The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I've been thinking WAY too much about an old friend. OK obsessing. It hurts me - I end up sad and frustrated. It starts out with a good memory and I end up wanting to practically own him. What's he doing, counting how long since I spoke with him, etc. all bad. I've prayed for release because I feel trapped by my own thoughts.
It came to me while driving that his business is none of my business. I said out loud in the otherwise empty car "his ______ is none of my business" and repeated it, filling in the blanks with the topics I'd tortured myself with. I have felt peaceful for 3 days in a row. I think I can quit saying it now, but I'm going to remember it in case I decline into past behavior. When I said it, I knew it was true. It's not my business.
It feels like a crazy thing to do, but before that I was crazy. I am thankful for the peace.
