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I did NOTHING but rest and eat.....absolutely ZERO activity, save for feeding myself and my pets, resting and watching some good movies and docus
and you know what??? I felt zero guilt....I am OK being a human being and not a human "have to be doing" all the time.........its OK to do absolutely NOTHING and let stuff slide till when you are more rested.....sure....I could have done stuff, but I just figure, it will be there when I am with more energy
Rose, I have begun to embrace this idea of "It's OK to not do anything." Even though I love to relax, I have found over the years that I just don't. First it was having to put out all the fires from my qualifier. Then it was the job of motherhood - (not complaining mind you, but it IS a 24/7 kind of gig), then it was trying to get MY life in order just so I could survive!
I found that I had become mentally and physically exhausted! Taking the time for me - whether that be an hour of nothing, or a day of "nothing" - is good medicine!!
Yesterday (Sat) I worked in the yard all day. Bare feet in the grass and soil, weeding, pruning, harvesting strawberries. I feel more connected even if the work is hard and the sun hot!! I also made a conscience effort to stay off of Twitter!! I am finding all the vitriol there is becoming too much for me! And I knew that Sunday I would want to rest, and do nothing. I try to really give myself TLC on Mother's Day... even if no one else does (it happened more times than I can count). I decided long, long ago to not wait for someone else to validate me as a mom!
Today I am reflecting back... on my job as a "MOM" and how I treated my mom as well. I am ordering my mom's favorite food from her favorite restaurant, and we are having lunch at my house (I live behind my parents' house). I am trying to thank her for all the years of support and unconditional love. I hope she feels the love!!
Rose, you have written before about the tenuous relationship with your daughter. I hope that you celebrate you today!
((((Rose))))
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
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