The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Well I knew I was getting close to the 1000 posts mark. So I went back and re-read my posts throughout my time here at MIP, well all the ones I started anyway. I was able to reflect on where I was when I first started posting here. I was able to see the growth, and to see the areas in which I am still struggling.
I started a post "I think my marriage is over" lol when I look back at that one I remember how scared I was that it was really over, and I am so grateful that I was wrong. I really needed some ESH on that day and I got it. I remember someone saying that "A"s are like boomerangs, no matter how hard you throw them, they keep coming back. That was a long week, but I learned so much and I felt a deeper connection with my "A" afterward.
The fact that I have posted 1000 posts shows me that this is a great place to be. You all are giving me something that I need. Otherwise I wouldn't be investing some of my recovery time here. I am free to stumble and grow on this board and you all love me anyway. And lets face it where else are we going to get that kind of love?
I have come here with my deepest hurts and you all have shown me the tools to learn how to heal. I have come here with great joy and you all have celebrated with me. I have some to share jokes and you all have laughed with me.
I need not be alone anymore, because this program has given me what I needed most. Not my "A" to be clean and sober like I once thought, sure that would be great. But what I needed was the ability to trust enough to reach out and ask for help and to be given it without judgment or being told what to do.
So today I celebrate you! My alanon family, because without you all I surely would not be who I am today.
Yours In Recovery,
Mandy (Dolphin123)
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"Today's problems can not be solved if we still think the way we did when we created them" -Albert Einstein
Congrats on posting 1010! Wow! I have enjoyed your posts throughout. You have taught me so much. So today at this moment, I celebrate you! So glad you're here.
Love and blessings to you my friend.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
Congrats on your milestone. I to have gone back and read posts that I have posted to see just where I came from. The transformation is often amazing.
During this difficult time I am finding that I am posting more to get it all out. I dont have the time I would like to spend sharing on this board or in the rooms - but I sure know where to go when I need it.
Karen
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Nobody cares how much you know until they know how much you care. Love you all!
Karen
Ditto. I was looking through my Alanon file and rereading my posts. I am amazed at how scared I was in the beginning. Although, my AH left I thought that I would never see him again. We remain separated but I do see him.
It is so good to have MIP to come to and get the help and support that you need. And at just the right time. I hear alot of strength in your post.
I'm fairly new to these boards, and am trying to get better. I find your words very reassuring ans I feel the strong sense of acceptance and love you talk about.
I am finding my own way with great help from the people here...............but today is about you, and the amazing healing you have found for yourself.
Just wanted to say "well done" really.
You have given me some very good advice yourself recently and I have found awakening and strength through it! I very much appreciate it.....just so you know!
