The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
I am feeling a little overwhelmed & am over-dramatizing as well. I haven't been sleeping as well as I would like to. I went over 24 hours the other day! I know that this isn't a fix me site. I just needed to share it because no one knows it but me. I guess the lights are on too long! Meaning that I spend too much time w/ my eyes open. Other than that I am doing OK. Sleep came this morning & I feel much better. I am so grateful. I see my AH sleeping too much but he is very healthy these days & sober. I am hoping that I won't get jealous of the time he gets to sleep. I know that he stays p longer than I do & I get up earlier. I need to remember how old he is & how his friends tend to take naps almost daily.
Being retired he can do anything he wants whenever he wants. He does chair some AA meetings but that is not a problem. I just want him to realize that I am happy & grateful & thankful & appreciative. I can do a lot of the things I want but I have to consider his schedule. I get that but what about my schedule?
I will just quit getting on my soapbox & off the pity pot!
I second DavidG's motion. I check the board often, and for me seeing other's posts and the responses, tells me I'm not alone and this board is made up of living and breathing people who share themselves. I might not add a comment to all the messages but I read them and am learning and growing. Thanks for sharing your story.
I third it! Speaking for myself, before recovery, I bottled up everything and then released it in unhealthy ways! Writing about it, talking about it and praying about it was a novel idea for me, yet heard it often enough that I practiced! Today, I believe that everything, absolutely everything happens for a reason, and it is my job/duty to seek to understand and learn!
Kathleen - you are rocking it - thank you for being you and a part of my journey!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Kathleen... I have two or three sleepless nights per month- I regard that as normal... I actually lie awake sometimes whenI am excited- when things are going well... like I used to , as a kid, on Christmas Eve...
we left a glass of beer, and a wine biscuit out for Santa. I was determined to stay awake until Santa came. Then I found out that Santa was a woman! And I suppose, if you read the words i wrote, that that was a start to my Alanon journey.
Telling and re-telling our story, will bring relief. Here, in the group, there is no egg-timer on the table.
Just having a regular adult to adult conversation can bring relief. It takes the mind of the crisis, for a few moments. The crisis might have happened long ago; and we might have forgotten the details; but we are still scared and alert.
while i was working full time- i was trying to provide for our retirement- as well as help put food on the table. My entire 24 hours, it seemed, was either working or sleeping. I am doing 20 or 30 hours a week now... which helps keeps me motivated and functioning. But going down for a nana nap is refreshing. Healing even.
Whatever, or where ever sharing our ESH is a blessing. ...
For me personally, it's good to know. Sometimes all at once a person can be overwhelmed. So knowing I can share as needed is good. Not planning to be overwhelmed anytime soon, but one never knows. I like to be prepared just in case the stuff hits the fan.
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