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Im having trouble holding onto my serenity. Having a serious health problem, not life-threatening but nonetheless awful. My coping is certainly better than it would be without program, but its taking a lot of focus and energy to stay in the moment ODAT. I know what to do as I have a huge tool box, but especially with medical problems, I tend to fall apart. Progress not perfection. Thanks for listening. Lyne
I am so sorry to hear you are struggling today. Suffering from a medical condition is always tough I believe... it pulls us off-center. Yes, we have to work harder with the tools that can bring serenity.
Your program work has always impressed me. Keep doing. Keep one step in front of the other. It is indeed progress not perfection! Will add you to my "prayer" list!
Wishing you some peace today.
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
I am also Lyne and I know where and how it is coming at me. Its a repeat/relapse of reactions like from the past. Gratefully I also know what it takes to end it as in working with my HP, prayer, meditation, exercising positive spiritual thoughts, feelings and behaviors...the program. You know how to do this. In support. ((((hugs))))
Add me to the list....I hear you Lyne, I can relate! Mine is much as Jerry describes - a repeat/relapse of 'feelings' from the past - I've avoiding reacting/responding so far. I have been 'pressuring' myself to take the high road and my internal stress/anxiety is causing a head-ache for me today...
Also like Jerry, I've been leaning into the program as best I can. My mind and my thoughts want to return to the 'dark side' and I just keep regrouping. I am so sorry you're having medical concerns - what I have learned about me is that it's never, ever a good time to do too much processing/planning when I am unwell physically/medically. My mind tends to lean towards that 'dark side' in most affairs.
I do know that I've been doing for others and today, I am focusing on me - keeping it simple, rest, meditation, relaxation. As simple as it sounds, sometimes just breathing deeply with purpose can help clear my mind to focus on more positive. I'm purposely praying today as well just for God's will in my life and some mental peace....I'll extend my prayers beyond my needs to include my MIP family! (((Hugs))) to all.
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Its been a full week with flu symptoms here and at times I've found myself resisting and fighting and fearing (unmanageability).
I am grateful for the peace and rest I feel in Step one powerlessness... my serenity is in exact proportion to my level of acceptance...
Acceptance that my life is God's business and not my own. Responding in a loving, accepting way to all experiences sent to me.. this is all that is ever expected of me... enabling me to simply do the next right thing.
"Trust to the last uttermost limit." Get well soon.
-- Edited by 2HP on Wednesday 12th of February 2020 10:04:55 AM
I didnt do well with moving out from.my apartment (temporarily)
No.point beating yourself up .
I am working on doing better at when I get to move back in which will not be for approximately two months
I can do better
Sometimes the tools we have need to be reinforced. My health is a huge trigger for me
In May I.plan to go on a lot of doctors visits. Thst is good and bad and really very hard
For the person who I am staying with health is a huge trigger. He has diabetes avd extremely high blood pressure. He ears a lot of high salt food. In the past I would have said something. Now I don't say anything. I just observe .
Putting the focus on ourselves is very very hard
Maresie
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