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I feel like a boulder has been removed from my chest. I can breath again! I know the truth.
Found out ex was cheating on me. Confronted her and then him.
He called me later that day to let me know I would never see his 6 year old son again (who I love very much) . When I confronted him in a very even voice I let him know how I felt about his drinking and drugging and what I seen it doing to his children and him and his life. of course he denied it all (don't they all) but I told him, knowing in my heart the reaction i would probally recieve, but did it anyway. I was done with everything.
It made me feel better to get it all out, almost everything I had ever wanted to tell him for three years!
I feel like now I have closed that chapter in my life. Now every day is a new day! To know this man and his family almost drove me to insanity. I am so glad its over.
Now its time for me to heal. I'm so raw inside. Hurt, anger ,resentment. I need to heal and I am ready to begin.
I admit my life has become unmanagable because of alcohol!
Please Pray for me .
I haven't learned how to pray yet, but I'm trying.
hello i know exactly everything you are feeling as ive been there. my prayers are definatly with you. through this program you will find your hp and learn prayer. sometimes its just as simple as saying i need your help i cant do this alone. this group is a wonderful place to be and im glad you are here. the whole thing that got me through the tough part of leaving was my trust in my hp who i choose to call god, that he has a plan for me and that he will take care of me and my a no matter what. faith is a wonderful thing and learning to let go, let god. which can be very difficult but it can happen. you will be ok no matter what!!!! take care of the most important person......yourself. and this program works so work it your worth it!!!!!!!!
your sis in recovery
notsonew:)
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stay in the now...dont look forward, dont look back....your life is what you make of it
I read an article the other day that was titled "marriage is for life." The author of the article was saying that he thought that marriage was a path to living (not necessarily a til death do you part thing.) He argued that one should have their first major crisis on the honeymoon so that the marriage could become a vehicle for growth for both parties. I guess what I am trying to say is that all of life is about change and growth and that doesn't always come in pleasant forms. the mountain climber gets strong by climbing mountains. Your HP must believe that you are capable of climbing this one. Trust, that this is new beginning for you. Hugs.
Sounds like you are doing well accepting what seems to be meant to be.
I too have felt the burdens being lifted from my heart and soul which came when I finally accepted that others are going to be exactly as they are going to be and I am powerless to change that. That was a freedom for me.
IMHO You are doing wonderful, one day at a time. Keep coming, Maria123
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If I am not for me, who will be? If I am only for myself, then who am I? If not now, when?
I understand COMPLETELY where you are and what you're saying! I felt the exact same way when mine walked out. It's been almost a month and a half. Through this site I'm learning more every day (I don't post much, I just read) about faith and finding my HP. My two closest friends have been in this program. I'm now reading about the 12 steps. I'm finding myself getting closer and closer to true faith. Too many things have happened for me NOT to have this faith. I've started a God box. I still have doubts. I still sit on the pity pot. Time and faith. Just more of these two things will lead to wonderful things. Keep posting here. Ask questions. Find your path. Let yourself feel all of the emotions you must. The people here are wonderful. Kind and wise. They've been there, they know. Good luck to you in your journey back to you!
In prayer just start by thanking Him for all He has done in your life...and thank Him for always being by your side even when you could not feel Him....and then just say "Lord I need Your help" He knows what you need
