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debilyn


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Well from jail that is.


I guess he got out yesterday. Today a friend of mine of forty years..geesh called and he had called her to get my number. what? She would not give it to him but she said she would have me call him. Well I tried but no one answered. He said it was a phone booth.


Never heard from him.


NOW wouldn't you think, if he cared about me sooooo much, he would have made sure he had my number? He called me from jail for petes sake.


shaking head. I kept busy all day and did not think about it much. Elgin is coming this week end and I am making sure everything is as safe here as possible. Horses can be idiots and get hurt on the weirdest things.


I am more excited about seeing my new horse than A. But then I know horses and I don't know him.


Decided to think like that becuz it is real. I don't know him anymore at all, why would I be excited. I love the man in my heart, I love who he was. He has done nothing for me to love in a very very long time.


Not his fault, I just want to, am curious to, see what he is like this sober and on program, well he was last time I saw him anyway....who knows.


I want to see who he is, how he thinks. Like to see how my animals react to him.They know better than I about people. Plus how he treats them will be a biggie for me.


I have one dog who does not like him at all. But I have seen him end up liking someone once he gets to know him. Beasly is a huge Newfy/spaniel.


One pig cannot stand him but Luster does not like anyone but me, and he will kill for me. Has tried before.


So poor A, if he wants me, he has a lot of amends to make. Most of all to my son and my daughter. He is my sons bio father.


My son is not in alanon so he is super protective of me and would kill him if he ever hurts me again. So A will have to make amends there for sure.


But that is NOT my problem.


So that is that. I am not even curious if he is in a shelter or what. Serenity, one day at a time, taking care of my own inventory, good slogans in my nogin, service to alanon, loving and listening to you guys... that is what i care about.


I should put Elgin on our pic page. Or do we have one? here is my pic site again. He is not on yet though. I gotta fatten him up when he gets here. I hope he likes me.


http://community.webshots.com/user/GypsyGma


will letcha know if anything comes up. and will share about Elgin cuz I know you all cannot wait.. haha


OH and my new little farm piggy, Fannie alice? Well I give her kisses on her snoutie and she is now starting to kiss my chin but biting it real careful! cool huh?


lol love,crazy in love with serenity,debilyn



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leo


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Keep the focus on you and your furry friends and you can't go wrong.  I have visited the site you posted and loved it must say Mac is really gorgeous looking and his Dad is not exactly ugly either.  Can see why you were attracted in the first place.  Hope you get whatever you wish for and more chicken.  Luv Leo xxx

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Hi Deb,


I enjoyed looked at your photos. 


When my husband was active, I always knew he loved me.   The disease robbed him of the ability to function in a loving relationship.   


Kelly



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Karilynn


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(((((((((((((Debilyn))))))))))))),


Love all the pictures!  Animals do know good people when they see them.  Their instinct is uncanny.  Well perhaps the jailbird will grow new wings and learn to fly sober and soar forever.  We can only hope (fingers crossed).  Keep doing what you are doing, being good to yourself and all the furry beings. 


Love and blessings to you and your family and all the critters at Potter's Eden.


Live strong,


Karilynn & Pipers Kitty



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Glad to see you are trying not to get your hopes up too far. Keep looking after #1 YOU! We all love you here, love to hear about your funny critters, love to share your happiness, hate to see you hurt.


Dontcha worry, Elgin horse will love you too!


I see your son is a fisherman, that's cool, I am too! (fisherwoman). Worked on a dragger for 3 years and a lobster boat for the past 6 or 7, wow, has it been that long? Can't do it any more though :( , but can still fun-fish :). I love to row my little punt out and put a line in the water. Don't really care if I catch anything or not. That is my version of a little corner of Eden :)


Take care of you, Love Ya! TLC



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((((Deb))))


I took time this  morning while hub is at work for a couple of hours to look thru your photos.  Hun, my heart just aches for you.  I know the love you feel for the man you fell in love with, as I am the same way with my A.  I remember you writing about your brother in law that passed away, and noticed his pic.  You can tell good looks sure run in that family, (unfortunately, I guess so does addiction, huh?)  Your Hub looks like he has about the same build as my hub.  Wiry, was very strong before the drinking took over. 


I am glad you are keeping the focus on yourself, and your animals.  That is the hardest thing for me, because I love my husband so much, and I know he loves me, somewhere in the deep recesses of his heart, but the alcohol won't let him show me.  And I miss him so much.  I have his body next to mine in bed most nights, but that is it.  No intimacy, outside of a granny kiss now and then.


So very sad that the connection we once had is hidden, drowned in alcohol.  That this disease can take a very attractive (hot, even!) man, and reduce him to a eunech.  Take away his very manhood, you know.  It affects all areas of our lives. 


Sorry for rambling, I always enjoy your posts.  The pictures were a great addition, you know how you always have a visual perception of people you haven't seen, and it may not be right.  But with you, I think you always describe things so well, that you and your hub and Eden look just like I envisioned.  How cool is that?


Love in Recovery,


Becky1



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Maria123


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Deb,

Thank you for sharing Eden with me. I am one who loves your posts about all of your animals. What a joy! Animals, to me, are unconditional love. I so wish humans could emulate animals ~ very simplistic.

I so enjoyed your slideshow.

yours in recovery,
Maria

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