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XAH in bad shape
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My son called me yesterday at work to tell me that his dad had another binge while he was staying at XAH's house. He said that he got woken up at 3 AM while XAH was playing the drums until 5:30 AM. He then told me that he had to take Uber to school and back home again because the ex was non responsive all day. H...
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torn after first relapse post-rehab
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My H got back from rehab about a month ago and had been doing wonderfully- he was going to an outpatient program a few nights a week, AA the other nights, was being really open/honest with me, and really seemed like the best version of himself that I've ever seen. I had been living in a subletted apartment...
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Ha! A fine how do you do ( long )
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I spent 6 overnights and 7 partial days at the hospital with my 89 year old MIL. She didnt have to wait for a nurse to come in when she was hot or cold, needed a blanket on or off, needed to go to the bathroom. She was very forgetful because of some of the drugs she was on so I also acted as her memory and she was gla...
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Thought for Today ~ Faith ~ 10/28/15
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Understanding my relationship to God will show me that humility is an essential element of faith, and true humility will remind me to LIVE AND LET LIVE. Faith in a Higher Power can also help me overcome my faults. If I believe in a Power greater than my own, it would be unreasonable for me to behave as tho...
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Day 3
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Well its been 3 days since I took the first step towards getting my life back and that is to walk away from my relationship. Today I received the usual few messages from my ex but now hes saying Im been having an affair with his best friend which is totally untrue. Ive managed to stop myself from replying b...
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Feeling very stressed
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At the moment, my son is home for a few days and is not very well. He is having a hard time finding a permanent place to live and unfortunately I cannot help financially as his father is ill with cancer and has no insurance, so that is where my money goes at the moment. I guess I just need to focus on the good st...
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Just recently back from the Surgery table...
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and didn't remember it being as intense. Eye surgery...right eye this time and removal of another cataract. DANG !! weird and total feeling of powerlessness. I like the gayety that comes about with the staff and then the seriousness of the surgery lights out and conversations from faces I canno...
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More good news....but need advice on relapse
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I just wanted to tell everyone that my AH is still doing really great in her recovery. She is inspiring me with her strength, increased energy and renewed ability to fulfill my needs. This is due to her following her own program combined with us working on our marriage. Things that would have been ea...
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Hurt and need to vent
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Hi all :) i find myself posting on here for the first time because I need to tell my story and would welcome your advice. This will be a very long post, however I need to let it out. Yesterday I walked away from a 10 month relationship. My ex-partner is a good person but his life is ruled by alcohol. He would...
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me again
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Feeling emotionally raw. Those of yiu whobhaven rdg and responding know what chaos my life is in. . Let me add some more. My ah has reached out to a pastor friend, come clean and will be going to.his first cel recovry mtg on thursday. Im left feeling ambivelent, anxious, apathetic and scared. Is tjis jus...
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Thought for Today ~ Rebellion ~ 10/27/15
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All of us tend to rebel against the unhappiness in our lives; we try to understand; we resent what we cannot understand. Rebelliousness will only heap one frustration on another until we learn to get out from under, let go, and let God take a hand in our affairs. "When a man of good-will is trouble...
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Gonna be a Grandpa again!!
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And this one will be right in town here where I am!! Can't wait! I hope it's a ... baby! That way I doubt i'll be disappointed. Can't start buying diapers yet because I don't know the sex, so I'm going to stockpile wipes. Gonna build a playhouse and a rocking bear. Rocking horses are too cliche. PLUS, Mo...
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almostThere
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Hope for today oct 27
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Good morning everyone- Today's reading speaks to the effects growing up in an alcoholic home or living with alcoholism can have on our self esteem. It took me a long while to recognize this in myself because honestly I come from a loving and warm family- and always felt the strength of that. How then...
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yanksfan51
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Feeling Guilty
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Hi again.......well Ive got through a day and a half since walking away from my relationship. Today I felt slightly empowered. Now, however, Im feeling guilty, sad, sorry for my ex, no concentration span and so, so exhausted. He contacted me today and wants to speak to me face to face, call me etc etc....
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Jeanniejox
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progress report
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my ah is trying to be nice to me[cleaning a bit,taking me to doc] he has overcompansated by being verbal constantly and trying to do stuff for me. there are alot of details right now that i have to sort through that he doesnt understand to do so i am doing them so i wont get screwed. i have to rember to stop fal...
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Signs of a Relapse
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I am curious to know what experience others have with relapse. My AH has been sober for almost 4 months. Though I think he is still sober I often wonder if I will know quickly if he is drinking again. From what I have heard, once they relapse, most Alcoholics relapse and start drinking again very quic...
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Detachment
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I know that detachment is very important in Al-Anon. I physically detach by leaving the house when my AH drinks, go out with friends, go shopping or just stay in the house in another room reading, watching television, talking on the phone or cleaning and doing laundry. This is easy. However, where...
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wifeofalcoholic
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pressure to try again conitunes
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So i have said i want divorce. I feel there is no going back. .Two affairs, one with a fam friend and yrs of dysfunction. I need me back, that said my daughter now blames me saying why cant you give daddy another chance. . Ah keeps reminding me of the good. I feel like im dying inside. . This is why ive tried to s...
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Theoceancalls
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mornings are the worst
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So now that ive said ENOUGH. ,my ah is being loving, helpful, begging for me to let him proove he will change andalthough i feel strong. . I die a little lore inside. I woke uo today and coukd hear him crying as im sleeping in a different room. I stayed away but its tearing me up. I do love theman but i have give...
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Courage to Change Reading for 10-26
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C2C reading for October 26 discusses the difference between reacting and responding. It points out that many of us.use a smile and kind words, .outwardly but our inner attitudes of anger, resentment and fear are expressed by our tone of voice and subtle actions The reminder suggests that...
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Let's see...Now...Where was I...?
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Oh yeah...Step #1. Admitting that I was powerless over alcohol. Yup.
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almostThere
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Thought for Today ~ Mediate ~ 10/26/15
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A period of meditation, everyday, is necessary to spiritual development. I control these "thinking time." If I meditate on what is good in my life, it will increase day by day and crowd out the self-pity and resentment over what I lack and what is hurting me. Suddenly I will find myself able...
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remember do not engage
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I am basically saying this to remind myself but I hope it helps someone else. Since the beginning of the year or so I have been trying to practice this in my marriage. I am not always successful but I am doing better. I have been counseled & listen on here. All I can say for sure is that it works if you work...
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Hoot Nanny
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Busy Spammers
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Good Morning everyone- The "spam" people, with such boring lives, have been here all night posting messages to fill up 4 pages of the Alanon Message Board. I have deleted many and blocked several IPs. John is working on a Mass removal. In the mean time I ask your patience and suggest w...
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hotrod
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C2C 10 25
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The C2C reading for October 25 talks about the defect of character that some develop by living with the disease of alcoholism . It is the habit of making "decision and choices passively" The reading points out that by doing this we "Let things happen, rather than taking ac...
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Thought for Today ~ Examine Ourselves ~ 10/25/15
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Success with the Al-Anon program demands that we think, honestly and in depth, about our attitudes, evaluate our words and actions. When the attitudes change from hostility to forgiveness, from violence to quiet acceptance, our words and actions follow along. "Freedom has many facets, b...
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H J& F!
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Today I am happy joyous & free! They used to have this on a door at my old fellowship. It reminds me that I can be happy filled w/ joy & have freedom to do things I never thought possible. I only know how to do the things I was taught. New things scare me but challenge me. I will remember to take chances...
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Hoot Nanny
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New to this
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Just looking to share my experience and hope to find some friends out there. In 2010 I lost my sister to alcohol. She died of kidney and liver failure. She was my best friend and I miss her terribly. I still am trying to deal with the feelings that I should have done more. Can seem to get over that.
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otis
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C2C 10-24
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The C2C reading for October 24 speaks about recovery in Al-Anon being compared to the peeling of an onion. It points out that we peal a layer away at a time often shedding a few tears as we do. Recovery always makes us think of the bark of the tree. The tree bark is necessary to protect the tree. As the tr...
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hotrod
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Thought for Today ~ Negativity ~ 10/24/15
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I will examine, with a sharp and honest eye, my OWN motives, for I need to do a lot of straight thinking about my own attitudes and actions. If I am troubled, worried, exasperated or frustrated, do I rationalize the situation and put the blame on someone else? Or can I honestly admit that I may be at fault...
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To my sponsor now to you all. . help strength
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I'm needing some significant support right now as you can only imagine my Husband is pulling out all tHe stops as He doesn't want me to leave and I've actually drawing a line in tHe sand. He is begging me to go to counseling wHicH I do not want to do I just tHink tHat prolong tHe agony wHicH I've done before H...
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Theoceancalls
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ODAT reading 10 23
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The ODAT reading for October 23 suggests that we try to look differently at familiar phrases and attempt to understand them in a different light.. The saying :" he is standing in his own light, is used as an example. It points out that if we take the time to focus on ourselves, examine our motive...
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any tips
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To those of you who have left you ah with children in the mix. . Id love some tlc and how to. Im finally at mylimit but getting out is no easy task. . -- Edited by Theoceancalls on Friday 23rd of October 2015 02:59:41 PM
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Dealing with Anger Today
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I am so angry at my AH right now I want to scream. I had an unexpected family visit last night. A few people were in town and wanted to get together. My AH had other plans that included him staying home so I didn't push him and I wasn't angry about that at all (in the past I would have been fuming that he would...
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Thought for Today ~ Powerless ~ 10/23/15
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Al-Anon tells me that complete acceptance of my powerlessness to change the alcoholic can, indeed, create a new life for me. When I really let go and stop playing God, things will begin to happen. Because at that point, my Higher Power has an opportunity to correct what seemed to me so hopeless. &quo...
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acceptance and forgiveness
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"Forgive" is a word like "accept",for me. Both have felt like chokeholds, outside things imposed around me. I try a little bit more each day to grow my understanding around these two things, acceptance and forgiveness. Growing acceptance began with acknowledging that I did...
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a4l
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help
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To those who have been golloelwing my past few days. . Help. . My emotions are going crazy. . Hes telling me he xant imagine lifevwithout me, crying, begging. . "your a wonderful wife and mother" i need help.to stsy strong. He did say he will.look at a house with me but thsts todays comment. . H...
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The old familiar cycle......
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A bit of an update here. I posted on here a few months ago as I was struggling to maintain a relationship of a lady I met in rehab. In short, I stayed sober, she relapsed. In 18 months I've seen out 16 months in rehab, stayed sober, moved back home and recommennced a really good job in London. I'm active in AA a...
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Perspective
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I got a healthy (but sad) dose of perspective today. One of my classmates from highschool passed away last night at the age of 40. It was a quick battle with cancer and he was just the sweetest guy. His wife just had a baby this summer so they were new parents. I am absolutely heart broken for his family...
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Thought for Today ~ My Role ~ 10/22/15
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I will, today and from now on, examine my own role in all my confusion and despair. If I do this honestly, I will come to realize that I am not blameless, that there is much to be changed in me. "How can he think the way I think, Or do just what I'd do? (I will remember, day by day, My love that I'm not you.)...
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Lets Talk Positive Relationships Please
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Can folks reading this message board please provide some positive relationship news? Tell stories about how a rock bottom situation of addiction actually made a relationship (marriages or long term partnerships) stronger and the end product thrives today? I am new to alanon but I feel hope for the...
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not sure how to start . .
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Your responses have all become gifts to me. I read each and every one of them several times throughout the day and specially in the evenings. At the moment I think my husbAnd is ActuAlly Accepting the fAct thAt I Am denied the fAct thAt there is no counseling. . ThaT This is over I senT him a picTure of a hous...
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ODAT 10-22
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The ODAT reading for October 22 speaks about examining our own motives and understanding our own drives. Great topic and one I never undertook prior to program. The reading points out that we are asked to do this so to to correct the destructive habits that we have developed which hamper our re...
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Expectations=Heartbreak And Disappointment
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I get it now.I have dried my tears because I realize I have been sitting here so heartbroken and disappointed over my AS because I expected him to do something other than what he does.He is an addict,he does what he does because he is an addict,he does what addicts do. I set myself up by expecting differen...
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Celebrate recovery versus AA
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Hi everyone. My ah who I have been separated since July has been attended celebrate recovery, a therapist, a psychologist and has been sober about a month seems to be trying and every time I think that is finally it he comes back around and says he has found a network and he is hopeful that he will say the co...
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Fund raiser for a dying alcoholic
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I'm going to post this here mostly as a vent because I can't say what I'm feeling out loud. My ex brother in law is dying of liver failure, 45 years old, he has been dealing with this for probably six years but can't stop drinking. Typical alcoholic story, had a good life at one point but was always looking...
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what a wonderful day to celebrate sobriety!
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Today my Ah gave up alcohol 9 years ago. I am so proud of him. He needs to celebrate. His life was saved by he program of Alcoholics Anonymous. He was near death before he got sober & I didn't realize. He is now 73 years old & is in very good shape. He has given me a reason to love him again. Thank God for...
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Hoot Nanny
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Thought for Today ~ Detaching ~ 10/20/15
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Detaching our minds from the problem can truly promote our spiritual growth, and lessen the unrecognized personal guilt we carry around within us. It can lift the mind away from the partner's doings. Such detachment shows us each new day as an opportunity to free ourselves from a sense of injury that...
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OUTING/AH REACTION/MY REACTION
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Yesterday was ah's birthday and he was able to remain sober enough to take us to a movie/diner. It was that old agravation which i tried so hard to detach from. He made us late cause he had to have 1/2 beer prior and then to my silent horor i discovered they sold beer/wine in the movies! Well, I hadnt been to o...
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Thought for Today ~ Punishment ~ 10/21/15
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Nobody has given me the right to punish anyone for anything; "Vengeance in mine, faith the Lord." Therefore any attempt at retaliation for an injury can only react unhappily on me. "In nature there are neither rewards nor punishments--there are consequences." ~ (Rob...
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ODAT 10-21
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ODA T reading for October 21 speaks about one of Al-Anon's most important principles which are :" Don't take anybody's inventory but our own. It suggests that the more we practice this philosophy, we will gradually come to understand that by focusing on ourselves, rather than others, we wi...
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He is sober but still a jerk
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So...I am having some difficult feelings. My brother is 3 years sober from a heroine addiction that almost killed him twice. He works the program, attends meetings, meditates, etc. Good for him right? Yeah, I agree. The big issue is he is still such a selfish jerk! His life is still all about him and wha...
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Ashley B
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How to live with success...and still use Al Anon
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I've had a really good week with me and my AW. We've been to counseling and its really going well and she seems to be working her program really well. We had a great weekend together, spending a lot of time and working well together. I struggled at my two FTF meetings with hearing all the horror stories...
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gotta keep venting. . bless you for reading
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So those wjo have read and have to.know me, know i belueve in my viws, i never wanted a broken family, i never wanted to abdone my husb. Hes broken and damaged and at times really wonderful. . But. . Two affairs in less than five years one to a teacher skank at my daughters school and now recently to a women sk...
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Ouch...
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I am suffering big time on this computer! I am not complaining but stating that I can't sit very long on here. This chair stinks! I have mentioned it before I know. I wish the library would change the chairs. There goes my frustration for the day. Otherwise I am doing great! Things are really going well. I...
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sad update to anniv and marriage
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after a week of *//* it has culiminated in me uncovering proof of my ah second affair in three/four years t this time with a neighbor/friend. . Found texts that were suspicioys thursday, emails and sex photos today. . I confronted he didnt deny. .Im sick. Those images are burned on my brain. Sure its bee...
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Hope for Today October 20
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good morning everyone- Today's reading is about our responsibilities to ourselves. lt speaks about the difference in our lives when we learn to keep the focus on ourselves and how we are able to choose our responses to different situations. when I went to my first couple of alanon meetings, I defini...
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This is Robinks from the meetings, I decided to stop being a doormat and my life has been changing
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Last week I decided to go on a serious diet, serious meaning I was committed to eating healthier. It is day 8 and I have stayed on it. I have found that I am just feeling a lot better, with this my confidence has grown. With this, I am not being a doormat anymore. Monday, stood up for myself with a co worker tha...
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mercedes1959
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Broken!!
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I'm having a very hard time. I am so broken I don't recognize myself. My identity has been shattered. How can I pick myself up, shake off the crud?? Not only have I had to accept my AH's drunkeness but I now have to face the fact that I ruined my career. I don't know how to salvage anything. I admit I am p...
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Confused2379
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Settling in new romantic relationships
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Most of you know that I have moved on to a new relationship to someone who is not an addict or alcoholic, but that does not mean he does not have baggage or issues. I have recently been asking myself if I am settling for 'a relationship(being in one specifically with a good man)' or if my discontent and uns...
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andromeda
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