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AH is working from home, and drinking while doing it. While part of me wanted to feel sorry for myself, I reminded myself that's his choice and what will my choice be? Always have that plan B :)
I went to the gym, ran errands, cleaned house, all things that made me feel good.
Then I decided to take a long walk by the beach (I am a lucky duck to be hear the ocean). I revisited a trail I'd only been to one other time. As I walked, I remembered the last time I went there was with my AH who was very drunk (I didn't realize this till we started walking). I let his drunkenness really ruin the day and got angry with him. Now, my experience was very different. I felt grateful for the walk, enjoyed the views, the smell of the ocean, the warm sun, the beauty of the town. It just felt great to be out there and completely detached. And though I was walking alone, I felt significantly less alone then I did the first time I was there with AH.
That was a great opportunity to reflect on the progress I've made within myself and my healing, just a share :) So glad to have this awesome group of people in this forum to chat with, thankful <3
I got the picture and it is a nice one for me. Looking forward to my morning meeting which is 20 feet off the Pacific at its nearest point. The peace of mind and serenity becomes real there. (((hugs)))
MidnightOwl - thank you for your share....you are doing fantastic - keep working it...it looks good on you!
Making small changes in who I am and how I respond made a ton of difference in my life, and propelled me to want to keep changing and growing!
I too am gearing up for my morning meeting here. Grateful that it's here for me and all my family here and there.
Make it a great day!!
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Practice the PAUSE...Pause before judging. Pause before assuming. Pause before accusing. Pause whenever you are about to react harshly and you will avoid doing and saying things you will later regret. ~~~~ Lori Deschene
I relate to your story of the constant reminders... the job of my brain.... it re-minds me of everything constantly. My brain always brought up the sorrow too... it zeros in on what I do NOT have... the negative. Until I catch it and realize that I'm standing at the turning point... I can come back to the present moment.... back to what is happening now... and I hear YOU tell me how absolutely beautiful that moment is when I do. I'm going to practice this today, thank you!
I keep a quote from Helen Keller very close; âAlthough the world is full of suffering, it is full also of the overcoming of it.â
It's exactly what you did, you followed Al-Anon principles to overcome the suffering ........ high five, my friend!!!!! (((miracles)))
