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Now that i have no contact with my XAH, I can see myself. There are some behaviors etc that I dont like in myself. Because of neglect and abandonment issues as a child, i occasionally have a meltdown, when im sick or not up to par. I was berated as a child when i got ill or needed help. So these past few days i have been scared,sad and weepy with my sweet boyfriend. He has been loving and supportive. Yet I still dont trust him because my X often abandoned me when i was less than 100% able. So i get worried new guy will leave or that im an inadequate person. I dont like this in myself. thanks for reading
(((Alyce))) - great share....there is no shame in admitting fear and/or how you are feeling! I can share that when I am sick - in any way, shape or form - I don't process in a positive manner naturally or even easily. These are the moments for me that I really have to lean into my HP and have concluded that he's wanting me to stop overthinking and just heal.
I'm sending you positive thoughts, prayers and (((hugs))).....I am sorry that you're where you are - breathe, breathe, breathe and know that this too shall pass!!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
Alyce alanon gave me permission to be human, have feelings, to not perfect and to accept that i can feel be ill and under the weather without blaming myself or beating myself up. You are human so please be gentle with yourself rest, and trust the process. Positive tought on the way.
