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as usual, im in the dark as to why my HP leads me in one direction or another. Being nearly out of money,still umemployed, im moving into my boyfriend's house. what a very different direction then what i planned 1 and 1/2 yrs ago when i left XAH. Been going through a variety of emotions. on one hand, i have been the happiest ive ever been. still cautious because boyfriend has a few issues including the fact he has never lived with a girlfriend. Also his house is hoarded, not in a rat,horrible way,just in a grimy lots of stuff way. I have been seeking support for this and feel semi okay. Still, as i said this is a different path. I had intended to live on my own with a job ....HP evidently has other plans....
((Alyce)) HP has also lead me in directions that I question. Having faith and trusting the process helped. Program friends reminded me that Program is about having the "courage to change" and understanding that nothing was written in stone-- I could always change my mind.
Positive thoughts on the way
(((Alyce))) - I'm sending you tons of prayers and positive thoughts. I too have wondered at times about the direction of things/me and while it's been different than I hoped, I've always been OK....trust the program, trust the process and keep working on you - more will be revealed!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
My life has taken many strange turns, some of which, I still can't figure out. But each path I travel helps me grow and be a better person. My HP leads me where I should be to learn what I should learn. I have faith that these paths will lead to an awesome life (with a lucrative book and movie deal, not likely). A life that I can look back on and not just cry, but laugh and be proud of. Faith in my HP and the knowledge I gain along the way, is all I truly have to give me hope for a better future.