Standing Alone ~ I NEED Myself - Al-Anon Family Group

kitty · ~*Service Worker*~

Standing Alone ~ I NEED Myself

aunitedway · ~*Service Worker*~

Look to this day,

For it is life,

The very life of life.

In its brief course lie all

The realities and verities of existence,

The bliss of growth,

The splendor of action,

The glory of power-

For yesterday is but a dream,

And tomorrow is only a vision,

But today, well lived,

Makes every yesterday a dream of happiness

and every tomorrow a vision of hope.

Look well, therefore, to this day.

Sanskrit Proverb

Keep Looking uP! ((((Kitty)))) I just wanted/ felt to share this WITH YOU~ It is from 24 Hours A Day Prayers and Mediations. A Hazelden Book. (and......please pardon my ignorance to posting this if done so incorrecty)

buzzfree · Senior Member

"p.s. Don't compare yourself to other's. Work on yourself. I do not judge myself; nor does my HP "judge" you/anyone. Forgiveness is my 'key' to living."

In all that I have learned from the program, all the progress I make, I still have times where forgiveness is the furthest thing from my mind. I grew up with so much anger and rage around me, that it was a basis for my outlets. And trying to let go of these unhealthy behaviors has been such a struggle. I know that I make mistakes, I am not perfect, and need to keep remembering that....to forgive myself. Guilt will not help me, it never has. Thank you for the reminder Kitty of inspiration

buzzfree

-- Edited by buzzfree at 20:41, 2006-04-09

kitty · ~*Service Worker*~

I doubt myself a lot, second guess a lot of the posts I make. This certainly was one of them, when I re-read it hours later, I was about to erase it ~ I never have deleted a post before but have thought about it lots of times.

Thinking what I siad was "stupid" or off-base. Then I saw two wonderful responses & felt as though, perhaps it was "okay" to leave it on the Board.

I guess this work is just really so difficult, the constant self-analysis, forgveness work, the fearlessness it takes to face the ugly realities of what we are as human but once working through it, I see some of the beauty & divinity that I have as being human too.

I can forgive myself for being so critical & doubting myself, I'm right where I need to be, realizing that I am 'perfect in my imperfection' ~ I guess that's what it's all about.

Ugh, I think my hormones make me crazy!

Thanks AUW & BF for your beautiful responses, it made me feel a lot better about what I wrote & I appreciate it immensely.

love, -KoL

bobump · ~*Service Worker*~

Inspirational post Kitty.

I read your post, loved it and was thinking it was ispirational yet hadn't composed my thoughts on what to write.

I continued reading the two posts it provoked and that, well you inspired others to share some wonderfun ESH. Then I read your post where you almost erased it. I take it you wanted to be that vessel for HP when you chose to keep it.

I'm glad you did :D.

I'm still of self doubt and unforgiveness for myself at times too. To the point where I've had other's clinicians or my families social worker remind me not to beat myself up.

Keep freeing yourself !

emma · Veteran Member

Growth hurts ....

reminds me of a card that summed it all up for me ...

OK, visualize a picture of a bassethound, big sorrowful eyes, ... with the message, "I've learned the most from my most difficult experiences ..."

open up the card where it says "...what a stupid system."

But it is the system ... I think my HP knows what She has to do to truly get my attention so I can learn the lessons I want to learn ... so, Kitty, I'm with you there in spirit, and it sounds like lots of others are too. You are not alone. I have been doing a lot of "growing" lately also.

Take care.

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