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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
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Higher Power puts a theme in your day and if you are lucky you get the message from the theme. With the holidays I have been a little lax on going to meetings and with puter at home being on the fritz I haven't made it to the board or the chat room in a while. Today we had electrical problems at work giving me a lot of down time. I had a little knawing feeling at me. When my work computer came up I headed straight for the board and quickly found the answers to the feeling I was having.
The feeling was that I was getting overly confident in my current surroundings. Things have been very good in my life. Hubs and I are getting along great. We are talking great, he is getting involved in responsibilities, and we are enjoying each others company. Kids are well. Job is great. Everything I have waited for for years. The feelings at one time would have been of dred - when will the other shoe drop etc. But today it is a simple thing.
My f2f tonight cemented the theme for me. I chaired the newcomers meeting and had 3 people there who were in a lot of pain. It was a very powerful meeting and I came away feeling even better than I have been. I took away a very important message through all of today. There are no guaruntees in sobriety and that tomorrow it can all be gone. With that being said I must remember that even in the good times of life I must remain diligent in my program. I must attend meetings regularly, keep in touch with my sponsor and other members of my program, use the tools of this program, and continue to maintain a relationship with my HP. All of this will help me when I am struggling with the next struggle in life that comes my way.
It's ok to be comfortable and confident as you move through life. However, an abundance of either can be ones downfall. Gratitude fills me now for today I am thankful that I kept an open mind and was able to be receptive to the messages being given to me by my HP. What a tremendous gift that is.
Karen
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
I don't know why...but your posts bring me back to the basic of recovery. What I haven't be hearing at meetings and on the board these days....or what I haven't been listening to. Thank you for your post. It was a huge help for me today. I reach small plateaus at times. This bumped me up.
Were you seeing a kinda pink halo around yourself? I had the rug jerked out from under me on Christmas Evening after a somewhat long stretch of serenity. The issue was an old one and not my problem but there it was again and I was invited to go hang with my HP and practice acceptance and forgiveness, patience and compassion or just throw gasoline on the bridge and burn the damned thing down. On the way to where the matches were I picked up the keys to my truck and headed out to the shoreline to hang with HP and talk softly.
I don't like complacency or walking on egg shells and this program is active living for me. No matter how things are going; good or goofy I need to be in the middle of the steps, slogans, traditions, concepts, prayers and so on. It ain't hard if its habitual. When I have the program in my subconscious I won't even have to think about it.
Thanks for your experience, strength and hope and the service you do in your meetings.
