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I am looking outside the box at this point and I am ok with where I am at .. my daughter goes for her appointment and I have 100 other stresses happening all of which I create for myself .. LOL .. somehow it will all workout .. it's all I have at the moment.
This week has been stressful however been incredibly rewarding .. I am actually going to discuss cannabis oil with the Dr based upon how open he is I'm already exploring those options. IT's a very low dose so low that it doesn't register on a drug screen and hopefully by then it will be completely legal in terms of like alcohol there will be a point variance of what is ok .. based upon what I have researched it offers better relief without the side effects of the meds and girl is struggling with staying awake and so on .. college won't allot for that .. sooo we are going to try whatever we can .. she'll have a script to take if needed and in case of emergency .. I feel like this is a good way to go for right now.
She's still ticking and stuttering .. that is stress related for sure .. and she's got a bunch of triggers that she has control over and is choosing drama over serenity. We did have a bit of a discussion that this has to stop for her own sanity. Her BF is a drama king and I swear is addicted to drama and she's following in suit at the moment .. I'm highly irritable because it's stupid. LOL .. I am trying to let go of control however I let her know I'm not participating so she can start back to counseling and so on.
My anger at her dad is fierce of course this all happens after the age of 18 and trust me he won't pay for things when they are minors he's sure as hell not going to help out after the fact. LOL. Asshat. Now I get where it's coming from it was a realization my brain knew however did not present until I happened to be having a conversation. UGH. It's one more thing I'm responsible for while he floats along in oblivion. UGH and ARRRGGGHHHH.
It will all workout to top it off I have one starting a new JR high the other starting college so welcome to my life of the never ending money pit. I'm just looking at basics nothing horribly fancy.
Anyway .. we are just trying to plod through the best we can .. and we will have more information come this afternoon .. I am nervous however it will be ok. I at least feel like there is a plan vs twisting myself up over the unknown.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
I am sorry you are going through this -- however, there are a lot of positives I am hearing as well -- all workout, will be OK, best we can, and so on. I like what you said about this week -- being very stressful but incredibly rewarding. That's excellent!
To me, outside the box resonates and is a good thing. It takes me out of my comfort zone, and that is where I "grow" -- spiritually, emotionally, and in many other ways. My father raised me and taught me -- and pushed me, LOL -- to do one uncomfortable thing every day. I remember him saying think outside the box, step outside the box, get out of your comfort zone, do one uncomfortable thing every day...and that's what really living is!
Good luck, good spirits, and all the best for this afternoon and always.
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God, grant me the serenity...to accept the PEOPLE I cannot change...the courage to change the ONE I can...and the wisdom to know it's ME...
I hope it all works out ok for your daughter Serenity. Ive got to say I love how your processing this with your program. Trusting in the Higher power and that everything will be okay. What comfort in that. We have a gift in this program. I hope you still get to take care of you and get the time to spend looking after you.x
Well, things didn't go as expected and I'm definitely looking at a different direction.
I did not care for the Dr and what people are not aware of is my XAH's experience with Clonazepam and it was awful. He went literally crazy. My mother had a similar experience and part of the issues with my BF's X is pill related and this one.
Dr was not pleased about my push back and refused to put her on anything else. So it's his way or nothing .. and I just eyeballed him and said NOTHING .. LOL .. she's scheduled for an MRI as well as getting her into a psychologist and I'm going to go with other things as well.
So first thing first she's very stressed and we are taking video to show before and after's. Sooo .. it is what it is.
Thanks for the support this is just very overwhelming.
Hugs S :)
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Faith minus vulnerability and mystery equals extremism. If you've got all the answers, then don't call what you do "faith". - Brene Brown
"Whatever truth you own doesn't own you" - Gary John Bishop
Oh Serenity - so very sorry for the outcome of the Doctor visit. I am also sorry you are overwhelmed. I am a huge believer in 2nd opinions especially when there is any meds. involved for the long run. We have Crohn's disease in our gene pool and the side effects of most medications are frightening. For my generation, each sub-family has at least one living with it and each has done research and is using different approaches to managing the symptoms - it's a chronic disease ... not cure, but can be controlled through diet and medication.
We also have some mental health issues and many of the medications also have significant, life-shortening side effects. Again, each is doing what they believe to be best - and boy....howdy....there are differing results. So - I applaud your willingness to do your research and be part of the solution; whatever that may be.
Prayers continue and loving support sent your way!!! I must share that my oldest son, 25, is still more of a chaotic/drama king than I can embrace. His presence sometimes can make me anxious...so I understand what you are describing. I throw Al-Anon slogans at him all the time and while it rarely changes his behaviors, it does sometimes give his cause to pause long enough for me to escape the room!!!
(((Hugs))) - keep trusting the process and HP and keep us posted!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Serenity, I just saw your other post about your daughter. My son has Tourette Syndrome, it does run in families. Family members might not have the actually motor tics. They could just have other associated behaviors like OCD, ADD, hyperactivity, and a bunch of other things. His tics began when he was around seven years old. He is 34 now and they are hardly noticeable. My whole family does not sleep good, we take medication, even my grandson takes melatonin. School was really hard for him, the stress is really bad for the tics. I hope that you find the right doctor and your daughter gets some relief.
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