Things are finally calming down. My last post was awhile ago because I didn't want to temp fate. My former MSW was in a car accident that killed his son & left him pretty banged up. So, the thing is that I cried the Friday after it happened & was sure that he wouldn't make it. He seems to be doing OK. I just needed to know that & at first I didn't know much. He had to get surgeries on what I am not sure. Anyhow, that experience made me think of how precious life is. And how important things are. I have too many things & they are weighing me down.

I feel a lot better too because I have been sleeping better & I haven't been taking extra sleeping meds. My life is a lot smoother also because my AH & I have had too many deep & painful discussions he calls arguments. I am not constantly walking on egg shells. That is a subject I am actually good at. I have been doing it so long that it has been easy to do but very detrimental to myself. My health matters more than a lot of things. So, the point I am trying to make is that I have this awful shortcoming.

Kathleen