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"Most of us have no trouble admitting that addiction had become a destructive force in our lives. Our best efforts resulted in ever greater destruction and despair. At some point, we realized that we needed the help of some Power greater than our addiction."Basic Text p. 24Most of us know without a doubt that our lives have been filled with destruction. Learning that we have a disease called addiction helps us understand the source or cause of this destruction. We can recognize addiction as a power that has worked devastation in our lives. When we take the First Step, we admit that the destructive force of addiction is bigger than we are. We are powerless over it.At this point, our only hope is to find some Power greater than the force of our addiction—a Power bent on preserving life, not ending it. We don't have to understand it or even name it; we only have to believe that there could be such a Higher Power. The belief that a benevolent Power greater than our addiction just might exist gives us enough hope to stay clean, a day at a time.Just for today: I believe in the possibility of some Power that's bigger than my addiction.
>>>>>>>>>>>>yeah my many addictions have messed up my life....i see one addiction where my mind wandering when i am doing something....usually fantasizing in my other happy life, and so i screw up THIS one by messing up on my current activity .......so the lesson????? SLOW down PAY attention......i know i have a power within me.....ALL of my answers lie WITHIN me............if something gives me a HIGH and a LOW and SHAME and is HABIT....its an addiction.....i guess i have a few of these things....all used to either cope with my sucky life. or to cope with overwhelming feelings or to mask feelings....either way, i am running away, avoiding something.........so the eating/ fantasizing/ drinking/ controlling/ .........
>>>>>>>>> this crap is bigger than me...i cannot break the fantasy, mind wandering when i do something, than i screw up, ...its like mind wandering to my happier life-----the HIGH..........i screw up what i am doing cuz my mind is away----the LOW.......i see the results of my actions and see myself unable to stop it.......the SHAME...thinking i am a f*** up..........it happends a lot------HABIT..........so what do i do????? step ONE....i am powerless.....step TWO....dig within and dig deep within for the answer to it.........step THREE....give over to it.....i am a part of the SOURCE.....a part of the SOURCE is within me....and it wants to preserve my life, not end it....so i can give over to it....release it unto the universe, as i work the steps 4, 9 to own up---clean up, what is making me do this?? what feelings am i avoiding?? running from??? too painful to work through yet??? find them--- feel them----- get PAST them...........and than grow up by helping others with their addictions................i think that God/ Jesus are CORPORATE----busy with satan and the darkness.........but there IS that part of the SOURCE (god/hp/allah/jehova/heshem, what ever its name is)......but there is a part of it IN SIDE OF ME......there HAS to be......so------REconnect with me???? REconnect with the source of all good things.......i am a good thing.....so the source has to be within me, next to my soul..........
What a great post to get my mind off & running today... I DO believe God is eloquent & simple, I think we try to complicate it by throwing "religion/politics" into the mix of the clear truth of what spirituality & God is.
I see us all as body-mind-soul, father-son-holy spirit, the 3 mae a 4th dimension that is beyond our understanding, ahh, the trinity, like the Greeks saw God.
I think we are all equal in terms of having the spark of the divine within us, only some of us choose to ignore what is good, or to follow the truth as it isn't always the easiest thing to do. So many just want an easy way out.
I see God as love in the highest vibration. Compassionate, inclusive, forgiving... not as something unattainable, 'making us suffer'. I never thought God wanted me to suffer, I did think I was being punished at a time but I see now this was HP's way of getting my attention back to focus on surrenerring to God itself. Like water seeks water, light seeks light.
I had enough guilt reading Zen & seeing I could free myself from pain, it was my own perception but not knowing how, entirely.
But I am being set free, not all days are as great as others but for today, I can certainly feel many Angels & miracles on the brink.
love ya rosie! -K
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Light, Love, Peace, Blessings & Healing to Us All. God's Will Be Done. Amen.
Thanks for your insight Rosie. I am so ready for my HP to help me. I cannot do it alone and don't want to. I have been trying to listen for answers. My love addiction with my husband is killing my spirit. I am so ready to let go.
HP)))
Thanks for sharing.