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I took my licensing exam earlier. I failed. I needed a 72 to pass and I got a 67. I may be out of a job or they may give me another chance. They will be doing an employee evaluation and I will find out more tomorrow. Basically, I think i'm on the edge score wise but I did all the work required, I attended all the calls they asked of me, and I completed all the quizzes and practice tests, as well.
I wasn't totally sold on doing all of this in the beginning but it started to grow on me as I moved through it and now I'm just completely disappointed and feeling a bit sorry for myself. I know it will pass but I am supposed to go to dinner with my Regional Leader and I feel weird showing up and saying, "Hey, guess what, I failed?" UGH
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(((Andromeda))) I am sorry to hear this. Is the passing score an optional number established by your company or is it a statewide requirement? If it is an optional number, then maybe they can adjust the passing grade requirement.
I am sure many have failed first time around, so I would go for dinner and offer to retake the test asap.
It's such a horrid feeling I know, but the upside is, now you know exactly what is expected and when you do it again it will be much easier and less nerve wracking. I hope you'll jump back on the horse and your employer will be amenable to you retaking the test. Sounds pretty likely considering how close you were!
Try to have an enjoyable dinner; you deserve that after working so hard.
Fingers crossed for a good outcome for you.
Michael Jordan was cut from his high school basketball team. He turned out ok.
Also, had you not told us, we wouldn't have known! :) You wonder how many people have failed the same exam and you just don't know about it. People fail at things much bigger than this every day.
Keep at it, You'll be fine.
-- Edited by slogan_jim on Wednesday 21st of December 2016 08:55:53 PM
(((Sweetie))) - sending you tons of kudos and love...think about where you were when you took this leap of faith and where you stand today. You did not fail - you just did not pass the test. You stepped outside your comfort zone, you began the journey of a major career change in the midst of adjusting to a new home/family setting. You've continued with your studies, your self-care, your job, your program, your family and your new home! You are a huge success in my mind and the test is one small part of your journey.
I love what SJ and PC say above me - so, so true. Feel your feelings, examine your disappointment and then move forward when you are ready to do so. Even when things are different than planned, lean into your faith and your program. I have full faith for you if you are lacking - just for today. Our Betty here always suggests the asset/gratitude list when we are left of center - I gave some insight from where I'm sitting and you are far, far, far from a failure!
(((Hugs))) - you got this!!!
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Big hugs sis .. This is a minor set back in the big scheme of things. You don't have enough information yet and you will know when you know. Hugs S ;) positive thoughts and prayers.
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Thanks everyone. I find out tomorrow if they'll let me retake the exam. If I do it will be a 30 day waiting period. The pas/fail rate is industry standard and there can't be any variations or changes made. You either pass or you don't.
My bf was just encouraging me earlier and he said; you know, the kids don't have cancer and we're all healthy and there are so many others who are worse off than us......"
Perspective is everything and I'm aware that it's just a test and things could be worse. I'll be fine tomorrow and ready to get back at it. I do pray that they give me a second chance but they literally look at my stats and do an evaluation and then decide if I'm worth a second shot.
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I'm so sorry how stressful. I knew a lawyer once who was studying for the bar exam. He failed it the first time through. He said, "That's okay. They say to pass it you have to study for 16 hours a day for a month. I can't work at that pace and have a life. So I'm going to study for 8 hours a day for two months." He had to take the exam after the first month, and he failed, so he just studied 8 hours a day again for the second month and then passed. (My numbers are probably somewhat off, since it was a while ago, but you get the point.) I was amazed at his sense of calm. I know it's not the same for you because you have the worry of whether they'll keep you on at your job. I wonder what the percentage of people who pass the exam on the first try is. You were mighty close! Sending you big vibes for a successful second time around and a happy Christmas with all worries put aside for the moment!
You wonder how many people have failed the same exam and you just don't know about it ..
i like many of these replies but i like this line .. it's sort of like when we first came to alanon feeling so 'alone for not 'knowing there were others who 'understand .. (because nothing was shared out in the open ... which of course at times led us toward judging our 'insides by those others (outside of recovery) 'outsides ..
hoping you are able to retake and thinking of you .. will keep you in prayers on this end !
Well, I actually was in a group of 4 ladies who texted each other and encouraged each other throughout the study process. All 3 of them are in CO and I'm in AZ. One of the other ladies failed, as well, but 2 of them passed. So, just our little group alone is at 50%. They gave the other woman who failed a second chance but she scored a 70% whereas I was at 67. Not sure what they're going to do still. I'm in a wait and see pattern.
After I take this text again, if they let me, then I will have to take another exam that will be even harder as far as content. And, it has the same stipulation as the other: I must pass to retain employment. No second chances so there's a lot of pressure on me to keep learning and to keep pressing forward.
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Hi Adromeda I am glad that you have discovered that you are not alone . Please do take it one test at a time and do not project to the future. Remember with each new testing requirements you will have attained additional experience and knowledge so that passing the next tests will be easier.
After 20 years in my Company and 5 years before retirement my Company required that everyone in my Department ,myself included, take a standardized State test and become licensed in order to maintain employment. I studied very hard in order to pass and many failed . They were permitted enough time to retest. The State then instituted a annual" Continuing education program " requirement and since all were then accustomed to testing everyone passed.
