I have to admit that I am somewhat anxious about my future. The program tells me to not project & live one day at a time. I need to remember that in my case I am a little fearful of the future. I have mentioned before that my AH is going through cancer but it is hopeful because he is getting his kidney removed. It will be for sure on November 1st. I am praying for strength for both of us at this time. I even feel some peace & I only really expect the best. It just seems that the longer we wait, the harder it gets. I am not a very patient person. I have a lot of anxiety but  I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes I am more worried about me than him.  I guess I will just have to use my tools & especially self-care & reaching out to others. I might actually try to get out of myself & help others. I want a smooth transition from the surgery to recovery. He is going to be fine. I hope that I can be there for him. I am one of those people who is almost constantly on the go. I do have time for me. I just can't really stay home sometimes. I guess that is something I have to work on.