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I know recovery is a lot of work. I have worked my but off at it, and I know its not over yet, recovery will always continue in my case. Recovery will never be over for me. Today, I laughed and laughed. It felt so good. It felt wonderful in fact. I have been dealing with crisis after crisis and it has taken its toil on me. I finally laughed and laughed today, at the terrible insanity, complete heartbreaking situations. I so relate, thank you all for sharing your stories and comments. After having being so dead serious all the time, not feeling good, always worried, scared, feeling unstable, today, I laughed. Recovery is worth it. I am making progress daily, hourly to that moment when I can have daily sanity and not having to live in a unstable, crazy, off the wall, alcoholic home. I will get there. I am putting one foot in front of the other and know, it will happen, I will have a peaceful, loving, sane , stable, sober home. When? in gods time, and he better hurry! In gods time, in gods time it will happen, just have to hang on, keep hanging on and know that this too will end! I will have sanity! I hope this great feeling and laughter does not come to an end soon, it feels wonderful and I deserve it for all the hell I endured! The alcoholic is asleep, sweet dreams, hope your zoning out work for you! Hope you feel good! read in the al-anon book that I am reading, alcoholics use what ever, anything, sleep, watching TV endlessly, work, relationships, anything they can use to zone out and not feel. Just to be numb.
Today, I want to live and today I do not want to die a slow painful death. I suffered enough, I want to live! Today, I want to feel good. Today, I want to laugh and let go! Today, I want to say, I deserve this, I deserve to laugh, I worked for it!
Oh ((((jay)))) I am cheering with you and feel that you so deserve it and your share takes me back to that day when I also laughed and laughed out loud and didn't recognize the sound of my own laughter and had to ask some clients that were gathered around me, "What was that sound"? and when they got which sound I was asking about they said, "That was you laughing Jerry F". At first I felt confused and then silly that I didn't know my own laughter and then I remembered it has been so long that I had so freely done it and then I liked that it happened and the sound of it. The disease robs us of happiness and so often we don't even know it is going. I know how to laugh today and keep it out in the open....Thanks Jacquie for the post. (((((hugs)))))
(((joker))) - great share - I so appreciate your honesty. I recall when I arrived, I really did not care any more if I lived or died. I felt my life was ruined and wasted. I was broken and so darn tired. I am not 'her' any longer, and neither are you. We do deserve to be happy, joyous and free and it appears that you are well on your way! Today, I enjoy laughing. It was missing from my life for a long, long while and it's a lovely gift to get back!
Keep working it - it looks so great on you!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
