I am just having a difficult time tonight-- I know that sleep be will not be coming tonight (for awhile at least), so thought I write out some of this stuff & maybe feel better.
I keep repeating the 3 C's....and the serenity prayer!

My A has a dual addiction...... claimes to have not touched alcohol in 18 months, but while cleaning out a closet, a box fell down from the shelf., I found his drug paraphenalia, empty bottles,ectect.
He happens to be traveling for work this week,so I called him and asked him about it.
He stated that although he has abstained ffrom alchohol, he could never stay away from
the drugs, and "needed help". I was totally "there" for him the last time; I advised that
if he needed help, he needed to find help, but that I needed him to stay away from the house & our family until I decide what I want to do. I want no part of this.

I was (and am) filled with so many different emotions (I hate this %$@&%@&disease!!!) that at this moment, I just want my brain to stop!!

Anyway, thanks for letting me share. I'll be to a meeting first thing in the morning.
-MINNOW