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Things are up and down in my life. No surprise there. But what is happening again is I am getting burned out on school--and the last time I got burned out on school, it was the culmination of 6 months of disasters, and I landed in a hospital psych unit.
So I've called the school financial aid, because I'm on financial aid probation that if I drop "X" number of classes, I will lose my eligibility for financial aid. But, apparently, I have to speak to this 1 specific person, who will be in...eventually. And if I don't talk to this 1 specific person about whether or not dropping this class will make me ineligible for financial aid, and I do it any way, I may be in deep doo doo.
So now the dirvishes are whirling in my head. Already I've had a hard time sleeping from the ups and downs of living with dad; but of course this kind of stuff, the "life on life's terms" stuff we talk about SO extensively, is just making it SO much harder. And I'm wondering if this is a "sign from god" because the god of my child hood controlled the price of bread, the stop lights, the songs on the radio. And I realize I'm using my pre-recovery thinking but I obviously am pretty miserable otherwise I wouldn't be in this fix.
Isn't that the way it goes sometimes? Just wanted to support you in your efforts at school. I am a teacher at a small college. With financial aid and all, there always seems to be a way. Do you have a good advisor? Have you talked to your teachers and asked for help? There just might be someone in there who can give you guidance.
Sending you a ((Hug)) filled with support & encouragement - Don't know what is right for you, but trust in your HP that he will let you know what you need to do - I try to focus on First things First, the Next Right Thing when I feel overwhelmed and always remember This too shall pass -
Letting Go and Letting God so that I can Live One Day at A Time,
Rita
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No matter what me and my God are going to be ok, even better than OK -
Thanks for the ((hugs)). I meditated and I realized "What would my al anon family say?" And it occured to me, "They would say that if my well being is at risk, everything else is second."
I dropped the class. I got ahold of the financial aid officer and it sounds like I need to complete 2/3 of the classes I sign up for. *And you didn't tell me this when you told me I was on probation why?
(((((tiger)))))) you just gave a perfect example of how the program works for me. I get to that frustrated breaking point and then I sit my butt down and shut my mouth (giggle) turn of my brain, and let God back in through meditation. It is wonderful how when you hear, speak, or feel the truth that it always fills you with Joy - that is how you know it is the truth when it comes your way. Wonderful posts and responses (((((((roomies))))))
Sarah, I want to add my support to what the others have offered. Breathe deeply, and get in touch with that 1 person. I think all will work out. I'll be thinking of you with positive energy.
With caring, Diva
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"Speak your truth quietly and clearly..." Desiderata
I am glad things are working out for you. Sometimes it is difficult to deal with life when so many things are "up in the air". I've heard serenity described as "peacefulness despite unsolved problems."
When you said you had to speak with that ONE advisor- it reminded me possibilites exist even when we don't see them.
wow, needed to read your struggle with this, Tiger...
I am potentially going to be back in school myself in Oct... na accelerated program with NO possibility of 'opting out' or cancelling any classes, due to the nature of the program and the degree.
I need to be thinking long and hard if A) I am ready for this, B) WHERE I need to set boundaries NOW with my somewhat needy workaholic husband so that I am not taking on ALL the household responsibilities and now this along with it, and C) If my program is in the very best place it could possibly be in this moment, and can survive me going to school 5 nights a week, 5 hours a night.
And with that, I am off to a meeting right now!!!
Thanks for bringing up this topic, and reminding me of what my #1 priority needs to be at ALL TIMES.... and I am oh, so proud of you that you made the right choice for yourself!!
it is so easy to get burnt out going to school, I have lots of experience with it. And this year will be harder for me....I am going to be attending class all 4 semesters this time, I want to finish my BS asap. I have grown so tired of being at home living with the total denial of everyone else in my family, walking on eggshells etc. and this only adds to the school pressures as you know. Don't give up is what I am getting at here, you are very smart and an inspiration as well. To come from dysfunction and to be working hard at a normal life (if there is such a thing) is a huge accomplishment. Talking with you, I know you have had some harder things than me to cope with and are still alive and kicking. I was feeling pretty down today, and reading your post reminded me that I am not the only one who has these feelings, and these situations to face. If you are feeling overwhelmed don't forget to reach out, to talk to those of us who know your struggles. We care about you, even if you feel you are totally alone, I am grateful to count you as one of my friends
I got ahold of the financial aid officer and it sounds like I need to complete 2/3 of the classes I sign up for. *And you didn't tell me this when you told me I was on probation why?
