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Post Info TOPIC: C2C, 1/18


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C2C, 1/18


The reading for Monday, 1/18, talks about why we need to focus on ourselves.

The reminder says:  Is the help I offer truly loving or do I have other motives?  Am I trying to change another person or get them to do what I want?  Talking it over with my sponsor can offer perspective.  My best hope for helping those I love really does begin when I focus on myself.

And the quote:  In alanon we learn:

-Not to create a crisis;

-Not to prevent a crisis if it is in the natural course of events. 

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I understand this reading and it makes so much good sense.  I also have a real challenge observing my A self-destructing with food and alcohol.  And I did just bring this to my sponsor last evening.  I ask my A an occasional question in a respectful way to allow her to think about her behavior.  Is this meddling?  Probably.  Am I minding her business instead of my own?  I think so.  Can I do what I am supposed to do all of the time?  NOPE!  But tomorrow is another day and I can try again.  Progress not perfection.  :)



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Lyne



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Lyne, thank you so much for your service and ESH.

You made me smile and this reading is always a struggle for me with AH, because I have to mind my own

business, detach with love, but the love part has to be in action not words. Anything to verbose with AH

only sets in motion a paranoia rant which I absolutely refuse to participate in. I have essentially gone

"grey rock", it is the only way I can have any peace. One-Day-At-A-Time is progress not perfection for sure!!

Thank you again for today's reading.

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Debbie



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It's so hard to stay focused on myself because it's simply not something I'm used to doing. It doesn't feel natural or normal...yet.

I know with AH,he has so many health issues that sometimes I feel more like his mother than his wife. I don't like always reminding him to do things like sanitize his hands,take his medicine,use his inhalers,etc. He gets upset when I remind him saying he's not a child. But am I supposed to let him suffer the consequences for not remembering to do what he should?

Idk.

 

 



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Happy Monday MIP - thank you Lyne for your service and the daily. Thank you all for your ESH & shares. I am not sure what it is about asking questions of those with addiction issues, but it certainly lights a fire up around here. Thus, part of my detachment is I do not. I literally had to bite my tongue in the beginning yet discovered that many arguments in my home were started by me asking what felt & seemed like innocent, caring, conversational type questions.

When I opted out 'at this point' instead of after agitation set in, I had several Aha moments. To this reading, whether I asked questions or offered suggestions with the best of intent, more often than not, I was trying to change another or interfere in the natural consequences for another. I also came to see that I cared more about the health, future, happiness, etc. of my guys that they did. Ultimately with my sponsor's help, I came to see this as unhealthy and obsessive.

I have come to ask questions only on a 'need to know' basis. It got really awkward before it got better. I don't seek out my A(s) in the hopes of having a conversation, instead I allow them to do so. If they don't, I can accept that as I have a tribe of others who genuinely care about me, what I think and those conversations are so much better/satisfying.

I am one who needs a constant reminder that this disease, the disease of alcoholism/addiction is a disease that affects one mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally. Left untreated, all 4 of those areas are damaged and I'm better served by focusing on my own 4 areas, getting my needs met in healthier ways, etc. For me, it was a cosmic shift in how I viewed life, love, relationships, honor, respect, etc. Rethinking all of 'this' has helped me find a freedom and a peace I was not sure existed. Far, far, far from perfect, yet progress is great to/for me.

I can't explain to anybody how it works but I can confirm that when I redirect my focus to me, my day, my needs vs. those of another, life is just calmer and I am more serene. I have spent a ton of time in recovery praying for zipped lips because it's a life-long habit to express my thoughts whether asked or not. I do know that when I keep my mouth closed and focus on being a better listener, in all areas/aspects, I learn way more about life, love, expectations, relationships, etc. Often, by default of what I don't need, what I don't want to be like, etc.

It is almost dinner time and just hit 40 degrees. I volunteered all day at the golf course. I guess because it was a holiday and most folks are tired of being stuck at home - not sure - but it was crazy busy today. In years past, golfing when it's in the 30's was insane...not so this year! I was expecting it to be a lazy, care-free day - and it was not....so - even in other areas of my life, my expectations can set me up to not be 'ready' for life as it unfolds. I was expecting a boring day and it was actually a ton of fun to laugh with complete strangers about being outside to golf in January!! I am golfing tomorrow & Wednesday, and then volunteering Th., Fr. and Sat. Grateful to own many pairs of long johns....going to need them. Love and light all - (((Hugs))) too!

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SF, all I know is when I let go and let God it works for me.

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Debbie



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Thanks Debbie. I will have to remind myself to let go and let God.

It's hard though. It sounds so simple but difficult to put into practice.

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