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I have mentioned before that this is the short form of the 3rd step prayer from me. Short form because HP knows how long winded I can and do get and he/she gets to make decisions also.
I just got thru saying that prayer...asking for guidance because part of our family just took a direct nuclear hit. While my eldest with the help of his Higher Power has come off of the drugs and alcohol he wasn't prepared for the awesome nightmare of his daughter becoming affected and the near death consequences of it. He wasn't prepared for the affects of it on his son and daughter in law either He doesn't know and doesn't know that he doesn't know.
We sat together for over an hour and swapped stories...I have only one and so I repeated that. The new parts were if my granddaughter is willing and asks I will visit tonight at the ward and then When grandson come into town tell him that we are going to be together Sunday morning to listen to some people talk about who they are, what happened and what it is like now.
Something inside of me is saying...You gotta SCREAM!! and then I have learned in program and MIP that will not work unless I can also listen and trust and repeat. Sunday is a repeat day...different because who I will be with if he (they) decide to come along and then get touched enough in spirit, emotions, physical, mental to want to try it again.
These are my grandchildren...good god my grandchildren!! I am listening to the voice of my former sponsor Don't remind me when I asked, "How in the hell can this be happening to me"??? and hearing his response, "How could it not"??
Stay with us please...thank your for being here my MIP Family....(((((hugs)))))
Wow. So sorry to hear of this, Jerry. Thank your HP that you are strong with your Program!
Wishing you peace this weekend.
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"Hello, sun in my face. Hello you who made the morning and spread it over the fields... Watch, now, how I start the day in happiness, in kindness." Mary Oliver
(((Brother))) - sending you tons of positive energy and thoughts. I know that I want/need to scream feeling and it's one that brings significant anxiety for/to me. I do know from working this program that anxiety and fear block me from the sunlight of the spirit and the only remedy I have found is to do as you're doing - turning will/life over to the care of GOD (Good Orderly Direction) as we understand...
May the rest of your Friday be peaceful, Saturday - even better and Sunday - full of miracles as we both know they do exist and happen all over, one day at a time. So, so sorry for all the pain you and family are experiencing!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
On the flip side of " how could this happen to me?"....is the Mother Teresa response to God doesn't give us more than we can handle, being, " I know, but I sometimes wish He didn't have so much faith in me". I read this and thought, oh to have a grandparent in recovery. Knowing the roots go so far back, and so many don't have that all round wise elder. You have got this and HP has got you. ((((JerryF)))
To my MIP family; sisters and brothers who know the path and have so much ESH to share; I love you all and will count my feelings of gratitude as a gift from HP. ((((MIP))))
Hugs, Jerry! May you and your family have peace and serenity tonight. you set such a beautiful example of program in action......
I love your vulnerability and I am so very grateful to you! ((Jerry))
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(((Jerry))) No words to really say.... Just hugs. I know what it is to be slammed when life cruelly hits your grandchildren. I'm so glad you're here and have a program.
Jerry, I get so weary of crises, drama, and fear for my family, and yet each time the earthquake hits, I somehow get through it. You are the same, it's just that it's so very tiring. Prayers for you and your family. May tomorrow be a better day, Lyne
((((Jerry))) In my thoughts and prayers for a positive outcome. I hope there will be more sharing with your family members and recovery. Hang in there. TT
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