The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
The choice of insanity vs sanity is the topic for the reading on Monday, 11/11. Repeating the same behavior over and over and expecting different results is described as an insane way to live. Looking at Step 3, Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him, can be a turning point as it was for the author. The writer gave up control, admitted defeat, and looked for help where it could be gotten.
Reminder: I may find it easy to point to the alcoholics irrational or self-destructive choices. It is harder to admit that my own behavior has not always been sane. Today I can let go of insisting upon my will. With this simple decision I make a commitment to sanity.
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Often the reading of the day, or the meeting we choose, is exactly what we need. This is true for myself and this reading today. I discovered about a week ago that my dry drunk A has been drinking and lying. Well heres the insane part--I checked back into denial and was trying to believe her. Now the truth is out, as always happens. I have felt so sad and disappointed. Tonight I will turn my will and my life over to the care of God and let this be a turning point for me. Lyne
Good morning MIP, and thanks for your service today, Lyne.
Was struggling with some silly issue this morning, so I decided to read the boards and see if I could find perspective. I can. Today's reading tells me that I'm the only one who can decide to stop living in insanity. wow, how about that! I have been living and acting as though I can do nothing about the demands my AW puts on me and my time. (She doesn't necessarily want to do anything with me, but she doesn't want me to do anything with anyone else, either.) But, what if I don't give in to those demands? What if I make decisions that are right for me and let my HP sort the rest out? Sounds like something new to try. Instead of buying into the insanity and deciding to live with it, what if I made a different choice? I'm so very thankful to have this group and the program to help me work through these things.
It's snowing like crazy this morning - another thing I'm thankful for is a ride-sharing group, so I didn't have to drive myself to work today.
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If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. - Lao Tzu
Good morning MIP! Thank you Lyne for your service and the daily. Thank you all for your shares and ESH too...As others have stated, the reading speaks to me as well....when living with this disease, it's super easy for me to slip back into insanity - thoughts and actions. I am sorry for your sadness Lyne and can relate. My youngest is back to self-medicating and I too am very sad...
I'm working, just for today, to be gentle with me and align my heart and my head. This has always been a challenge for me when the disease raises up. It takes a full-mental-effort to remember that he has his own higher power and it's not me. I am truly grateful to be in recovery, have the tools and support I have and a HP that loves me even when I wonder.
It just started snowing here - kind of pretty but the wind is moving things around....hope to have my Taco gal pal gatheriing this evening - we shall see! Make it a great day MIP family...
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Lyne... I found that turning my will and my life over, very difficult. Letting go of things, ditto. Almost impossible- but not quite... 
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Instead of buying into the insanity and deciding to live with it, what if I made a different choice? I'm so very thankful to have this group and the program to help me work through these things.