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Today I have faith...but in the lonely nights, I cry out to my HP to help me. He has, in so many ways. Right now, I guess I need to allow myself to truly believe I am worthy of HIS love, and the love of others.
I've been, for the past year, letting go, one at a time, of my problems to my HP. A few days ago, I asked that HE just allow me JOY, and HAPPINESS, and could my life just not be so HARD. Then, since I figured that was the ultimate prayer, I got to thinking, that I don't have to dole out these requests one at a time, and wait til He fixes one before asking for another miracle from him. So, my friends, send a little prayer upward for me...that now that I have released the burdens of my heart to Him, that I can find it in myself to be quiet, and still, and open to receive the fruits of the prayer.
Things are good today...my A is golfing for the 3rd time this week, so I have some me time, to work alone, and think.
It feels strange to me to get on the message board at a time when life isn't a terrible struggle, but just wanted to share my thoughts this morning with all of you.
Belongtome, Thank you for your post, belongtome. I have been where you are many, many times. One thing I have taken from those times is that I am worthy, no matter what. You are completely whole, just as you are! Acceptance is the most powerful thing in the universe! Blessings and my prayers for you, as well, mebjk
You sound great, and I think it is wonderful to post when you are feeling GOOD also! It gives others hope.
I am reading "The Purpose Driven Life" and it is so great, gives you tips on how to totally surrender to God (HP, whatever you call it). It is really difficult to try and try to ask God to take away your burdens, worries, and then ACTUALLY let them go! I struggle with that daily. But practice practice practice!
I think you are doing wonderfully. Keep taking good care of you, it is so important. I have to remind myself of that every day also.
Great Post ! AND I always need to remember...that if my Higher Power never let me down before...why would he with my next prayer? (May not be the answer or results I want, but it will be in my best interest!)
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