she needs me to come up immediately to the hospital. She's scared and she just needs to see me. This was on Friday and her friend that she's been staying with for t...

Hopeful2112 · Hopeful2112

Hey, sorry for the woe is me post, I thi k I just need a vent. I'm an adult child and kind of struggled my whole life, in my early 20's tried to commit suicide and struggled with self esteem, bad relationships and generally feeling like life is just one hard slog. I coped up till now by keeping my feelings pu...

gabigail · gabigail

Today's topic in Courage to Change is a good one. It talks about remembering to take care of ourselves during times of stress and dont ignore your basic needs. During times of crisis it's probably more important to take time out for a f2f meeting, calling your sponsor or getting a breath of fresh air. Do...

greentomato · greentomato

I feel this is a tricky subject to navigate so I'm hoping to read about some of the experiences others have had in relation to dating within the Al Anon/AA communities. Here's my deal in a nutshell: My ex and I split a few months after he entered recovery (less than a year ago). We remain friends and cowork...

Goatchild · Goatchild

I had read the following quote is conference approved literature in AlAnon, but can't find it in my books. Someone said they read it in C2C. I check all the "worrying" and "fear" pages, but can't find it. I also know I read it somewhere, too. Can anyone help me? I am chairing soon and would like to use it as...

Hope4Healing · Hope4Healing

Hi, everyone, I have been here more quietly as things had calmed down a bit with my alcoholic daughter. She is 27 and lives out of the house. I was mostly reading the twelve steps and working on things myself. But we had a crisis Wednesday, in which my daughter was taking pills and cutting herself in a publ...

joker · joker

I have been reading a lot on detachment here on line and its helping me a lot. I just remembered what the abf said the other day. He went on a bender and I had left him for 5 days and during that time I went and got an apartment for myself, and even went camping for the night with my sister and daughter. I told him...

joker · joker

I am so grateful for my plan B! My own apartment. I have not moved furniture in it but I know its there and can escape to it any time. I feel detached from my ABF. He has been sober now for 5 days and is doing a lot of sleeping and just watching TV. Not my problem. Yesterday, I bought myself pots and pans for the ap...

yanksfan51 · yanksfan51

Good morning Everyone- Today's reading is on the topic of emotions and feelings. Many of us who grew up in an alcoholic home or live/lived with an alcoholic partner have become experts at denying our feelings. For some of us that may mean ignoring feelings and emotions, for others it may be recognizi...

YARNCRAZY · YARNCRAZY

Just a little sat nite pity party. i have a cough/laryngitus and im so annoyed because i have an interview tuesday. All i want is a small job i can do with an average salary and somehow helping people. the world requires driving,computer skills,lifting or other degrees and other certificates. Im a sma...

missmeliss · missmeliss

Today's c2c speaks about how living in the chaos of alcoholism can bring us to the point where we can't tell the difference between an inconvenience and a crisis; we can tend to react dramatically all the same. The slogan 'how important is it" is suggested to try to regain perspective and bring us back i...

seahorselady · seahorselady

Thank you all for being here = I am finding a lot of intermittent relief from what feels like grief after detaching from my son. I havent heard anything from him in many days and keeping my head in recovery is helping me to keep the focus on me. Going to sleep at night seems to be the hardest for me because the...

lookingup · lookingup

Strange I have feelings of guilt when I'm not the one that committed the crime,xbf is still in jail under a stiff bond,while I'm not knowing when he gets out or if he does,no need in my feeling guilty ,I guess it's because I'm always to blame for everything in my qaulifiers lives,insane but insanity it is...

Green Eyes · Green Eyes

I just read a news report today that said that researchers have developed a heroin vaccine. Wouldn't it be awesome if they would to the same for alcohol? What a different world we would all live in. It's okay to dream, right? http://www.10news.com/print/28746862/detail.html -- Edited by Green Ey...

MovieGal · MovieGal

Part of the reading said, "what if he said this, Even if it was meant to hurt, it cannot reach the real me, if I stand guard at the door of my mind." So about standing guard. What does this really mean? I am already tense and alert for those little signs that he might be ready to verbally attack me. I frea...

Geraldine · Geraldine

HI I'm new and for the past four months have been with a new man. He's loving and caring and kind but in the first week I noticed that he smelled of alcohol in the morning and I put it down to maybe a spilled drink on his coat or something. Then when he was staying over he would be up and down all night taking his...

Jen444 · Jen444

and why am I terrified? Hello, I'm new here.. My life is a roller coaster and I'm sick of it! I am not the type to reach out and go to meetings but I feel I need to in my life. I know of a meeting in my area and every Sunday I say I'm going to go.. I don't. My fear takes over me!! I feel like I don't belong.. I grew up i...

seahorselady · seahorselady

Hi everyone, Im new to the board and new to the behavior of not enabling. I am here to learn how to detach with love, let go and let god, learn how to set healthy boundaries and feel ok about doing that. Days ago, I have stopped all enabling with my son who lives hundreds of miles away and all hell and homeless...

birdlady · birdlady

Hi all - I'm new to online and am having trouble finding the online meetings. Are they still active? When I sign into the Meeting/Chat Room at the time when there's supposed to be a meeting, I'm the only one there. Tonight I'm trying to find the 7pm EST Sunday evening meeting, but no one else is signed i...

jocelgp · jocelgp

hello everyone, i heard of "online sponsor" in the online meeting. we have no al-anon in my country thus no f2f meetings. how do i look for an online sponsor, how does it work? thanks

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	New to this, Hello everyone (Preview) Hello all- This is my first time on here. I decided last night that I needed help, to deal with my mother's alcoholism. My mother has been an alcoholic since I was born, but she was in sobriety for nearly 20 years, when I was 2-21 years old. I am now almost 26, and have been dealing with this for about 5 yea...	stepbystep78	7	657	Aug 20, 2016 by Miller0582
	Learning To Cope (Preview) My father is an alcoholic. I have known this for a long time and it was never more real than two years ago when he was hospitalized. Diagnosed with cirrhosis and varicies were causing nearly fatal GI bleeds. He had to have the TIPS procedure to reduce the portal hypertension. He spent four weeks in the ho...	Miller0582	3	651	Aug 20, 2016 by Miller0582
	Phonecall when AD is drunk-how to better succeed at ending it quickly? (Preview) A boundary I have set to protect my own sanity is to not answer phone calls from my 36 yr old AD between 8 pm-8 am (ringers are turned to silent). She lives 100 miles away, so our communication is primarily via the phone but every couple of months, her sobriety allowing, we meet at a point halfway between ou...	lgnutah	7	596	Aug 20, 2016 by lgnutah
	Question about "detaching with love" (Preview) What exactly does that mean? Does that mean I no longer call or text my alcoholic friend? Should I not answer their texts or calls if they contact me? Do I cut off all communication with them? I want to do what I can to help them get better.....but as I read that I remember "I didn't cause it, I can't cont...	jojo8466	9	908	Aug 20, 2016 by Sandy408
	This works when ...you work it. (Preview) Aloha MIP family and thank you for the gift of your ESH. I woke up this morning and just as I did noticed that a message was coming over my cell. It was from my wife who is still in Central Valley CA. for a little bit. She sent her best wishes and congratulations on our 22 year of marriage...22 years!! th...	Jerry F	4	578	Aug 20, 2016 by Iamhere
	WHY???? (Preview) My alcoholic lover text me this afternoon that he "needs me to stay away from him physically because he is getting ready to detox soon. But he wants to stay in touch with me daily to let me know how he is doing and where he is at". Well guess what ???....THAT doesn't work for me!!! WHY is it ALWAYS about the...	jojo8466	13	723	Aug 20, 2016 by Iamhere
	al-anon tools (Preview) i have been reading on line and thought about all the al-anon tools: 1. Do not react 2, Detach and let them be 3. Have a plan B,C,D, when the active alcoholism gets bad and you have to leave for your sanity, either to a friends, a hotel, family, shelter, anywhere safe 4. Do not JADE Justify, Argue, Defend...	joker	4	2356	Aug 20, 2016 by tiredtonite
	More will be revealed... (Preview) I just overheard my husband talking to someone about me. It is a conversation that I should not have heard but I am pleased that I did. Now I know how AH represents me to others, how his mind works and how utterly hopeless it is to expect any change in that. I think that I just lost the last grain of respect...	milkwood	19	729	Aug 20, 2016 by milkwood
	Courage to Change reading 8-20-2016 (Preview) The C2C reading for August 20 speaks about the black-and-white thinking that many of us depended upon when entering program . The reading points out that thanks to Al-Anon's principles and tools, we can learn to view situations in a more objective manner and, while keeping an open mind, learn to...	hotrod	3	557	Aug 20, 2016 by Iamhere
	Heard about this new medical study -I don't buy it! (Preview) Hi everyone On my way to work this morning I heard this new medical study that they did on the effects of marriage and problem drinkers. It was by Dr. Sanjay Gupta and I thought when I heard it it was a bunch of bs. Basically what it said was that if you were married the chances are 70% less likely that som...	gabigail	7	602	Aug 20, 2016 by gabigail
	Hypervigilance...is this ever going to subside? (Preview) I haven't been on the Board for the past few years, luckily, as my AB has been sober since 11.22.13! Working his program, doing well. What I'm struggling with is Hypervigilance....watching him like a Hawk...looking for signs of a slip. At times it abates, but at other times he looks and acts "differe...	Hopeful925	5	736	Aug 19, 2016 by Jerry F
	Meetings (Preview) goodmorning to all my alanon family,has anybody have any info as to what,where and when the mip meetings are??or are they just being postponed for now????.........thank you all.......hugs lu	lookingup	2	478	Aug 19, 2016 by lookingup
	eureka....city life is not for me yet. (Preview) I've come to realise I'm not a city girl unless I'm free of encumberances such as domesticity and small children. An opportunity has arisen to leave seeedney and its sparkling harbours which I have not managed to enjoy in almost four years of living here. I felt attached to this city the moment I firs...	a4l	4	534	Aug 19, 2016 by hotrod
	Sis in law [XAH's sis} (Preview) Things are still in a tangle here. I let x sis in law help with tax situation and because of XAH's refusal to cooperate, things arent getting done. Werid feeling, having xsis in law describe all his behaviors and all the yelling, drinking and other horrible behavior xah has. Dejavu for me and new for her...	YARNCRAZY	2	477	Aug 19, 2016 by hotrod
	Courage to Change (C2C) 8/19/16 (Preview) Today's reading talks about brutal honesty with ourselves and awareness of reality. So often those of us affected by this disease struggle to 'see' reality as our views, attitudes and values have been distorted by reacting to the disease. The writer discusses the process of realizing that he/sh...	Iamhere	7	558	Aug 19, 2016 by hotrod
	Plans for the day (Preview) Good morning all As I don't have to put my Superwoman outfit on today to run the world, I thought I would take a ride into town. Have a nice little wander about. The sales are on do I might spot a lovely bargain for myself. I am wearing my smart yet comfortable shoes. Love love love comfortable shoes. Having...	Calm Lady	11	889	Aug 19, 2016 by Calm Lady
	AH and my manipulative and controlling mom, how do i deal with this? (Preview) I have posted before that my AH and I lives in my 83 year old mom's house. Because of family circumstances I feel I am morally obliged to stay with my aging mom. It has always been that I find myself caught between my AH and my mom's wanting to control some situations in our life. Where I live there is a cult...	jocelgp	4	2836	Aug 19, 2016 by jocelgp
	Letting my self get blessed... (Preview) Really. My Higher Power loves to bless me...thinks up the times and places and methods and just knows I have lots of gratitude to show for it and then pass it on to others. I was early for the morning meeting and I think it is because I am getting older as the reason and not the I am being manipulated by my...	Jerry F	7	584	Aug 19, 2016 by Iamhere
	AA ruining my family ... has ruined my family (Preview) As I sit here, my alcoholic husband is out looking at an apartment. He says we no longer have a relationship. This, after 45 years of marriage and one-and-a-half years of sobriety. I was looking for advice when I came across this site and saw James letter about how AA ruined his life and felt compelle...	Spotster	36	9057	Aug 19, 2016 by Iamhere
	If anyone can relate, I am dumbfounded (Preview) Hi, I have found enormous support and faith on this board, so I feel comfortable in sharing this..anyway, my fiancé, is an alcoholic, and it's gotten pretty difficult. He knows he needs help, as do I..and we are slowly getting there. Anyway, I have in the past shared with his ex wife, my concerns, and sh...	Desperateinnyc	5	585	Aug 19, 2016 by Iamhere
	Responsibilities (Preview) This has got to be a tough one , responsibilities, what are my resonsibilities and what belongs to them? And in what ways am I accountible for my recovery program? What is mine and what is not my responsibility? Lots of ?s here that are hard to answer I've always taken on all and everybody else's respo...	lookingup	6	572	Aug 18, 2016 by hotrod
	Courage to Change (C2C) 8/18/16 (Preview) Today's daily reading is about Tradition Six which tells us that "Our Al-Anon Family Groups ought never endorse, finance or lend our name to any outside enterprise, lest problems of money, property and prestige divert us from our primary spiritual aim. So often, we tend to focus on the steps in reco...	Iamhere	2	604	Aug 18, 2016 by hotrod
	He just threatened me in restaurant ( 1 2 ) (Preview) So, this has happen before. He has been drinking and we just went out to eat. He actually asked for beers while we sat there (almost like mocking me that he can still do what he wants) I didnt say anything and continued eating. He is a mean drunk so he starts bringing up more things. Bashing me about all kind...	Aerin	51	1586	Aug 18, 2016 by a4l
	This is unbearable..I am beyond feeling capable in this (Preview) hi everyone.. i I feel very scared and alone right now..I cannot handle this anymore. I love this man more then anything in the world..but instead of coming home to me, he sat at a bar, telling me at 7:45 he was leaving soon, at 8:20 he was def leaving..and at 10:00 he came home and I see it right away, and I k...	Desperateinnyc	18	740	Aug 18, 2016 by Desperateinnyc
	I feel numb. Starting to give up and considering moving on. (Preview) My husband is an alcoholic. I am codependant. He has in the past gotten so deep into his alcoholism that he becomes emotionally and verbally abusive, and even a few times physically abusive. This is of course not to say that I haven't gotten equally abusive when in a horrible argument to defend myself...	Ijusttrytobe	15	864	Aug 18, 2016 by Iamhere
	A Bit of Hope I Want to Share! (Preview) My oldest son began his experimenting with substances about 10 years ago. His disease progressed quickly and by 16-17, he was full-blown into H/addiction/alcohol abuse. We had him in 5 treatment centers, 2 mental health facilities and he even went into state custody at one point. I recall a long...	Iamhere	8	679	Aug 18, 2016 by Iamhere
	NO is a complete sentence (Preview) A few days ago after a long night of drinking my husband went home injured, lost his front teeth and thinks he broke his ribs, but he really didn't. He blames me, he said he drank too much because of me, because I wouldn't let him go out and drink with his friends that night and the night before that. Thank...	jocelgp	6	2988	Aug 18, 2016 by Iamhere
	fear of good things (Preview) Hi~So I am in the process of buying a townhouse and when I retire in the spring, I will be living half time away from my A. I am so excited and I can't believe I am taking this step. Of course it is only through alanon that I gained the strength to do this. But occasionally I have this thought of what if I get ...	Lyne	7	601	Aug 18, 2016 by Iamhere
	My mom is going to die from alcoholism... (Preview) My mom is 58 Years old and was brought to the hospital unresponsive 3 weeks ago by her boyfriend. My mom has Bi-polar disease and had been self medicating with alcohol for years. I am her only child and to say our relationship has been confusing is an understatement. She was a great mother until my parent...	Laurynleigh83	10	3099	Aug 18, 2016 by hotrod
	Alcohol and paranoia (Preview) I know you don't give advice but does anyone have any experience of this? My parter has been an alcoholic for many years. Over the past 6 months or so there have only been a handful of days she has not drunk. This past run of about 3 weeks has been really bad and I think she is now drinking a litre of vodka a da...	Clara75	14	3520	Aug 18, 2016 by Clara75
	Anniversaries (Preview) Hi-Tonight my f2f group is celebrating its 13th year, and I am receiving my 3 year coin. I recall hearing AA folks talk about getting a coin, and I didn't understand it at the time. Now I get it! I can't wait to get my coin this evening and I will cherish it always. I have become a better, happier, health...	Lyne	5	534	Aug 18, 2016 by hotrod
	feel the need to DO something (Preview) Hi all, i have really been digging in to recovery big time since i laid the boundaries down with my AS a week ago along with what we aren't willing to do anymore. no more money,etc. Right at that time, my son was evicted, with no job and about the hit the homeless shelter. i am heartsick over it but know in my s...	seahorselady	11	676	Aug 18, 2016 by seahorselady
	Ugh...I need help (Preview) I have come to this site not to be judged or told what an awful person I am. I need support, understanding and guidance. My story is lengthy so bear with me.... 8 years ago I began an affair with a married man who was a recovering alcoholic. He had been sober for over 30 years. He is married to a recoverin...	jojo8466	5	578	Aug 18, 2016 by jojo8466
	Things are hard and i dont know what to do (Preview) I have been with my boyfriend for almost five years. Things have gotten worse and worse as time goes on. I know that making him leave wouldnt help him because his mother is an alcoholic as well. I would say that 5 out of 7 days he is asleep when I get home. I get upset because he will not help with any of the hou...	Vanellope	7	588	Aug 18, 2016 by Aerin
	Yuck! (Preview) So AH gets hammered last night. Cuts his foot and it won't stop bleeding so he gets the washing up bowl and soaks his foot in it. yuck. I only found out when he casually mentioned it. Ok off to buy a new bowl. He thought this all perfectly reasonable. My dad used to urinate in his washing up bowl as well as was...	Calm Lady	6	581	Aug 17, 2016 by Iamhere
	Living with a functional alcoholic (Preview) Hi im new to the goup, and have been married to a functional alcoholic for 5 years. We recently moved back to the UK so that my partner could be closer to family and although I have a limited support network here, Im struggling. Over the last couple of months, his drinking has increased up to 30 can/bottl...	sheebee	5	2354	Aug 17, 2016 by Iamhere
	C2C 8/17 How Might We Frame Our Defects of Character? (Preview) Our reading notes that, in an attempt to survive in an alcohol affected environment, we may have developed ways to survive that no longer serve us well once away from the alcoholic, or upon learning healthier strategies in AlAnon. Or perhaps we took a well-intended action too far, too often, thus los...	Enigmatic	2	521	Aug 17, 2016 by Calm Lady
	AA destroyed our family??? Cult? (Preview) After many years in both AA and Al-Anon I can say that many marriages or relationships don't survive. Why? Because to start with... neither program is a professional marriage or relationship counseling service. Many times people get sober and realize that they don't like or love their spouse any...	John	28	7316	Aug 17, 2016 by Jerry F
	f**k me...back on the merry-go-round (Preview) My son has been clean for close to two years, it's been a true blessing to have that kid back in our lives. Yesterday it crashed down, he lives with his sister and she found him lying on his bedroom floor barely conscious. My daughter was gone all day but knows he came home the night before, my son has no me...	Cooper	16	795	Aug 17, 2016 by lookingup
	Feeling the sanity being restored (Preview) Hi All, I just spent a week off with my family. In the past a week away with AH and my daughter and all our family coming on different days to visit would have been a nightmare for me. All the anxiety about his drinking, the monitoring, the need to feel like I had to confront every miss step he made and poin...	KT2015	14	677	Aug 17, 2016 by el-cee
	My slip up, but more awareness/ teachable moment (Preview) hi everyone- This weekend was interesting and eye-opening to my recovery. I so have a long way to go! I get a call at the hospital from my A that she needs me to come up immediately to the hospital. She's scared and she just needs to see me. This was on Friday and her friend that she's been staying with for t...	gabigail	5	769	Aug 17, 2016 by el-cee
	Sick and tired (Preview) Hey, sorry for the woe is me post, I thi k I just need a vent. I'm an adult child and kind of struggled my whole life, in my early 20's tried to commit suicide and struggled with self esteem, bad relationships and generally feeling like life is just one hard slog. I coped up till now by keeping my feelings pu...	Hopeful2112	1	386	Aug 16, 2016 by Jerry F
	C2C for 8/16 (Preview) Today's topic in Courage to Change is a good one. It talks about remembering to take care of ourselves during times of stress and dont ignore your basic needs. During times of crisis it's probably more important to take time out for a f2f meeting, calling your sponsor or getting a breath of fresh air. Do...	gabigail	1	464	Aug 16, 2016 by Iamhere
	Al Anon, AA and Dating (Preview) I feel this is a tricky subject to navigate so I'm hoping to read about some of the experiences others have had in relation to dating within the Al Anon/AA communities. Here's my deal in a nutshell: My ex and I split a few months after he entered recovery (less than a year ago). We remain friends and cowork...	greentomato	2	747	Aug 16, 2016 by Iamhere
	Worrying is like a rocking chair (Preview) I had read the following quote is conference approved literature in AlAnon, but can't find it in my books. Someone said they read it in C2C. I check all the "worrying" and "fear" pages, but can't find it. I also know I read it somewhere, too. Can anyone help me? I am chairing soon and would like to use it as...	Goatchild	5	539	Aug 16, 2016 by Calm Lady
	Forcing Inpatient Rehab for Adult Child (Preview) Hi, everyone, I have been here more quietly as things had calmed down a bit with my alcoholic daughter. She is 27 and lives out of the house. I was mostly reading the twelve steps and working on things myself. But we had a crisis Wednesday, in which my daughter was taking pills and cutting herself in a publ...	Hope4Healing	8	631	Aug 16, 2016 by Hope4Healing
	Had some laughs today (Preview) I have been reading a lot on detachment here on line and its helping me a lot. I just remembered what the abf said the other day. He went on a bender and I had left him for 5 days and during that time I went and got an apartment for myself, and even went camping for the night with my sister and daughter. I told him...	joker	4	520	Aug 16, 2016 by El
	Plan B (Preview) I am so grateful for my plan B! My own apartment. I have not moved furniture in it but I know its there and can escape to it any time. I feel detached from my ABF. He has been sober now for 5 days and is doing a lot of sleeping and just watching TV. Not my problem. Yesterday, I bought myself pots and pans for the ap...	joker	10	730	Aug 16, 2016 by KT2015
	Hope for Today August 16 (Preview) Good morning Everyone- Today's reading is on the topic of emotions and feelings. Many of us who grew up in an alcoholic home or live/lived with an alcoholic partner have become experts at denying our feelings. For some of us that may mean ignoring feelings and emotions, for others it may be recognizi...	yanksfan51	1	567	Aug 16, 2016 by Iamhere
	fEELING BLUE (Preview) Just a little sat nite pity party. i have a cough/laryngitus and im so annoyed because i have an interview tuesday. All i want is a small job i can do with an average salary and somehow helping people. the world requires driving,computer skills,lifting or other degrees and other certificates. Im a sma...	YARNCRAZY	5	625	Aug 16, 2016 by lookingup
	Courage to Change 15/8 (Preview) Today's c2c speaks about how living in the chaos of alcoholism can bring us to the point where we can't tell the difference between an inconvenience and a crisis; we can tend to react dramatically all the same. The slogan 'how important is it" is suggested to try to regain perspective and bring us back i...	missmeliss	4	570	Aug 15, 2016 by a4l
	new here and just need to share (Preview) Thank you all for being here = I am finding a lot of intermittent relief from what feels like grief after detaching from my son. I havent heard anything from him in many days and keeping my head in recovery is helping me to keep the focus on me. Going to sleep at night seems to be the hardest for me because the...	seahorselady	5	612	Aug 15, 2016 by seahorselady
	Feelings of guilt? (Preview) Strange I have feelings of guilt when I'm not the one that committed the crime,xbf is still in jail under a stiff bond,while I'm not knowing when he gets out or if he does,no need in my feeling guilty ,I guess it's because I'm always to blame for everything in my qaulifiers lives,insane but insanity it is...	lookingup	2	488	Aug 15, 2016 by lookingup
	Vaccine for Alcoholism? (Preview) I just read a news report today that said that researchers have developed a heroin vaccine. Wouldn't it be awesome if they would to the same for alcohol? What a different world we would all live in. It's okay to dream, right? http://www.10news.com/print/28746862/detail.html -- Edited by Green Ey...	Green Eyes	8	941	Aug 15, 2016 by Calm Lady
	ODAT 8-13 (Preview) Part of the reading said, "what if he said this, Even if it was meant to hurt, it cannot reach the real me, if I stand guard at the door of my mind." So about standing guard. What does this really mean? I am already tense and alert for those little signs that he might be ready to verbally attack me. I frea...	MovieGal	1	508	Aug 15, 2016 by Iamhere
	Is he an alcoholic? (Preview) HI I'm new and for the past four months have been with a new man. He's loving and caring and kind but in the first week I noticed that he smelled of alcohol in the morning and I put it down to maybe a spilled drink on his coat or something. Then when he was staying over he would be up and down all night taking his...	Geraldine	18	1110	Aug 15, 2016 by Geraldine
	where do I start (Preview) and why am I terrified? Hello, I'm new here.. My life is a roller coaster and I'm sick of it! I am not the type to reach out and go to meetings but I feel I need to in my life. I know of a meeting in my area and every Sunday I say I'm going to go.. I don't. My fear takes over me!! I feel like I don't belong.. I grew up i...	Jen444	5	532	Aug 15, 2016 by Freetime
	new to board (Preview) Hi everyone, Im new to the board and new to the behavior of not enabling. I am here to learn how to detach with love, let go and let god, learn how to set healthy boundaries and feel ok about doing that. Days ago, I have stopped all enabling with my son who lives hundreds of miles away and all hell and homeless...	seahorselady	13	750	Aug 15, 2016 by seahorselady
	Help with Online meetings (Preview) Hi all - I'm new to online and am having trouble finding the online meetings. Are they still active? When I sign into the Meeting/Chat Room at the time when there's supposed to be a meeting, I'm the only one there. Tonight I'm trying to find the 7pm EST Sunday evening meeting, but no one else is signed i...	birdlady	2	432	Aug 15, 2016 by KennyFenderjazz
	help, i think i'm in need of a sponsor (Preview) hello everyone, i heard of "online sponsor" in the online meeting. we have no al-anon in my country thus no f2f meetings. how do i look for an online sponsor, how does it work? thanks	jocelgp	6	586	Aug 14, 2016 by jocelgp
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