I had my attorney appointment today and I felt sad at first and by the end of it I felt mad at my situation.  I still haven't heard from my AH who I assume is still in detox, but I was painted a very bleak picture of how hard and expensive it can be legally to separate the AH from my life.  The attorney seemed to think that my AH has been planning this entire scene for months.  He wants out of the marriage but won't take the responsibility to end things, cashed out his 401k to pay off his debts, buy himself a new sports bike and initially put the money left into a joint account that he has now closed and taken the money elsewhere so I cannot pay bills or use it to hire an attorney.  Because he made this little scene this weekend and went on a binge ending up in detox he now looks like he is trying and I could be made to take care of him.  I feel trapped.