The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
Today I feel a little lost & confused. It is only about trying to communicate & not being to understand what people are saying. I have purposely not gotten on here. I guess I don't feel like I have anything to share. I am kind of frustrated though w/ my niece's over-protective nature w/ her 3 week old baby. She seems to be very strange about visitors & makes other comments that are disturbing. Maybe she just needs some sleep.
I hope that some day I will be back on track soon. I don't like how I feel. But life is not only about feelings. The truth is that I shouldn't be dictated by my emotions. I think God is working w/ me on this. I need to take more action & approach my life w/ a different perspective. It seems that I am answering my own questions. Now that I feel that I have a purpose, I don't always see my shortcomings. They seem to be lessening. I love living even though sometimes I am living in my own bubble. Hopefully on this beautiful day, I can enjoy sunshine while it is still here. I live up north in the west side of the U.S. We haven't gotten our usual about of snow. Today was a break but tonight we are supposed to get hit. I know that I don't live in the east or in the mid-west so we don't have it that bad. I feel very fortunate to live in this part of the country.
So, I will trudge on looking for more answers. I think I will get back into reading more of the Courage to Change mediation book. All I can really do is make an effort to work on my recovery.
I see that as a place of needing others and I get that from your post Kath. Early in program introduction we use to read a piece that mentioned "...if you keep and open mind, you will find help" and that is exactly what I needed to learn and practice because I knew so little. In time I have come to understand. Keep coming back. ((((Hugs))))
(((Kathleen))) - good to see you! Your share reminded me of the arrival of grandchild number one! Momma is a nurse, and she is at a Children's Hospital that treats the worst of the worst. She had tons of fear of germs, flu, etc. and we were all kept at arm's distance. As with most things in life, it did pass and I allowed her that space to find some balance. I recall being a bit crazy when I had my first - I am a known clean freak so was a bit obnoxious to all who wanted to hold the baby...hang in there!
I am glad to see you back - you are not alone! We don't need a reason to 'be' -- we just need to show up and trust the process! You did good showing up!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Hoot Nanny-I recall reading your shares and sometimes responding when I was new to program. For me, I need to keep coming back because I can get a sneak attack and lose my footing. Hope to see you again, Lyne
I think it takes a ton of courage to write out that you are lost and a little confused. One of the best things about posting here is that I always get members who are currently in a 'better state of mind" who will encourage me to stay, and to tell me that "This too shall pass."
I used to roll my eyes and say to myself, OMG! That sounds so trite!!
But my heart wanted to believe them... so I kept and open mind and tried... in the end, they were right. Now I try to embrace that slogan each time I can! LOL
Thank you for sharing!
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"The wolf that thrives, is the one you feed." - Cherokee legend
"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
