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information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
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Today's C2C discusses finding ways to trust in the program if/when it is difficult to believe in any kind of higher power. The reading suggests recalling all of the times when we have been guided to just what we needed, and that when we are filled with doubt, to listen deeply, and observe all that is around us that is not "made by hands".
I particularly like this reading because the writer suggests that at our core there is a wisdom that knows better than our conscious mind and if we listen, this will guide us. Being of uncertain faith myself, this is the way I came to understand the concept of a higher power in al-anon. I know that this wiser, kinder knowing exists somewhere within me, very much separate from my reactionary, justifying, frantic brain, and I can place my faith in it even if I am not sure exactly where it comes from. Is it a part of myself? Is it a part of myself that an external power communicates with? Is it completely external to me? I don't know, and it doesn't actually matter. This is a great comfort to me and it helps me stay on track even when my faith/spirituality etc is uncertain or doing poorly.
Thanks YKM for your service and above ESH. I feel fortunate that when I came to program, I already had a strong relationship with my HP. However, I feel that in a way, alanon is also an HP for me--the help, suggestions, community, etc., are all helping me along my journey.
I was just thinking that none of this "crap" really helps or works( obviously not starting my day on the right foot). Then I came here and felt uplifted and will begin again right now.
