The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
As I have posted this before...I am addicted to food...especially sugar. It has made my life unmanageable and miserable.
I have even tried, by self will, to give it up. I would say to myself if I can get off the rollercoaster of binge eating, then maybe I will have more hope for my A son. The cravings are so strong that I cannot do it...even if it meant my son would get into recovery if he saw me recovering from my compulsion. He, of course knows I have the same disease as he does. I have to rely on my HP to help me and I have to leave him to his HP's help. I cannot do it for him...I know that now.
So, when my son goes for a couple of days and doesn't drink, I can certainly understand what his body is feeling like. I can understand the guilt he feels afterwards when he wishes he could lick this problem by himself. Maybe one day...if he really wants to stop...he will realize that he cannot do it alone and only with the help of God.
What a compassionate post. You remember the "I wish you enough" story. Well, I have my addiction to cigarettes. I hate to smoke, I hate smelling like smoke, I hate standing outside in the freezing rain because I just can't stand another minute without one.
My patience with all this with my AW and any A comes largely from that. I thank my HP that I never felt that way about anything else.
Thanks for posting that.
Take care of you!
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"Good judgement comes from experience... experience comes from bad judgement" - unknown
So very grateful to have you here at MIP - your warmth & compassion for your son helps remind me to have that same warmth & compassion for my daughter who also hasn't been able to maintain a program of recovery, yet - Again, I say - Yet - for her & for your son - With God's grace - prayerfully recovery will happen for both of them, and for all the other A's that are prayed for by our members.
But for the Grace of God,
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
What a caring post. You can identify with someone being powerless. I know how you feel. I used to binge eat also. This year I decided to try Weight watchers and it really helped me stay focused, plus I felt like I was doing something for me! I have lost 40 pounds and feel so much better. I know if I can do it, you can do it!!! I just made a commitment to attend every week, and stick to the eating plan, wrote everything down. I do know, though, that it was finally time to do something about it, and no one can help you reach that decision.
It is just like this program in a way, taking care of ourselves, feeling better, so we can better be there for others in our lives. Thanks for being an inspiration and being so honest about yourself!!!
