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Lovely day here. Can anyone help with this. My partner has been on detox programme for the last week. Strange things have been happening. Sometimes he can be fine. I have been sat with him and half an hour later he can turn into a mad man. Talking to himself about nothing. Looking at me as if he could kill me. I just tried ignoring him. Then yesterday he was fine. This morning I thought I should just keep showing that I do love him. Whatever he is doing I don't know. I am not used to this. I have never been with an A before. We have been together now 8 years. I love him but don't like the person at the moment. At least yesterday was a better. I'm beginning to learn live one day at a time.
My ah tends to blurt out things like "I'm dying," or "kill me." I asked what it is about and he said that horrible feelings of guilt and shame flood him and the only way he has figured out to manage the feelings is to think of something even worse. As he works through his feelings he calms down again. Giving him time, space and support is the only thing I have figured out to help him. Good luck and have patience.
what FEW times my A detoxed, and stayd clean for a while, he would in the beginning, feel extreme ups and downs, nervous , anxiety, temper , its like the body chemicals go hay wire for a while...
it takes a WHILE to "regulate" the body/ mind/ emotions after drinking or drugging....like the body and mind and emotions ALL have to "settle down"........and that is why the discomfort of "getting straight" drives them into "slipping" they NEEED recovery and they cannot do it w/out the 12steps and all the fellowship.....it is not going to happen on self will....trust me, i know, i abused alcohol a while to numb the pain of my abuse, and it took me a while to get "balanced" after i stopped abusing it.....like my body/ mind had to "re adjust" to being straight....it was hard,
luckily for me i never had the physical addiction to it....i got all kinds of addictions, but none , physically, to alcohol, i would drink enuf to numb my pain, than eat something and go to bed......i didn't do the "passing out drunk" thingy, for me?? it was an escape from my unbearable life, like medicine....but it was STILL abuse, and i STILL had a problem with it, just in my HEAD, thankfully not the physical thing where one drink and i am getting drunk......as long as i work this program i have no desire to use ANYthing to escape....i want to work THROUGH my pain, not run or resist it......thats the ONLY way i am going to get free.......
hope this helped..sorry it was long......peace/ rosie
My h/a (addicted to crack and now in recovery) has been clean for 5 months so far, and still will get edgy, aggravated easily, go from being in a good mood one minute to terrible the next. His attitude is horrible sometimes. When I confronted him about this, he shared with me that he is trying really hard to fight the "voices" in his head telling him to go use and that he doesn't want to use. So when he starts to get this way, I just walk away from him and don't say anything to him because I know he needs to have some time and space to work out whatever is going on in his head. Little things can set him off. Somedays, he can act crazy about it, other times he seems to be in control.
My suggestions to you would be to continue ignoring this or walk away when he gets like this. Usually within 15 mintues or so, they are back to "normal". Continue to work on you and your recovery.
Hightide
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"Taking one day at a time, Brining me one day closer to recovery."
If I have no expectations of my addict, then I'll have nothing to be disappointed about."
