Well, Christmas is over; I am ever so thankful for the wonderful time with family. I am also thankful that it is over. I held it together most of the time except church; but I made it through without having to walk out.
Hope came to me on Christmas morning when I found out that my AS contacted his cousins to say Merry Christmas. I'm pretty sure he saw pictures on Instagram and felt a little sad. He also called my mom and dad but before they had any words, he hung up. At least he dialed their number. 
He is still in there somewhere and I am hopeful JFT that he may come home.