Well, things have been going kind of rough as of late, and I'm really feeling a bit down. I haven't been praying as much as I need too, and that really takes a toll on me.

This morning, I sat down and prayed about everything that is going on. I sat down and prayed about the A and T's relationship, or lack there of, and I felt better.

The A and I went and got Ched some new toys, and some kitten food. We even took the dog for a treat! On the way home, he tells me that he's glad that we went, and that he wanted to talk to me. He told me that the way that I talk to him really bothers him sometimes, and that he would like me to work on that. I didn't even realize that I was doing it!! I told him that it would be something that I worked on. I mean, if I'm alienating him without even knowing it, then who knows who else I'm doing it to! Yet another thing to work on.

Some days, it seems like it's the old days with the A, before he started drinking again, and some days, it feels like I'm back at square one, on the outside looking in. Some days I'm sad, upset, or even angry, and some days I couldn't be more happy! I just have to keep reminding myself to stick with it! That it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, that the only person that is going to work this program is ME!