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"normal" for Eden is, animals underfoot, animals sticking their mugs in my way, animals pulling the grain sacks out becuz I forgot to shut the van....lol so letting them from the barn to the front yard is what feels normal! lol
I am thinking winter, ug. I really want to feed in ONE place. At least the pots. It would make it so they did not have to walk far to go eat. I could also put a huge tarp up to eat under. My thought is however, that means I have to lug the bags of feed to the other side of the house...ug. trying to think of the easiest way. Guess I am just going to have to lug it. I just cannot go thru another winter slopping in mud, feeling bad cuz they are too.
There is a huge pile of shale to push around in their area. Of course my big plans to hire someone to come out got snoodled. oh well. plan B.haha
Ok that means I have to get the two apple box houses I made back there. I can do it. slowly. cuz um rootie, Betty, and hoggy and Bob are now not at the barn. finally. sigh. BUT Fannie and SueSue have to go up to the barn, Probably Muddy too. He is huge. He likes to snuggle with sue and I am sure Fannie will be accepted once they appreciate another warm body.
So that does it I will fence the pigs in their area. It is plenty big for winter and on nice days they can go out and munch in front thru a gate i will put up. that takes care of that mud problem.
Ok now the barn area. ok hmmmmm, thinking. I have to frame in the end of the addition. that makes a nice stall with a floor. there is a big stall for the llamas in the barn. I can close off the two stalls that get muddy. then there is another big stall for the horses, and a nice warm area for the piggies. ok who am i forgetting? The goats will go where ever with the llamas. Now doing this. I won't have to deal with the mud. I will have to go up to the barn to feed which is great as it will be warmer and dry.
I have never planned ahead before. Put on my Pollyanna dress and though OHHHHH winters are not that bad. Then next thing I know, I am slopping around. and am miserable and worrying about my babies.
So Debilyn puts on her real overalls and does this right finally. Only took me 8 years....But I tell ya, when you are dealing with an alcoholic in and out, here and there, loving, not loving, abuse, crap. rrrrrrr nothing gets done. I turn into a weenie.
So guess what???? I dug my pond today!! I have not cared enough to do it until today!! Just did not feel like home.
I am so jazzed. Have always had a big pond to put flowers in and stuff. I do a woodland type one with rocks from here and plants from here.
The one at my other house is so cool. I did it then Mac redid it this year. Looks so neat. (a woman I thought was going to buy it wrecked it so mac redid it)
Anyhow I have it so it will start up this little hill then go down to deeper for the fish. I want to put rock from the top down. I have never done one like this before. I am going to use my liner I have and put cement and rock over it. It will look totally natural. I will use round rock so the bottom is comfy to walk on. then ya put nooks on the sides to set plants into. I also have two big forms to put next to the liner pond.
I am working on my camera too. I can do a before and after.
My chickens are milling around eating all the yummers in the dirt I dig up. (c:
digging and making ponds makes me forget everything else. I forgot how theraputic it is for me.
Ok I am going to stick the disc in and try to figure this camera thing out.
I am glad your bronchitis got better. I am glad you took care of yourself. I am admiring your resiliency. It is hard hard work to come back from where the A's leave us. I know you had great great hope the A would turn around from being in prison. I am sorry he did not. Nevertheless you did not allow his craziness to destroy you and that for me is what al-anon is all about.
Thanks for the wonderous description of your life. You should be a writer! Your life sounds really fun.
Welcome back to Debilyn and I am SO glad you are feeling better. I wish you so much peace and happiness in your life!!! It sounds like you and your animals have it! (Cool about the pond, too!!!)
You go girl! Emotional crap sure does bring me down too and saps the energy and strength right out of me.
Just a thought! Are there any veterinary schools nearby where kids going to college could come and work the farm with you. Get some real hands-on education.
Love ya, Maria
P.S. Can't wait for more pics of Eden and the lovely Debilyn and Mac.
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So glad to hear you are back to your self! Gee, I feel lazy after reading all you did today!! Great therepy, getting down and diggin'. I'm going away tomorrow, but you have inspired me. Gotta get my barn cleaned out. Don't know what we'd ever do here without our Debilyn! You are truly an inspiration!! Love Ya, TLC
Way to take care of yourself and your animals. I am doing the same thing; thinking about the winter. It is hard and cold and muddy here when it comes; I need more wood. I am placing more rocks and bark where I have to walk and feed the pets and get the wood. My solution tho is to whine about poor old me. Ain't it just awful how he left me with all this work. It is draining dealing with a A. It sure takes the focus off the important things.
Debilyn, I am soooo glad to hear you are feeling better. You have been such an inspiration to me. Wish I could get out there and dig in the dirt with you. I love to do things outside. It is so good to look back when you finish a project and see how great it looks. Good luck with all your plans.
