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kitty


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For personal complications I have avoided the site all together for a time... and it didn't take long for my mind to slip completely & fall into the preying brain suck of depression.


I need the outlet, support & grounding, for as much as I know, truly each moment I'm a beginner and all of the slogans, acronyms, knowledge have to be reapplied.  I am eating humble pie, I may as well be green but this last slip into my own "crap" and negativity hasn't been so long but it was painful & I alienated myself. 


it is hard to swallow the bitter pill, that we are an active participant in this, we own our own feelings, we're only manipulated if we agree to fall into it.  So for a cat I've needed 9,000 lives (chances) not a mere nine.   But it is okay, I can pick right up where I left off, certainly God hasn't let go of me or let me down, it is I that turn my back, it is I that turn back again to face the growth.


I may have grown up ACOA but I love my mother in all of her brainy mantras that she spouted off to me, one being, "Pain of growth or pain of decay, you decide."  I rather pick up & grow, besides decaying stinks    and it hurts.


I am responsible for my own recovery and life & no one else's, that's a relief.  All I have to do is live my own life the best way I can, if I slip I know I can come back.  I know God will forgive me if I forgive myself and won't turn he/she/it's back on me.


Daisies, green grass & grasshopper's; each moment is a new opportunity for me to choose, I can work it or feel sorry for myself...  Just for today I'm working it.  All I have concrete is this actual moment, the gift is our 'present' & I'm taking it!!! 


It's great if "they" go into recovery but I have to focus on my own and my recovery & issues are very different than the A's are.  Also, it is private, my Program isn't to be shared w/ the A's... as we struggle in entirely different ways. 


Love, the Kitty w/ a Hundred names 



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Kitty, Kitty, Kitty!  I have missed you, and wondered where you had been!  I'm so glad you are OK, and happy to see you back. 


Yep, we are a rather stubborn bunch, aren't we?  We cannot do it on our own.  I, too, found that out the hard way.


If I do not take care of myself, depression will creep in and just suck the life out of me!


Glad you are back, and on a more selfish note, we need you here!


Love in Recovery,


Becky1


 



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Karilynn


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((((((((((((((Kitty)))))))))))))))),

Welcome home! We've missed your insights and encouragements! Glad to have you back.

Live strong,
Karilynn & Pipers Kitty

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(((((Kitty))))),


Welcome back to MIP! Keep coming back. It works if you work it. And you are worth it.


In support,


Nancy



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Kitty,


I am a newbie so don't know you but welcome back!!!!!  Am glad to have you here.  Keep working it, you are definitely worth it as are we all.


In alanon


Annie



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DanaAngel


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Hi  ^.^


Welcome Back!


Dana (you know how I like to make the little kitty picture...lol)



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Jennifer


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Welcome Back Kitty! Missed you.


Jennifer



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Lunamoth


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((((Kitty))))


Glad you're back   You've been missed!!



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Glad you are back (((((((Kitty)))))))),

love Maria

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Welcome home Kitty


Missed your incredible insight, vision and intuition.....


Stay with us


We love you


 



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Kitty good for you coming back. yes depression is awful. Gads I hate it. I know kitty when I feel it, I am just hoping it is only for a day, just a sorta normal HALT thing you know? And not the month to month icky stuff.


I love how you share, glad you are back. love,debilyn



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maresie2


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Kitty: Your inspiring quotes and determination are part of why I am so keen on self care. I never was before.  I can definitely relate to how easy it is to slip back into depression. I have to set very very reasonable goals for myself.


I am so glad that you are back and hope that you keep sharing. I know you have had a hard time with your mother and the car and the accident among other things.  I think it is easy to identify with one's mother and have a negative self image.  It is really magical to construct something out of "nothing" and I see you doing it day in day out.


 


Maresie.



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Diva


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Welcome back Kitty. Good to see you back among us where you belong!! I have missed you.

With love, Diva

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HEY YOU !


Welcome back, so much to catch you up on.  I'm glad to see you back.


Bob



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I have thoughts of You often ..... praying that you are staying strong minded, have set or are setting personal goals for your own "self."  That you will/ are  staying with your program...... even if we dont get to see you HERE...   I really think alot on hoping&wishing&praying (LOL) that your spending time talking with at group or even more importantly with your  sponsor. 


I see that "timings"  a big factor in my absense.... I am not able to come here when I want or as often as I really would prefer.   I do look forward to the times that I am able to do so.  IT just isn't as much I really would like.


(((( ThankYou HP))))) for letting me know KITTY is ok, by making her post us something.,   lol.   


Take careYou    HOPE TO SEE YOU in CHAT  (&)   I'm praying for "good timing"  so that we atleast get to be nearer to one another at an online ~ chat~ meeting  


Keep Looking uP!     Keep it Simple    To thine own self be true.


Thanks to Alanon~ for having local meetings ~online meetings available for all of us ~for all the wonderful friends we have found through this wonderful program ~ for all the wonderful ~much loved people like You.,  KITTY. 


Welcome Home  (((((((((((KITTY))))))))))))) 



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