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After I had awaken from an Easter Theme Dream and traveled along our beautiful coast line with the sunlit sea side and ocean movement I had the opportunity to see recovery from the disease as a ressurection from certain death. It was meaningful for me as both my alcoholic addict wife and I both had near death experiences from it. Mine came before I met her and while I was alone in a house in Samoa and she after being found by the police in California.
Our disease is sinister because for me the near end was quiet and actually pain free and that confirmed that the alcohol is an anesthetic. I wasn't alone I knew and felt that I was abided with and I would not argue that my Higher Power was with me even though I would not come to understand having a Higher Power until coming into recovery and listening to so many family members speak of their own ESH.
The meeting had forty or so members celebrating their own Easter together and I got to listen and watch the ressurection around the room. HP was there with us and I feel sure HP felt gratitude for all who are keeping sober and sane and passing it on to others who also need to get their lives back. Thanks for letting me share. ((((hugs))))
I went to an open AA meeting -- as I wanted to see a friend from AA -- and I normally don't go to an alanon meeting on Sunday anyway.
In my experience, the disease, for either the alcoholic or the loved one, whether AA or alanon, takes each person on a journey. Each journey is different, although the commonality is that they all head in a very bad direction...until someone hits rock bottom, and wants to get better. Then, begins the journey of recovery.
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God, grant me the serenity...to accept the PEOPLE I cannot change...the courage to change the ONE I can...and the wisdom to know it's ME...
Jerry - thank you for posting your day of positive light and healing! This piece of your life's story reminds me that even those that are deep within the disease can break free and celebrate their life... as they should!
I think the end did not come for you on that fateful day, b/c your Higher Power had a greater purpose for you...your HP just needed you to see and embrace a different way. I bet countless others are sure glad you did!
Blessings to you!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
I appreciate all the above shares. I have had my points of bleak darkness and I have to believe it is also HP who saved me before I even knew I had an HP. The shares above are a reminder to me how powerful the 12 step programs are, and if we are willing to try, we can have a better, more sane life. That is my story for sure, and I forgive myself for not getting involved sooner. I just wasnt ready until I couldnt take the pain any longer, and unfortunately I was able to tolerate a lot of misery for a very long time. So just for today I am very grateful, Lyne
Love and light brother, love and light.....great share and it reminds me of the daily miracles happening all around me when I am open to see them. Based on my own many choices when active with this disease, I have no right to be here and am almost giddy each morning when my eyes open and I still am! An attitude of gratitude, choosing to keep my joy each day and hanging with winners has become essential to my serenity! (((hugs)))
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Thanks for your share Jerry. I also went to an open meeting and left with a great deal of gratitude. It is an insidious disease that takes down many including family members through codependence. So grateful for these programs of recovery. Glad you're hp has chosen to keep you around and that you're a part of our online recovery family. TT
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