The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I had a rude truth awakening this weekend. This is the first weekend my husband actually couldn't drink cuz we went to a camp w/the cancer society. They didn't allow any alcohol. He actually went two nights w/o anything! But, of coarse, as soon as we get home, he had to go buy some f****** alcohol and we can't hardly make bills. It makes me SO mad.
Anyway, another awakening, but a much brighter one...camp was wonderful! It was truly amazing to see all of these kids that are in treatment w/each other. They all have a bond that I could never understand. I had several actually grabbing at Bryon to give him hugs. It was wierd at first, but I really enjoyed myself, and actually the whole family did. It was SO , so,,,,awesome. Not sure what else to say. It was just a good time. I am so glad we went.
Faith, yes, I am still hanging in there! God, he is by my side still. Love, yes my heart is still full of love, and last but not least, stress...OF COURSE! I couldn't live w/o that too! LOL
It sounds like you are in the same boat as me. Accepting the good times, and accepting reality also, that your husband has no control over the drink, and neither do you have control over whether he does or not!
The camp sounds wonderful for your son (?) and your whole family. I don't know your situation but it sounds like you have a lot to deal with if your son has cancer. What a wonderful experience for him and other kids to hang out with each other and share their experiences because they are all going through the same thing! That is what life is all about.
I know what you mean though about having a great time and then being disappointed because AH wants a drink after. My AH and I took a long bike ride yesterday, it was such a beautiful day and healthy, neither of us had been on a bike since junior high or something! We ended up doing really well and went like 16 miles or something! It was SO fun! BUT, the minute we got home, he said, "I'm sorry, but after that hard ride, I need a beer." I didn't argue or say anything, then I went to a face to face meeting and came home and he was drunk. No control, no control.
Have a wonderful day Sandy, and know that you are not alone....
The A did that on the weekend claimed he had no money, lost his money but somehow found some to buy drink with. Wow the disappearing money talk about the story of our relationship.
These days I do not say or do anything. I just observe it. I am beyond saying anything. I just keep right on with plan b which is hard enough to do.
