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I heard this song in the middle of all the crap last nite. It was so true except the part of being stoned. I don't do that anymore. (rock ) It sucks to feel you live alone when you don't.
THREE DAYS GRACE LYRICS
"Home"
I’ll be coming home Just to be alone Cause I know you’re not there And I know that you don’t care I can hardly wait to leave this place
No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home I think I’m better off alone Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a home
By the time you come home I’m already stoned You turn off the TV And you scream at me I can hardly wait Till you get off my case
No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home I think I’m better off alone Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a home
I’m better off alone
No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home I think I’m better off alone Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a
Home, home, this house is not a Home, home, this house is not a home
[Thanks to krissi_700@hotmail.com for these lyrics]
...By the time you come home I’m already stoned You turn off the TV And you scream at me I can hardly wait Till you get off my case
No matter how hard I try You’re never satisfied This is not a home I think I’m better off alone You always disappear Even when you’re here This is not my home...
Yup, that part of the song right there.... only I could see my A singing it and me being the one screaming and getting on his case and disappearing... that is what this disease did to ME. I was miserable, he was miserable. Our house was not a "home" anymore.
Through Al-Anon I learned to change my attitude and behavior. To stop my own insane thinking and actions. I learned the difference between "detaching" (escaping, disappearing) and "detachment with love" (still showing love and concern and being a part of my loved one's life, yet leaving him to the consequences of his own actions).
As I learned this and began behaving and thinking differently, our homelife DID change. It once again became a "home", not just a house. Unconditional love with healthy personal boundaries. Looking at my part of things rather than focusing on his part and blaming everything on him and the drinking. I came to see that a lot of the unpleasantness and miserableness of our life lay squarely on MY doorstep.
I thank HP for guiding me to Al-Anon so that I was able (and am able) to "see" myself now and change the things I can... myself.
Luv, Kis
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