The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I started back to work last week. It has been hectic ever since. I am having to make alot of adjustments because my facility is being renovated. Also, we have to add another class to make our workload. I am on the run, tired, and frustrated. So in a week and a half I have already embarassed a student, yelled at another, and called what one student did stupid. Whoa. My serenity is gone and so is theirs. I am looking at myself and I think is this how I want to be? It will be a long semester. How about that 4th, 5th, 6th, and 7th step? Take my shortcomings HP and give me self control and good boundaries. I am imperfect and willing to improve. I am definitely going to take it one day at a time from here. PS I know I have made some progress. Remember that dog that got killed when I was jogging in the spring? Well, the owner e-mailed me that she can't socialize with me anymore because she holds me responsible for the death of her dog. I e-mailed her back and said "Thanks for sharing". Let go and let god.
The fact that you are a teacher, you have my admiration and respect. Teachers don't have it easy these days. Frankly, I think they should make as much money as doctors without the malpractice insurance. Go easy on yourself, you'll get back in the swing of things.
Have a great fall. I always love it when falls comes, a new beginning and the glory of God's work on display. Can't help but have a change in attitude.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
I relate with the chaos you're going through. It is good that you are stepping back and looking at your behavior. I think it is growth when we finally realize that we are going off! Then we can pray and ask HP for removal and change. It is such a process.
I admire you for recognizing this, and for having such a challenging career. It must take loads of patience to do what you do, and it sounds like you try very hard to practice the steps.
Making amends is a great thing right away, if you haven't done so with the students. I was furious at my neighbors for the past month because they drink every night in their garage and AH was going over there everynight. They knew he struggled with alcohol and I was actually MAD at them because he was over there drinking. I apologized to them a few days ago, and felt so much better.
Thanks for your share, Nancy and have a nice weekend!!!
Those basic needs need answering first before you can work on serenity.
Am I Hungry? if so eat. Am I Angry? if so, get to a meeting and share your anger and frustration. Take a long hard walk to let it all out. Am I Lonely? if so, get to a meeting or make a program call. Am I Tired? that's easy, take a nap or get a good night's sleep.
I find when I address those needs first, I can deal with the rest.
yours in recovery, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
Go easy on yourself, you'll get back in the swing of things.
