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This has been the longest week on earth! I'm back in the library where my hour is ticking away, and OMG do I ever miss my friends in this place! I didn't think it would be this bad, but Mspeewee!, you were right, I'm withdrawing all over the place! I feel like I've fallen off of the face of the earth and no one's there to talk to! I've been sleeping very erratically and sometimes not at all, and boy , it's sooooooooo lonely not to have anyone to get on and talk with!
The other night , something exploded near my apt, I still don't know what it was, I've about decided it was a transformer or something but it was at 12:15AM and me and Fancy about peed our pants!
This better be worth the loss to have the money back in my pocket!!! I'm going nuts without you alanuts to talk to!
That song is true, "you don't know what you have till it's gone!", cause I sure didn't know what ya'll meant to me when I had easy access to your "smiling faces and encouraging words"!!!!
Update: my Mom is still NOT talking to me. It just hurts that she is so manipulative like that with me and my sister at her age! (80) This weekend is my sister's anniversary and they're going out of town, and I know she's gonna expect me to "care" for my mom and take her places, I need some advise on what to do, but how would I get the answers if I don't have the access unless I can come down this weekend, but , oh crap they'll be closed for the holiday, guess I'm on my own! Shoot!!! My brother never answered my sister's email about having our MOM to his house to give me and her a break. I guess he's bowed out too. It's been this long before tho, and even longer back when I was younger. It just works on my mind now because I don't have the kids and all to take up the time like I did when younger. It's really got me quite depressed. I think that's why I'm not sleeping and I'm having nightmares again too. Amazing what your "family" can do to ya isn't it?
I'm hoping that I'll get to get back eventually. I hope ya'll don't forget me in the mean time!
Love ya'll,
Texasjoni21
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I'm single, been here a year now, have two furbabies at home; Fancy and Joey, 2 kids, grown, 3 grandkids,1step grandkid, fun!:-)
A woman in my home group grew so weary of her fathers verbal abuse she finally told him "If you cannot speak to me or to my family in a loving, kind, accepting way, don't call. Don't write. Don't contact me."
They didn't speak for two years. He was trying to freeze her out so she would break down and come back to him.
He doesn't speak to her like he used to. When he does, and she hangs up the phone, he knows why; she doesn't feel guilty; and their relationship is the "healthiest" in the family. Her father has lukaemia.
Oh Joni, good to hear from you even if it is one way for now. I sent you a letter the other day, so you can read it over the weekend :) Yes, it is awful to be away from here, and amazing how we rely on our friends here to cheer us up. So I send you good cheer right now.
I sure do understand that parent responsibility and yo yo emotions amongst the siblings. Did you hear Dr. Phil on Wednesday? It was great. He demanded respect on the part of mother and daughter, very clearly. If you don't get or give respect, stay away, basically. Well, I like to hear it the way it is.
We miss you very much, and know you'll be back among us one of these days.
Just sending my hugs MY Joni - love and miss ya too but understand you have to do what you have to do.
Just a thought - each one of us has our own higher power and you are not it meaning why do you have to take care of Mom? especially where she's not too loving to you? When I used to tell my mother (who was wonderful) but I have to do this, that or the other. She used to say "Maria, who died and appointed you God?" (tee hee hee).
Love ya, Maria
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
Sending you love and prayers. We could never forget you. Try and be extra good to yourself. Spoil yourself with the simple things in life. We all deserve it.
Live strong,
Karilynjn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
meaning why do you have to take care of Mom? especially where she's not too loving to you? When I used to tell my mother (who was wonderful) but I have to do this, that or the other. She used to say "Maria, who died and appointed you God?" (tee hee hee).