Monday I got to plan G before we left the house. I got home around 10:30am. she was suppose to be ready to go to town. I unloaded almost the entire car from the sale items by myself. I was thinking where the H is she? I went inside & she was still not ready. I sat down quietly and said nothing. She said Well you ready? Then the next door neighbors goat shows up. I get yelled at because I could not read her mind and get the goat feed in the proper place outside to get him in the dogs fence. I told her while she was sober, I was working 60 hours this week and I needed so patience & help. 

We got Vinny home Monday. We thought we were going to have to wait another day. We were in Phenix City, Alabama sister city to Columbus,Ga. I wanted to go to the Walmart SuperCenter. Tina went out to the car to get more cash out of the trunk. The car would not start. ( the key does not open the truck we have to start the engine and push the button to open the trunk)  Someone stopped to help, he said the battery was reading it had power. It better. I just bought the battery on Friday. We started to panic. It was getting close to closing time for the vets office. 

I almost had the car towed to a mechanic. Tina found the problem. A wire had come off a power supply box. We went inside & tried to get the part. They were out so we got some electrical tape. It worked. We got our Vinny and headed home. I had half and hour to drop her off and get ready to go to work by 9pm. Our next doors neighbors goat had come over that morning so Tina had to use the car to transport the neighbors and the goat back home. The neighbors wanted to borrow money for 8 days & leave their truck as collateral. It is worth $1000. They did not borrow that much. We had earned $140 from our sale on Saturday. Another neighbor wanted to come and see Vinny but they do not know or want to know the next door neighbors, whatever! I left to get to work. Leaving Tina to handle it all. I thought we had gotten along pretty good all day.

I had a rough nite , the man did not sleep much at all. I got off work at 10am. I got home around 10:30am the house is dark. I just went to my bed and went to sleep. I got up around 3pm. My A , Tina was still asleep. I did not really pay her much attention. I was curious why but minded my own business. Tina got up & threw up. she asked if I had some meds for nausea. I told her where it was. Yep! Somehow she had drank while I was working. She did not buy any while with me. She thinks that she is doing better because she is drinking wine now. the problem is she drinks till she gets drunk. She knows no boundaries. She does not know she should abstaine all together.

I went to work Tuesday at 9am and got off work at 11:00am. Another rough day, the man decided he was going to drive his truck. He has not driven since I have been there in March. He has a note from his Dr that he is not to drive for 3 months. He is forgetful, does not know time of day, week, month or year. He thinks he is going to go get a drink. Well, He got verbally ugly with me half and hour before I was to leave. I thought about giving him my xanax. I had to take some after his episode. He finally sat on the porch. As I left he totally forgot was friendly. I was shoke up.

I got home & Tina was outside in her PJ's. I had told her that the lady who came last week was coming today again. She forgot. Well this lady is coming again next Wed. She wants to adopt one of our dogs, Bess who is 6 now. That is alright with us. She is willing to pay us $150 for her. We were not asking that much.

BugABoo our cat was not feeling well & was hiding for about a week. He had a flea allergy. He got a shot Thursday. Today & yesterday he has come out and is standing on the keyboard or my lap. He is biting my fingers or kneading me. when I hollar in pain, Tina tells me not to. GRRR

Tina is telling me she is depressed. She does not feel well. She is taking prozac all month instead of 2 weeks a month now. I noticed while she was standing up that she had a scrap on her side and up under her bra. She got upset with me saying I was judging her. I was just concerned she was hurt.

I feel I have detached. I did get to go to alanon f2f meeting on monday. me and 2 others all that were there. I do not have empathy for her when she is sick the next day. I feel nothing when she is throwing up or sick in general. It is usually she is sick from too much to drink. But she says it is her sinuses. I just do not comment. I go on about my day and do what I had planned on doing for the day wether she is lucid today or not. I just ignore her behavior. I pretend she never drank at all. How do you feel empathy when they are like that?  How do you comfort them?

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Terrific! I am trying to watch the end of a movie I am going to return tommorrow, I am told not to turn it up so loud. She is going to sleep. It is around 11pm. So a few minutes ago, I got offline to go help her feed the 8 outdoor dogs. I asked her if she had the keys to the truck that the neighbors left us for collateral? Ah NO, should I? ok they borrowed $100 and left a truck worth $1000. I think we should have held the keys for the 8 days. I am trying to settle in for the nite. I am jumping up & down letting dogs in and out, giving water to the cats crying in the bathroom. Tina brought home 5 tiny Tittens ( they are in between kittens & off the teats) Sunday. They were out of water. She is just laying in the recliner in front of me. Now she tells me that she had told me before that KeeKee the momma cat who got out in July got outside today. I do not remember her telling me. I am sure I would have had she said so. but she wants to argue that she is right.

 So we will see in the am. I am leaving at 9am, I would love to leave her here but unfortunately she has to go to town too. I have to at work Thursday 4pm to 9pm.  Oh she had an appt to see her Dr on Monday at 9:20am. I said how are you going to get there? I get off work at 10am. She says she will reschedule. I have put my schedule for work on a calendar that she provided. she knows we have something to do on Friday in the town seat ( government commodities) but she has an appt scheduled in the other direction at 8:30am. ok we can hope they do not run out  out in the afternoon.

this is frustrating. I want to argue but what is the point. sober or drunk she wins.  oh yes leaving this and moving would be so easy just like the other 38 times I have moved prior. not an option this time.