I'm new to this, new to alanon.  I've read a lot of different posts and I feel like mine may seem minor to most others.  I met my husband 11 years ago. He was very upfront and honest with me about his alcoholism.  He attended AA meetings just about every evening.  He had such a great attitude about life and love.  He was positive.  I was happy to be with someone on the recovering side of alcoholism.  My ex was an alcoholic and was very mean to me and my daughter.  Every family pic had that beer bottle in it. I hated showing off our pictures after a while.  Everything revolved around his being able to drink.  So again, when I met my husband, it was like a breath of fresh air. We moved south in 2015, away from the cold and snow.  It was great at first.  It was just he and I and my daughter (in high school).  It was one of those states though that had wine tasting around every corner.  And that Christmas (2015), we invited an elderly couple over for Christmas dinner.  My husband bought them a bottle of wine.  Then he asked if it would be okay if he had a glass of wine.  He said it was just for that day and he'd send the wine home with our neighbors.  I expressed my fears, but he kept reassuring me.  That night turned into him wanting a drink only on special occasions to wanting a cold beer after a hot work day.  Basically this turned into a daily thing.  I have expressed my feelings, but they seem to be unheard.  We moved back home last summer and during moving things really blew up. My daughter was graduating and my husband wanted to spend the day packing the truck.  She just wanted to get ready for graduation.  He was drinking and that night, after graduation, my pup got loose and he was very mean to it.  My daughter worked with rescues and the humane society so she got really angry with him.  And told him she didn't want another drunk a--hole for a dad.   He said he'd stop.  He did for like a week or so.  He has drank every single night.  His attitude is much more negative, he gets irritated easy and over minor stuff, and we hardly talk.  There is zero intimacy.  I've been stressed out about things and feel lonely in my own home, so I've put on more weight than I care to admit.  I've tried to get him to walk with me, exercise with me, go to the gym...anything.  He won't.  I want that partner back that would do things with me, would talk to me, look into my eyes again.  He has such a negative outlook and complains about everything.  When he used to get into those moods, I'd tell him he needs a meeting, and he would go and feel so much better.  Now it's like nothing is wrong in his eyes.  I have found a bottle of alcohol in the garage garbage, but only once and I did confront him.  He said he saw it and thought he'd try it....but does that mean the whole bottle?!  He said he was sorry and that it wouldn't happen again.  But he works all day, on his own (self employed), and I don't know that he isn't drinking hard stuff while he's not here.  I'm just so lost and confused and unhappy...I don't know what to do.