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I just couldn't sleep. Every little noise made me jump....thinking of my lost cat who playing with his up in heaven (altho, I don't know why? They never played together when they both were alive...lol, but at least, they are together again, soulmates, I guess).
My A gave me the guilt trip last night, & couldn't shake it. All this talk of death & everything, my own mortality looming, my folks, his folks, etc.
I took a sleeping pill, still could NOT shake it. My heart is PUMPING. 2 AM turned into 3 AM, I finally gave in at 4 AM, got up and played some canasta online until 6 AM.
7:10, i'm still awake, then 8:10 having very weird, strange dreams with melting marshmellows, etc., really weird, I remember those dreams from childhood...........
So, I'm up....coffee brewing, showered & curling iron plugged in.....i'm going to Destin!!! It's a five hour trip, rather make it in daylight anyhow, I will be there for his Friday morning doc appointment, & boy, am I releived to finally do this.
Life is too short! Principles before personalities.....what better principle is there but LOVE. It rules & this feels damn like the right thing to do!
Quick, someone PLEASE find me an AA meeting in Destin, FL. I'm sure I'll need it in about 48 hours. I will hook up back online when I get there.
My cats have gone missing from time to time. I generally find them. I hope that yours has not strayed too far. I hate not being able to sleep. I know for years I had really bad sleep patterns I think it contributed significantly to my sleep deprivation and my mood swings.
