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Had another back spasm on Wednesday and it was pretty bad. Yesterday it felt like a little bit better and today seems the same. So I will be laid up with this for a while I guess. I hope I dont have to get a shot. So thats where I have been, eating my muscle relaxers and lying on my heating pad and stretching. Pain like this just makes you feel sick all over I hope everybody is OK.
this is one of those things where are you really just have to keep saying this too shall pass. Still cant type with this finger but it is getting better. Im just a mess with injuries and back spasms. Roommate is looking for a place as her term runs out on June 3
I am praying she finds a good place. Not much else to report when you are in active due to injuries and illnesses. All I did was bend over to wash my dog and I could feel my back seize up
Anyway dogs have gone to the restroom so I am going to go back to bed for a while
I am saddened to hear of your pains. I have found that physical pains makes it harder to deal with emotional pains.
But you know how to take care of your back. You are doing it. You also know it is something that needs extra TLC and time.
I will ask my HP to help you spasms go away.
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
Feel better Rose and listen to your body....I think back pain is one of the worst - so hard to isolate/treat. Take good care of yourself...
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(((Rose)) I'm sorry you are hurting. I know you've been through this type of thing before with your back. Sounds like you have a good self care plan. I'm also sorry to read that you injured your finger. My experience with these types of mishaps has been that when my emotional, physical and spiritual energy isn't balanced, these things occur. They occur when I am trying either force my will in some manner. In these situations, I have misplaced motivations. Basically, I sense my hp's will but diss hp and go full speed ahead without being mindful. In other words, I'm elsewhere, not fully present in the moment. This means I've let my guard down concerning self care. Let my guard down may sound a bit overstated but not in times when obsession or rumination has become my hp. When these become my preoccupation, I truly need accept I cannot go about my day as I typically would because it's like running with scissors. This is where the slogan Easy Does It comes in. I can ask for help from others if something can't be put off until tomorrow. I'm grateful for their willingness and can accept with grace and gratitude what others are willing and capable of giving. I've been free of perfectionism for many years due to this program and can accept that there are numerous ways to get from a to b. I'm thrilled to accept help with a task from a trusted friend and let them run with it. In fact, often I learn something. It's good to have a few people who are kind enough to help if I'm in a jam and to be of service to them as well. But the most important thing for me when mishaps and illness is multiplied is to align my will with my higher power's will for me. My own dis-ease can be my worst enemy and of course confrontation, taking responsibility for resolving what's getting to me takes program work. Fun, fun, fun ;) But for me there's big dividends later for the work I put in now. It usually begins with a big old surrender, some tears - prayers. On and off I find myself in that place during this pandemic. I know that I've been letting fear of the unknown get the best of me. I honestly have to reel that in because it distracts from my self care. It's self sabotage as you pinpointed in another post. For me, this is an ancient tape from the past. If I allow outside influences determine my worth and forget my gifts, my value, my worth as I truly know them; its a set up for an emotional, physical and spiritual downward spiral. Right now my issue has been fear eating. This has been caused by negative projection and too much news intake. I'm not powerless to control both as part of my self care. So I'm accepting where I am, taking positive steps toward health again and easing back into what is typical and balanced for me. It works when I work it. There is no set goal just to take the steps daily and keep moving in a positive direction. I hope your finger heals quickly and your back is better soon. Hugs TT
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Washing a dog is a big job. I am waiting on a certain store to open back up to do it
I have been off sick for three weeks.
It took more than one week to just get out of bed
Then I had to recuperate
Tough going
I thought your roommate was going to go back to her mother's.
These are very stressful times.
I have started looking for support and help
It is okay to ask for help
I needed help to.move some stuff I paid a neighbor to help me
It is okay to ask people to help out
I still have some stuff in my storage and I am getting ready to go get it but I am pacing myself.
I paid for another month of storage to give myself some space
Nothing wrong with that.
Sometines we have to slow down a lot
"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
I read another post of yours last night and meant to respond, but I went to bed instead.
I wanted to rejoice for you because everything was looking up. What a difference 6 months has made.
And I think you are handling this setback very well emotionally. And it will pass, as you said. And i hope very, very soon. In the meantime, I think you are right in going to ground as much as you can.
You are doing great! You really are. Easy for me to say, Yes? Have you done tapping on it? And I read that in EST, a technique was to describe the pain as to size, shape, color wasn't mentioned, but I do that, too. And for some crazy reason it helps me.
)))))))Rosie0)))))) That's kind of a sideways hug. Left it there so it doesn't hurt.
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thank you , lovely and loving people....and YEP....self care is exactly what I am doing.....lying on my back with 3 pillows under my knees, doing my total body workout machine GENTLY to stretch me out and just taking care.....
I know it is stress that brings these things on...roommate will be gone by Jun 3rd and I will have my house back and can not be so distracted, I HOPE, LOL....financially with unemployment helping me out during this virus, and no work times, has helped a great deal and i've managed to save a lot of it, being careful and all
so yea, really things are better even tho I have 2 injuries to recover from, still cannot type, but will be returning to my regular client Jun 19th, he wants me as they are opening up office next week...He wants to do some clean up, renovations of office so wants me on that date...which works out great for me, I'll be able to use my finger a lot better
I actually LOOKED at the wound last night and the knife when down about 30% of the finger, then it veers to the right if I am looking at my left hand with palm down and I just kinda "pinched" it together, taping it with bandages and lots of peroxide and neosporine and it is sealing back...I am so grateful, it never even thought of getting infected, it is sealing together...i may lose some feeling on the tip, but no worries, I'll be OK
Back is healing...Don't need a shot...thank you HP for that .....I need to get back to my prayer and meditation work and not slack off on it because I am upset with roommate, I just keep telling myself that this too shall pass...I pray daily that she finds her divine right home where she can get help for her issues.....She IS a decent human being..Just too troubled for my expertise and no help around the house, so the work is double, but bless her heart, she needs help, not condemnation and I hope she can get into a recovery atmosphere where she can address her issues.....
I am trusting in God for my supply and my care...he owns everything, including me and I am sure hes not going to let his loved possession down...I am making commitment to really do step 3 and TRUST that w/out roommate income, i am gonna be OK....
Church is opening back up in July 11th/12th and I am happy....till then, I can zoom with them
I hope you all are safe and OK....
IAH, I am glad to see you back on, I hope your parents are on the mend...and OH yea, it is hard to isolate and rest, but I am doing it anyway,
PnP thank you so much for asking your HP to help out....I so appreciate prayer
TT---Yes, you are spot on!!! I have been out of balance..not mindful, not paying attention, and I got burned by it...its time to get back to focusing on me and not obsessing about roommate and her goof ups
Bo, LOL Yep you did say "self care" and I am "a doing" it...not doing anything but rest, light exercise to keep me from getting stiff and watching some great videos
Maresie, glad U R on verge of getting in your own flat and yes, it is good to slow down...I need to do that...slow down and pay attention
and PnP, I am doing better, each day, no shot needed....YAAAAAY!
Temple..I owe you some doggie AND kitty vids...I got this lovely male cat, hoping dogs will accept him as a friend and not dinner, I have to keep him in his own "cat house-pen" for his safety..taught him how to walk on leash in his harness and we go for "walkies" the tapping never really worked for me, but closeness to my God and meditation IS helping...steps 1,2,3 are helping....slowing down...being mindful, MAKING me slow down and pay attention is what I need to do.....
You all are the greatest!!!!!! Be safe....Be well.....Things are opening up, slowly, here in TX, and I am praying that even so, I hope folks are careful.....
AND----------I typed this with 9 fingers.....gonna do any more posts with Phone and microphone....this was slow going, but you all are ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Alanon family)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) soooo worth it
(((((TT)))))))). Thank you dear heart. Funny, I was thinking while I was praying to my higher power that its only about nine days left so were on the homestretch. Ill have my house and my serenity back. Yes it will be a bit dicey but I know I am going to be OK. Ive been OK this far and I will be OK the rest of the way. Poor little thing I hope she can get into a place where she can sort out and work on her issues. It was just too much for me. She knows that she goofed up and she even said so which I told her as long as we learn from our lessons, hard as they are, they dont repeat themselves usually
I hope you are doing well and that your higher power is kissing your prayers. Tomorrow I am going to get back onto full on exercise as I feel I am over the hump and my type of exercise does not hurt the back so itll all be good. Im just detaching with peace and love from roommate and wishing her the best and doing things to move forward
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