The material presented
here is not Al-Anon Conference Approved Literature. It is a method
to exchange
information, ideas, feelings, problems and solutions on a personal
level.
It's been about four months. It's 1am and I woke up because I heard husband making weird noises in the living room. He was asleep but I knew immediately something was up. Sure enough when I "woke" him he wasn't speaking English and couldn't look straight.
He's not in active recovery, but I finally am. I'm so disappointed. I had to put something big and heavy in front of my sons door because I was worried husband may wander in there (it's happened before). And now I may do the same here in front of my bedroom too (last time he took pills he fell on top of me).
((Prissy)) relapse is disappointing and is part of the disease process. Glad that you are taking care of yourself. Positive thoughts and prayers on the way
Ended up sleeping in three year olds room. At 3am he began grunting and throwing up and was REALLY out of it. He couldn't even speak. My living room is a mess.
Next steps is to get locks installed on bedroom doors so that I know my son and I are safe at least. Not much else I can do. He's dabbled in AA and he hasn't drank in our house like this in over two years. Maybe this will be an extra push for help. But I'm not hopeful.
Prissy, I am so sorry you are going through this. I have felt that way, too, afraid in my own home, cleaning up messes, blocking the bedroom door.
I found hope and support in Al-Anon meetings. I've known people to bring their young children to meetings if they didn't have child care, and it was fine. Anyplace you can reach out to for support in the community would be a good step.
What the alcoholic does ... we can't control it, change it, or cure it ... but we can care for ourselves. Please take care.
(((Prissy))) - I too am sorry about the relapse. I've also been there and it's no fun at all. My best suggestion is lean into your program, find a meeting and do you. I did put locks on all doors here and use/used them when I want/need to. It was a great step that helped me feel more secure with active disease around me.
You are not alone - we're just a post away....sending love and light your way today...
__________________
Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
My house reeks of vomit. I'm taking my three year old out for the day and then we're staying at a hotel. I refuse to clean up his vomit and he's still completely out of his mind drunk.
Thank you everyone. I've only been in the program for three months and I can already tell a difference. In the past when this happened I would try reasoning and threatening and now I'm simply like "peace out for today".
I'm pregnant and due in six eeeks which is quite terrifying but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. Hugs to everyone.
God this apartment stinks.
Prissy often times relapses are the worse drunks the alcoholic can have because they have had some sober time and then the disease needs to do "catch up", getting as much alcohol as it can to make up for what it was denied in the dry period. Alcoholics often die during relapse periods of time because the attempt to "catch up" is much too toxic. I am also recovering as an alcoholic and have experienced toxic shock which completely shuts down the body. Living thru a toxic shock even is a God or Higher Power decision.
Keep coming back often and let us ride this our with you. You are not alone. ((((hugs))))
Thank you again everyone. This board has given me strength to move through this until my face to face meeting. You have no idea how much your words help.
Keep on taking care of yourself and your son. Kudos on knowing that it is ok to go to a hotel for the night. You also may want to get a professional carpet cleaner in to make your house smell better again.
