The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
So, tonight I was going to my first f2f alanon meeting. I was super nervous, but determined. I was running a little late because my boyfriend kept talking to me (I think he thought if he made me run late, I would decide not to go). So, when I got there, I hurried in and sat at a table with some other people right as the meeting was starting and heard the words "This is the Friday night meeting of alcoholics anonymous." An AA meeting! Now, AA is not new to me, I'm a recovering addict. Thing is, I was so ready and needing an alanon meeting! I was a little disappointed until I started to really listen to the reading for the night. It was about step 3, turning our will and life over to our higher power. And it made me think, maybe I was supposed to be in that AA meeting tonight instead of the alanon meeting. Maybe by being there, I picked up something that will help me. Or maybe something I said will help someone else. Or maybe nothing. What I do know is I feel better right now than I have all day. And, also, if I would've gone just a few doors further down the hall I would have found my alanon meeting (I found that out after the AA meeting). So, now I plan to gear myself up again, because I found an alanon meeting on Sunday I can take the bus to. Maybe I'll actually make it this time!
