Well, We got a ride to town today to drop of the part ( carborator). We were able to get dog food & our medications. I got to work early. I was due at noon. I sat on a porch out of site & did my daily readings. I was in a better mood. I have been accused of being negative.

My A says she is hurting and can barely move due to the arthriitis. She is on new medication but not working yet. I am hearing from others that she thinks I planned on leaving her with no transportation while I am gone. YES It was my diabolical plan to disable the truck a week before I was to leave for vacation. I planned on begging everyday for a ride to and from work prior to leaving.Then she will have no way to get anywhere while I am gone. Sounds like a good plan to me? LMAO. I am being facetious.

I have tried to get answers from her today on... if she got me a ride home at 8pm. "dont bother me, I am sleeping" I wanted to know if she knew if the truck part was going to be ready today or Monday. I called myself. Even though it is long distance. He just got off the phone with her telling her. I called her back , it would be fixable on Monday. I called back home around 15 till 8pm ( I got off of work at 8pm)  & asked if she had me a ride to get home. No not so far on this end, let me call the neighbor (who went to town yesterday knowing I had an appt). She called back yes they will do it but we have to pay gas money. They got $5.00 for a 30 mile ride. I got a ride home at 8:45pm.

Oh what is so funny to me....at work if I am 5 or 15 min late, It gets put down I am late 30 min. However this evening while waiting for my ride. Everyone  ( family & my boss )went into a back room and shut the door. I took care of the elderly man while they were doing whatever they were doing.Meds, food  & water etc  but will I get time for it? NOPE  whatever! It will come back on her.

I get home & My A is throwing up & not speaking to me when I try and ask any questions ( not nagging or related to drinking). I went to my room & called a freind or two. The neighbor who gave me a ride home wanted to know if we needed our table back so we could go do our sale tommorrow. HUH? I was thinking. She knows we have no way to get there. I was talking to a friend when she beeped in. The friend I was talking to said My A had already talked to her and she was just answering the questions a second time to me. I did get to talk to my friend in N.C for a long overdue catch up.

I got off the phone & was moving the trash bags in the kitchen in my way as she was throwing up in the toilet. "What are you looking for?" she asked. I said nothing. My A is trying to convience me that she hurt her back putting two 50lb bags of dog food into the camper. She had help. She claims she is numb & has no feeling in her hip & back however she is walking.  So she says she had been throwing up ever since. I suspect different. I think I have an alcoholic Radar now. I just agreed with her and she went on to bed. Frankly I do not care what or how much she had. It is annoying. I hate being lied too.

Our carborator will be ready some time on Monday hopefully . I now have to find a ride to work & back home for 3 more times 8pm,8am,& 6:30am so far. that is if the truck gets fixed on Monday then we have to find a ride to town and back to get the part.I swear I think I will post a sign on the corner of our property asking for help. I have sent and email to a neighbor so hopefully she can help. We are under unnecessary stress this week but we should be working together but we are barely speaking. Why should I think different?  

I wish I could take my little dogs with me, I wish my truck were running & I wish I had all the money I supposedly have squirreled away, I wish I had my SS money already & did not have my job then I may not come back to this