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Tomorrow I go to meet with my husband, remember NOT my A but he is an a'hole, his attny and my attny. TRYING to settle out of court for the divorce.
I am not hopefull. He is a stingy bastard and I am sure it will be a BS settlement. I need to take some time to pray on it tonight and am asking that ALL OF YOU pray for me as well!
I feel dissolving this disgrace of a marriage will help me feel FREE!!!! Free to live my life as I choose on my terms and my sanity will be coming closer to being fully restored. PLUS knowing I will be getting half of everything is a nice bonus.
I hope you all are having a wonderful day and that your A's are doing well also.
Much Love and Blessings to you all of my wonderful friends!
***I have soooo much trouble "STOP!!"ing myself from PROJECTING the outcome of things.. From what I believe is the most important of something... to as simple as ., say; what if I burn this evenings dinner... ohh NO! I will try to project the outcome of a sitcom ((haha)).... and yet when I STOP myself and realize how ridiculous I must appear (even to me) but moreso to my HP/God.... I have to laugh at me. I know my HP is laughing ...because my HP knows THAT I do not know the future. I do not even know in the next few minutes what will happen.
I have learned with this program, with these wonderful supportive and loving people here in Alanon., that I can step back and say HEY--OK STOP.I CAN CHOOSE to STOP the thoughts. AND I DO. QUICKER and QUICKER as I work the program. I have have found, (personally) the most helpful is reciting the lords prayer (r e a l s l o w ) Then I'll say it again....and again... and again... i do it untill... well ... You know what? ... untilll the bad thoughts... the projecting . Doesnt matter whatever it is thats just making me nuts they are all somehow are gone. They are no longer important. Gone?- yes Gone. My Higher Power took em' away from me! I believe that HP took them during the time I filled my head with good with prayer while I focused on some good slogans reminded myself the 3Cs, (cannot control, did not cause, can not cure.) I can fill my head, my SELF with some "good stuff" the Serenity Prayer..... thought of you. Thought of all the wonderful people here that I know love me and understand me like noone else can. Its a good feeling. It fills me up! To the top of the cup I say!!! ((()))
I do know that tomorrow will be what it is. Tomorrow will come *and I believe my HP will hold me NOW and my HP will hold me *through the night and*** still be holding me close throughout the morning and the mid and later part of the day tomorrow. And I know my HP - is not leaving me. I can let go. So can You. It is OK., to Let Go and Let God hold You. Let Go and Let God take the tomorrows events and take care of them... he will anyway about it anyway.... I say--" You just have to be present.... You LET Your SELF~ STOP the thoughts and You Live in the moment. I have to tell myself this all the time.
I will have You in my thoughts tomorrow ((Jen)) as You sit where You Are .... and I am sitting where I Am (in a office awaiting word on a family members disposition.)
Together we can (within~ our~selves )recite the prayers, a slogan or two or three.... and know way above us in unison we are being heard by those that matter., US (you and me) and our Higher Power. PLUS~ always ~ these wonderful people here (Alanon) that love US Too!
Love ya BOOOOKOOOOS ((((JEN)))))
Please~ know that * This * is just ME. Every One is unique and so beautifully different within... Im just trying to show that there is a way., to find what works for you. Once you find it, -- USE IT~ WORK IT BECAUSE YOUR WORTH IT!
JEN___________Tomorrow I go to meet with my husband, remember NOT my A but he is an a'hole, his attny and my attny. TRYING to settle out of court for the divorce.i am not hopefull. He is a stingy bastard and I am sure it will be a BS settlement. I need to take some time to pray on it tonight and am asking that ALL OF YOU pray for me as well!I feel dissolving this disgrace of a marriage will help me feel FREE!!!! Free to live my life as I choose on my terms and my sanity will be coming closer to being fully restored. PLUS knowing I will be getting half of everything is a nice bonus.
ME____________ oh my BEST wishes and may the angels be in force for U tomorow......in order to get RID of my a'hole A, i had to lose a lot of stuff, but with his drinking and spending, and than not working, i didn't have much to lose.......it was worth it just to be FREE of the jerk..............U go girl, and my best wishes for U to come out of it OK and FREE...........ttyl, rosie
Best of luck to you. Glad you feel like you are getting your life back. Will keep you in my prayers. Pipers Kitty has all her paws, ears, whiskers, and tail crossed for extra luck. Let us know how it goes.
Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty
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It's your life. Take no prisoners. You will have it your way.
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STOP. I CAN CHOOSE to STOP the thoughts. AND I DO. QUICKER and QUICKER as I work the program. I have have found, (personally) the most helpful is reciting the lords prayer (r e a l s l o w ) Then I'll say it again....and again... and again... i do it untill... well ... You know what? ... untilll the bad thoughts... the projecting . Doesnt matter whatever it is thats just making me nuts they are all somehow are gone. They are no longer important. Gone?- yes Gone. My Higher Power took em' away from me! I believe that HP took them during the time I filled my head with good with prayer while I focused on some good slogans reminded myself the 3Cs, (cannot control, did not cause, can not cure.) I can fill my head, my SELF with some "good stuff" 
the Serenity Prayer..... thought of you. Thought of all the wonderful people here that I know love me and understand me like noone else can. Its a good feeling. It fills me up! To the top of the cup I say!!! (((
)))
.... and I am sitting where I Am
Together we can (within~ our~selves )recite the prayers, a slogan or two or three.... and know way above us in unison we are being heard by those that matter., US (you and me) and our Higher Power. PLUS~ always ~ these wonderful people here (Alanon) that love US Too!
Let us know how it goes. 